Post by Kenzi Grey on Jul 23, 2017 20:31:35 GMT -5
...PLEASE...
JFK INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT
New York City, New York
July 20, 2017
"please please please please please"
Sarah's mantra all day. She knew she was nearly delirious from grief, guilt, and lack of sleep; indeed, she had only slept about two fitful hours the night before, the only sleep she had had since Kenzi woke her up to make love on Tuesday morning. She knew she wasn't thinking straight. She had even had moments of hallucinations.
"please please please please please"
Kenzi said she would be there, said she would pick her up. Kenzi had never lied to her. Ever. But Sarah knew that if she did...she would deserve it. She deserved to be lied to. Deserved to have Kenzi angry at her. Deserved to be hated by her. Because she had been a coward.
"please please please please please"
She had not presented herself for travel. Her handmaiden had been in a fit when she received her instructions that of just putting her hair up in a tight bun and to lay the veil before her face. No makeup, no wings, no anything. She wanted to be pure, striped clean, naked. She didn't want to be Sarah for this, did not want to be the Firestarter or the Red Queen. Just a young woman in a black dress that fell to the floor, the symbol of her Renati line woven into one shoulder.
She wanted to be Selena.
"please please please please please"
She blew by her guards as soon as she stepped off the plane, cared not for any information about baggage claim or gate numbers. All she cared about was whether or not the Light of her life was waiting for her. Whether or not she had something to fight for. She planned on fighting hard...fighting harder than she ever had in her life.
"Have faith," her mother said to her father as she passed away, one hand in his as his other arm held their newborn child. Words for them both, words to be passed down through the years to Sarah, the only advice from mother to daughter there could ever be. Sarah held faith...but she also knew that she had stolen it, ripped it out of Kenzi's arms. She had ruined their relationship for her petty gripe of "losing herself." And she hated herself for it.
"please please please please please"
The symbolism of this having been the second time she made this trip, her stomach in her throat, was not lost on her. Five months ago she had thrown caution to the proverbial wind, had dropped everything to create a life with Kenzi, and now her she was again, after having left AGAIN, ready to both beg AND fight for forgiveness. The duality of that situation was also not lost on her: She had to beg and fight. Had to be both Selena and Sarah. Both Kenzi's life partner and the Firestarter. She was terrified that she would fail. Terrified that she would hurt Kenzi again.
"please please please please please"
She doesn't stop as she glides through the tunnel and into the airport, doesn't hesitate as she flies down the stairs two at a time. She does not close her eyes, does not hold her breath, as she bursts through pockets of people, not caring if she upset anyone with her pushing and shoving. All she cared about was that she was ready to fight for the greatest prize of her life.
"PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE"
One last group of travels to push through and she is where she NEEDS to be, where she NEEDS to see:
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