Post by Kenzi Grey on May 16, 2017 15:47:23 GMT -5
I have the worst mother on the planet. She’s so bad, I doubt I’d piss on her to put her out if she was on fire. Maybe that is why I have spent so much time trying to find someone to fill that gap for me. For a time it was Violet Ripley, but she has her own family and no room for another child. Then there was Amy Jo Smyth, but ever since she sided with Lucas Dupree…the man who told me that my contributions to Ladies All-Star Wrestling were worthless, I haven’t been able to see her in that same light.
Nina Stokes has ALWAYS been like a mother to me…
She’s not THAT much older than me, but she’s wiser than most and she gives it to me straight…no judgement…she just tells me plain and leaves me to it. I always seek out her advice…especially in affairs of the heart.
When I was dating Song, I brought her there to visit my Ma…and…well…it went terribly! I can’t really even say what it was that set her off…but that was the writing on the wall right there. I have never met a person with a cross word for my Ma…not a one! I bothered me that Song would just go off on her like that.
I hoped that I wasn’t tempting fate by bringing Sarah Lacklan, the love of my life, to Miami to meet my Ma. I knew that they would get along famously…it was never in question. Sarah and I made a special trip together, braving the warm climate which would play havoc with my lover’s pale complexion.
Danger aside, Sarah and my Ma did get along famously…just as I knew that they would. My Ma could see how in love I was and she seemed happy for me…but I was even happier that she and Sarah connected. That was worth more to me than anything else that you could imagine…
TEXT MESSAGES WITH NINA
MOTHER'S DAY
14 May 2017
Leave it to my Ma to sew things up and tie it all in a nice neat bow for me when I need it the most. Sarah is the most important thing in my life right now and I have to do whatever it takes to keep her. My selfishness has to come to an end...I have to do and be better...I will do and be better...
...for both of us...
Nina Stokes has ALWAYS been like a mother to me…
She’s not THAT much older than me, but she’s wiser than most and she gives it to me straight…no judgement…she just tells me plain and leaves me to it. I always seek out her advice…especially in affairs of the heart.
When I was dating Song, I brought her there to visit my Ma…and…well…it went terribly! I can’t really even say what it was that set her off…but that was the writing on the wall right there. I have never met a person with a cross word for my Ma…not a one! I bothered me that Song would just go off on her like that.
I hoped that I wasn’t tempting fate by bringing Sarah Lacklan, the love of my life, to Miami to meet my Ma. I knew that they would get along famously…it was never in question. Sarah and I made a special trip together, braving the warm climate which would play havoc with my lover’s pale complexion.
Danger aside, Sarah and my Ma did get along famously…just as I knew that they would. My Ma could see how in love I was and she seemed happy for me…but I was even happier that she and Sarah connected. That was worth more to me than anything else that you could imagine…
TEXT MESSAGES WITH NINA
MOTHER'S DAY
14 May 2017
Nina Stokes: So…tell me about this girl of yours. What’s the deal with you two?
Kenzi Grey: I think it's emotional...she needs me to fill the spaces she lacks. At first, it was sexual...it was even open, but after we did that once, it was her that said she no longer wanted to share me. A surprise since she's way more sexual than me. I didn't complain, I had no desire to be with anyone else after that one threesome.
Too much info?
Eh! You're my Ma! Fuck it! 😂
Too much info?
Eh! You're my Ma! Fuck it! 😂
Nina Stokes: You know I'm not bothered silly.
Kenzi Grey: Yeah, but I still feel weird talking like that with you. I know you're not my actual Ma, but...you take care of me like you were.
Nina Stokes: I think we are past the phase of being embarrassed lol.
Do you enjoy her? Her presence?
Do you enjoy her? Her presence?
Kenzi Grey: I never want to be without her. When she's not with me I feel like I'm losing her and I do stupid shit.
It's my disorder, I know...but I can't help myself. She knows and she's trying to deal with it. It ruined things with Song, but I'm glad it did....Sarah is all that I need.
It's my disorder, I know...but I can't help myself. She knows and she's trying to deal with it. It ruined things with Song, but I'm glad it did....Sarah is all that I need.
Nina Stokes: Good. I'm glad you’re happy.
Kenzi Grey: Not even an adequate word for it. I just need to be better...for her. That's all.
Nina Stokes: I see I see.
Kenzi Grey: I don't want to fuck up, you know?
Nina Stokes: I understand. But don't worry about that. Just enjoy the bonding you are doing, okay?
Kenzi Grey: YES! I will!
Nina Stokes: Nice.
How you feels?
How you feels?
Kenzi Grey: I feel like choking Sarah! LOL But, I'm good Ma! I'm great!
Nina Stokes: Oh no!
Kenzi Grey: Nothing...TOO bad...just, she's a knuckle head!
She is seriously taken with you! That is how I know she is the right one for me. She knows you're the goods!
She is seriously taken with you! That is how I know she is the right one for me. She knows you're the goods!
Nina Stokes: Was she really?
Kenzi Grey: Yeah! She really was! There are not a lot of...US...where she comes from. If you get me...
Nina Stokes: Darker skinned people?
Kenzi Grey: Yes! Lacklanland is pretty...white!
Nina Stokes: Aye, well that's okay.
Kenzi Grey: Not why I was upset though. She knows that I have...issues...and she's a HUGE flirt...as you saw. Last night she wanted to enforce an amendment to our relationship contract that she stop her flirting.
Nina Stokes: She didn't seem too flirty to me. But sometimes I miss those things.
Kenzi Grey: Yeah! Right out the gate...but I'm sensitive to it. Which has been a problem...not hers, but mines. I need to stop being jealous!
Nina Stokes: Hmm...
Oh! The preferred flavor comment?
Oh! The preferred flavor comment?
Kenzi Grey: Yeah...
She told me at the park that you'd be tops on the list if we were swinging! 😂
She told me at the park that you'd be tops on the list if we were swinging! 😂
Nina Stokes: Oh geez haha. I need to get better at picking up on these things.
Kenzi Grey: No, you're fine. I need to stop being a jealous idiot before I wreck this. I need to hold her interest...I have to make her keep loving and wanting me.
Nina Stokes: Babe, always remember that a relationship is a partnership. You both must be on the same accord.
Kenzi Grey: Ma, I have ruined every relationship! I don't want to ruin this one!
Nina Stokes: Babe, I know that's on your mind. But if her flirting bothers you, then she's gotta work to cut it down. And, I think she will.
Kenzi Grey: I'm the problem! I fell for her flirting and all! It's not fair that she has to change for me. She's not asking me to change.
Nina Stokes: Hmm…
Kenzi Grey:
Nina Stokes: Nothing dear. Just remember, relationships take two people's efforts.
She makes you happy doesn't she? I can tell.
She makes you happy doesn't she? I can tell.
Kenzi Grey: More than anything...but...I know she's going to leave me 😢
Nina Stokes: Why do you say that?
Kenzi Grey: Because...everyone does. Because it will kill me if she did.
Nina Stokes: Stop thinking like that!
Kenzi Grey: I try not to Ma...but it always happens. It always happens!
Nina Stokes: Stop it!
Hey! The international Elite cup?
Your boo is in it.
Hey! The international Elite cup?
Your boo is in it.
Kenzi Grey: She's fighting the world...I can't keep up with all her tournaments.
I wish she wasn't…
I wish she wasn't…
Nina Stokes: I sent her a message to check on her. Is that alright?
Kenzi Grey: Yes! She knows what you mean to me and she loves you as much as I do!
I don't mind if you guys talk.
I don't mind if you guys talk.
Nina Stokes: She said she's doing okay
Kenzi Grey: Yeah...I just hope she finds success soon.
Nina Stokes: You don't like her fighting so much?
Kenzi Grey: I don't like it at all.
Nina Stokes: Why boo?
Kenzi Grey: I'm selfish...I just want her with me.
Nina Stokes: I see.
Babe, you've to understand, she's probably doing this for a reason.
Babe, you've to understand, she's probably doing this for a reason.
Kenzi Grey: I know. The same reason I refuse to quit LAW.
Nina Stokes: So you gotta support her boo. Like she supports you.
I know it's hard, her fighting in so many places and being away. But, she probably feels like she has to right now.
I know it's hard, her fighting in so many places and being away. But, she probably feels like she has to right now.
Kenzi Gray: Maybe...I'll try Ma. I'll try...
Nina Stokes: Why does she wrestle?
Kenzi Grey: To honor her father. She wants to be like him.
Nina Stokes: Then it is important that she becomes successful fast. I understand...
Want some mama advice?
Want some mama advice?
Kenzi Grey: Always!
Nina Stokes: You must remember that your relationship is different because you are both wrestlers.
Her career is important, and your career is important. So you gotta support each other while you both strive for your goals.
Her career is important, and your career is important. So you gotta support each other while you both strive for your goals.
Kenzi Grey: I know you're right. I'm just a selfish person. I will try my best to be better.
Nina Stokes: Good...
Leave it to my Ma to sew things up and tie it all in a nice neat bow for me when I need it the most. Sarah is the most important thing in my life right now and I have to do whatever it takes to keep her. My selfishness has to come to an end...I have to do and be better...I will do and be better...
...for both of us...