Post by Kenzi Grey on Oct 29, 2016 5:53:54 GMT -5
OOC: The thoughts of Kenzi Grey from her personal diary (this is only her inner musings and is completely off-camera…though she now shares them with Song, if she cares to read them):
It’s been a good while since I wrote in my diary, mainly because I finally have a reason to not live my life in these pages so much…but there’s time enough to write about that later.
Aims has put up with my shit for so long in her quest to make me a better person that I have started to take it for granted that she will be there for me whenever I need it. I have never questioned that maybe I might need to be there for her one day. I’m selfish that way…I can’t help it.
Last week AJ needed me…well…she needed someone, she was just unlucky that I happened to be the only one around. It seemed that she was about to make a huge mistake…a mistake with Tina, my ex-girlfriend. I honestly tried my best to be a good friend and help her realize that what she had already was way better than throwing it all away for something else that would be fleeting at best. I felt like an idiot trying to tell her anything! After all, I'm the posterchild for being shitty!
…maybe I’m an idiot for putting AJ on a pedestal in the first place…she never asked to be there…
I never imagined that she would even consider making a mistake of that magnitude. I mean, I know that no one is perfect, but with me she has always tried to do the right thing. Up until that moment, I wanted to do the right thing as well, but now I am left to wonder if she can’t stay on the straight and narrow, what hope do I have?
P.S. I don’t know if AJ and Tina bumped uglies or not, but AJ did offer to step aside if I still wanted to be with Tina…that was nice of her…but really fucking creepy at the same time!
It’s been a good while since I wrote in my diary, mainly because I finally have a reason to not live my life in these pages so much…but there’s time enough to write about that later.
Aims has put up with my shit for so long in her quest to make me a better person that I have started to take it for granted that she will be there for me whenever I need it. I have never questioned that maybe I might need to be there for her one day. I’m selfish that way…I can’t help it.
Last week AJ needed me…well…she needed someone, she was just unlucky that I happened to be the only one around. It seemed that she was about to make a huge mistake…a mistake with Tina, my ex-girlfriend. I honestly tried my best to be a good friend and help her realize that what she had already was way better than throwing it all away for something else that would be fleeting at best. I felt like an idiot trying to tell her anything! After all, I'm the posterchild for being shitty!
…maybe I’m an idiot for putting AJ on a pedestal in the first place…she never asked to be there…
I never imagined that she would even consider making a mistake of that magnitude. I mean, I know that no one is perfect, but with me she has always tried to do the right thing. Up until that moment, I wanted to do the right thing as well, but now I am left to wonder if she can’t stay on the straight and narrow, what hope do I have?
P.S. I don’t know if AJ and Tina bumped uglies or not, but AJ did offer to step aside if I still wanted to be with Tina…that was nice of her…but really fucking creepy at the same time!