Post by Kenzi Grey on Aug 30, 2016 18:04:43 GMT -5
OOC: The personal thoughts of Kenzi Grey from her personal diary (this is only her inner musings and is completely off-camera):
I gave it my all at Queen of the Ring and I left more of me in that arena than I care to think of. I fell short of my goal, I wanted to cripple Alexis Blake and I tried my damn hardest…but it wasn’t enough. After I came to and got my wits about me, I was really upset and I felt like I failed and I let my friends down. I was so disappointed that I had to stop and really listen to what people were saying about the match...telling me and Lexi both that we had stolen the show…that we had earned their respect.
Maybe it was the morphine talking, but for a few hours I felt really good about myself…I felt good about what I had tried to accomplish out there. I didn’t win…I didn’t lose…but I showed LAW what I was made of and finally I would get a little respect and what I wanted…what I earned, a championship opportunity!
So the next show is announced and I’m surprised…THERE’S NOT ONE, BUT TWO BIG SHOWS! I scan the card and I see that Lexi is in the main event on Saturday…GOOD FOR HER! Obviously they recognized the effort she put forward! She didn’t win…she didn’t lose…but she showed what she was made of! Looks like I’m on the second show! Opportunity is coming, at last! I scan the card…but there must be a mistake! I don’t see my name anywhere!
THAT CAN’T BE RIGHT! LEXI IS THERE…SHE’S IN THE MAIN EVENT AGAINST A WOMAN I HAVE MORE BEEF WITH THAN SHE DOES!
THE SECOND SHOW HAS THE FORMER CHAOS CHAMPION AND THE ONLY WOMAN TO ACCEPT MY CHALLENGE FOR HER TITLE!
...not one...but two perfect matches for me...yet...just like Validation, I put in the work and I get FUCKING IGNORED!
Long story, short…it’s the same old story! LAW uses me to get its ratings…but they never deliver on their promise of opportunity…not to me! Other women get those by beating lesser opponents than I have. I have to kick and scream and instead of them saying; “you’re right” or “let’s talk about what we REALLY want from you” I get told that I’m a complainer or that I should just quit!
...Mackenzie Roberts told me that I should quit. I can't believe that I respected her, but her advice to me is to quit? Is that what she did? She quit...
Well…I’m not quitting! In fact, I intend to take the advice of some of my closest friends. I am going to be who I am and I am going to take what I want! If LAW wants me to shut up…they are going to give me what I deserve or they are going to have to fire me! There is no more compromise and I am done waiting for what I earned at Validation and LAW 50! Give me my shot...or else!
P.S. The squeaky wheel doesn’t always get the grease, but sometimes it runs motherfuckers over while it’s making a commotion!
I gave it my all at Queen of the Ring and I left more of me in that arena than I care to think of. I fell short of my goal, I wanted to cripple Alexis Blake and I tried my damn hardest…but it wasn’t enough. After I came to and got my wits about me, I was really upset and I felt like I failed and I let my friends down. I was so disappointed that I had to stop and really listen to what people were saying about the match...telling me and Lexi both that we had stolen the show…that we had earned their respect.
Maybe it was the morphine talking, but for a few hours I felt really good about myself…I felt good about what I had tried to accomplish out there. I didn’t win…I didn’t lose…but I showed LAW what I was made of and finally I would get a little respect and what I wanted…what I earned, a championship opportunity!
So the next show is announced and I’m surprised…THERE’S NOT ONE, BUT TWO BIG SHOWS! I scan the card and I see that Lexi is in the main event on Saturday…GOOD FOR HER! Obviously they recognized the effort she put forward! She didn’t win…she didn’t lose…but she showed what she was made of! Looks like I’m on the second show! Opportunity is coming, at last! I scan the card…but there must be a mistake! I don’t see my name anywhere!
THAT CAN’T BE RIGHT! LEXI IS THERE…SHE’S IN THE MAIN EVENT AGAINST A WOMAN I HAVE MORE BEEF WITH THAN SHE DOES!
THE SECOND SHOW HAS THE FORMER CHAOS CHAMPION AND THE ONLY WOMAN TO ACCEPT MY CHALLENGE FOR HER TITLE!
...not one...but two perfect matches for me...yet...just like Validation, I put in the work and I get FUCKING IGNORED!
Long story, short…it’s the same old story! LAW uses me to get its ratings…but they never deliver on their promise of opportunity…not to me! Other women get those by beating lesser opponents than I have. I have to kick and scream and instead of them saying; “you’re right” or “let’s talk about what we REALLY want from you” I get told that I’m a complainer or that I should just quit!
...Mackenzie Roberts told me that I should quit. I can't believe that I respected her, but her advice to me is to quit? Is that what she did? She quit...
Well…I’m not quitting! In fact, I intend to take the advice of some of my closest friends. I am going to be who I am and I am going to take what I want! If LAW wants me to shut up…they are going to give me what I deserve or they are going to have to fire me! There is no more compromise and I am done waiting for what I earned at Validation and LAW 50! Give me my shot...or else!
P.S. The squeaky wheel doesn’t always get the grease, but sometimes it runs motherfuckers over while it’s making a commotion!