Post by Jamilyn Cornett on Aug 16, 2016 15:38:51 GMT -5
"Sorry...clearly you two were in the middle of something. I'll just text Megan with the infor...wait...no. I'll call her. That'll be better."
Jami adjusted her top a bit, the shoulder falling off the side, as she bites her lip.
Considering she'd always had a crush on Kayla and never felt she gave a true relationship with Kenzi a shot, this was a bit awkward for her to say the least.
Post by Kenzi Grey on Aug 16, 2016 18:18:02 GMT -5
I steeled myself as I walked back out of the bathroom. I felt like both women were looking right through me as I made my way back to the table. I could see that they were familiar with one another, but that shouldn’t have been a surprise. Jamilyn knew lots of people…she knew a LOT of people.
I tried not to seem like the shattered wreck I was inside as I sat down, regarding them both with a smile. “Sorry about that…terrible sandwiches they have here!” I started to engage in small talk, but it was obvious that the universe had thrust me here for a reason, so beating around the bush seemed stupid. I looked at Kayla, “You don’t have to leave, but I have to ask Jami something…kinda personal, so don’t be offended.”
I turned to Jamilyn, “So…Parker said you were pissed that he and I slept together. I have ZERO idea why that would upset you. I mean…you don’t want him and neither does Kate. You don’t want me…so, why in the hell were you upset at him?” As the words tumbled out, I felt proud of myself for finding the backbone to really speak to her instead of crumbling like a wilted rose for a change. I had no illusions about being able to maintain this…but I hoped that it would last long enough for me to get past this and make it out of the building before I hyperventilated.
Post by Kenzi Grey on Aug 16, 2016 21:34:30 GMT -5
I started to yank the earbuds out of Kayla’s ears to make her listen to what Jamilyn had to say, but really…she was just being polite. I really didn’t care if she listened or if she jumped in and added her own 2-cents. I liked Kayla…she wasn’t one for long conversations, but at least she listened. That was rare these days.
I turned my attention back to Jamilyn since Kayla was listening to God knows what in her headphones. I had no idea what she would say…but at least I’d finally know where I stood with the woman who was my lover, my enemy, my friend, then a stranger…and maybe a friend again. I didn’t know, but I was ready to find out.
After a long conversation with Parker…things were so much clearer for me now. No matter which way things went after she spoke her peace…I’d finally have some of it for myself as well. I don’t know what I was hoping for…if I was hoping for anything at all. All the same, I waited for an answer to my question…looking into the eyes that had once chilled and thrilled me to my core. Now I searched them for any sign that what she had once told me or what she said now was true. I hoped it would be…all I wanted from anyone right now was the truth...
Last Edit: Aug 16, 2016 21:37:11 GMT -5 by Kenzi Grey
Post by Kenzi Grey on Aug 16, 2016 23:00:16 GMT -5
As much as I wanted to get to know Kayla better, it seemed that she was ready to move on. I leaned over and gave her a hug to send her on her way. “Talk to you again soon…okay?” I settled back down and looked at Jamilyn, “Okay…it’s just the two of us now…lay it on me.”
Post by Jamilyn Cornett on Aug 17, 2016 1:23:15 GMT -5
Jami shook her head. "I've seen the way Kate gets when Parker hurts her. I might be with Tyler, but I still care deeply for Kate. So when she hurts, it upsets me."
I really was expecting more, but this was either a little simpler than I was making it out to be or she was being coy with me. I wouldn’t waste time hiding my feelings, “Well…it’s nice to know that you rush to the aid of the people you love when they are hurting…I suppose that says a lot about us and where we stood, huh? It would have been nice for you, Kate, or Alex to rush to my aid when I was cold and feverish from waiting to hear if you were going to be okay after Alexis knocked your block off.” I knew that was the past and had no bearing on where we were now…or did it? Still, it was something that was tucked away inside me and I needed to let it out.
Those eyes of hers…I loved looking at them…I still did…but I needed to be stronger now. “So…on to Parker and Kate I suppose, huh?” I gave a nonchalant shrug of my shoulders. “I care about Parker too…though at the moment, all he seems to do is piss me off with letting all the women in his life breeze in and right back out again…with YOU at the center of it all!” I suppose in a way, that kinda now included me, but it was only because of a recent revelation that he had shared with me in private. I realized that no amount of caring on my part was going to change how he felt…he had to make that decision for himself and I wasn't going to be a part of that choice. “I don’t know what’s going on with you, Kate, Parker, and now Alexis Blake getting in the mix. It’s too much for me to process…all this ‘who’s sleeping with who’ is really making me nuts! I had to listen to you go on and on and ON about you and Kate being soulmates. I had to listen to Kate go on, and on, and ON about waiting for you because you were SOULMATES! Then…in the middle was Parker…being sweet and being stupid as he waited for everyone to make up their minds about each other…”
As little as I was feeling these days…I had to admit, it did bother me that Parker seemed to be the one lost in the mix. He chose to be there, but still. “Kate told me months ago that she would choose you over Parker in an instant. At the time…when she said that…I understood completely. I choose you over myself…but that was just you having your fun for Alex Yin. I’m over it…it’s done. But now, there’s this thing with Parker and I…and I only want him to be happy, no matter who it’s with, and yet here you are again…in the middle of it…” A small chuckle escaped me as I saw that she was still in the center of everything…even still a part of me…but that part was getting easier to let go of by the second.
I reached over to take her by her hand, no longer afraid of my body betraying itself like it always did with her. I didn’t know if she’d take my hand, shy away, or slap my face. It was her choice, it was just my olive branch. “If you’re in love with this new guy…let Kate go and try to be happy…even if it’s not with someone you approve of. The same is true for Parker…let him live his life with someone…ANYONE!” I swallowed back a bit of emotion as I said it, “Parker can’t get over Kate and I have no desire to be a side chick or Starpoint Girl in training or whatever you guys want to call it! I told him that he has to get his house in order…even if it’s not going to have me in it. He needs to be a man and decide what he wants. I can’t do it for him, and neither can you or Kate. He needs to decide and do it…I just won’t wait around while he does…it’s not my style anymore…”
I stared into those eyes of hers and I finally felt like I was just looking at another person. I could breathe and I could think…I wasn’t a slave to emotions for a change. She hadn’t lost any of her power over me, but I had gained a little power over myself. I hoped that she found no malice in what I said, just the honest truth…as I saw it. I didn’t make a habit of following the comings and goings of Casa De Kami and I had only just learned that Jami was in a heterosexual relationship and she was off on her own. I had no idea where that left Kate or Parker…even Alex Yin for that matter, but that was none of my business anymore. If she was happy, that was good for her. I only hoped that she realized that just like she had made a life choice that everyone else had to live with, she would have to allow Kate and Parker to do the same. If anyone was thinking that Kate, Parker, and I were about to become a new ‘love triangle’ they were sorely mistaken. I didn’t share…and I wasn’t about to force myself in-between two other people…especially people I cared about in the strangest of ways. Jamilyn would either see this and let them figure their lives out…or she’d keep coming back…making a mess of everyone’s personal lives, whether she meant to or not…
Last Edit: Aug 17, 2016 4:38:48 GMT -5 by Kenzi Grey
Post by Jamilyn Cornett on Aug 17, 2016 7:14:20 GMT -5
"Whoa, whoa," Jami held her left hand up, her right immediately going to her left arm. Kenzi had been around her long enough to know what that was a sign of. "I wasn't expecting to get grilled on this whole mess in one shot. First of all, what do you mean by me being in the center of this whole thing? Is there something you know that I don't?"
It felt like our roles were switching. I wasn’t sure if I liked that or not…but I could try it on and take it for a spin as well as anyone. I pulled my offered hand back…in that, I had my answer at least. “Why do you end up in the middle of everyone’s business? You shut me out and wanted nothing to do with me. According to the word on the street, you’ve moved on to some guy…so why does what Parker, Kate, and I do have anything to do with you?” I shrugged my shoulders with a cock of my head. “You pumped me for information and when I said it wasn’t important who I was with…I thought you agreed. Then Parker tells me that you’re pissed and I don’t understand what it has to do with YOU!”
Post by Jamilyn Cornett on Aug 17, 2016 8:09:04 GMT -5
"Because I didn't want you hurt by him too!"
Jami uncharacteristically yelled at Kenzi, clearly a sign that she was starting to be pushed too far.
"I've seen that bastard bring Kate to tears several times now, and despite what you may think, I do care about you too. If I'd known you were out in front of that hospital getting sick because of me, Mackenzie, plot between Kate and I be damned, I'd have done something about it. By the time I knew, you were already gone. I regret that more and more, because I--"
Jami suddenly stopped...and put a hand on her stomach, closing her eyes and trying to calm down.
I didn’t like seeing her in pain…I guess that was something. What was she going to say? That she had loved me before? Maybe she did and maybe she didn’t…how was I to know and what did it matter now? We were beyond all that now. She loved a new man and I loved…nothing…
Still, I walked over and stood close to her, wanting to hold her…as if that would make things better for her. I didn’t know…lately all I was good at was making people feel shitty. Maybe she’d punch me if I did…but I didn’t care, I deserved to have my teeth knocked down my throat for all I’d done to Tina and the like.
I put my arms around her and I held her as I tried my best to be the thing that I hadn’t been to anyone in a long time…a true comfort. I whispered in her ear, “I’m sorry…”
I wanted her to know that I had no intention of hurting Parker or Kate…but it was only words if I said them out loud. She’d either feel it in my touch…or she wouldn’t. I didn’t have the words to make her believe me…I didn’t know them.
Post by Jamilyn Cornett on Aug 17, 2016 9:07:33 GMT -5
Jami's free hand went to Kenzi's arm, stroking it gently. She could feel what Kenzi wanted to say.
"I do love you, Mackie...and it's because of what you've done for me that I even have a chance at a monogamous life...me...my boyfriend...my daughter..."
Jami looked down to her stomach.
"...and maybe the miracle of more."
She looked back into Kenzi's eyes.
"You're one of the best friends I've got...because you got it through my head. Not Amy Jo, not Megan, not Keira or Roxi...YOU, Mackie...you made me realize what I was doing. It took me a while to see it...but I do now. And I won't make that same mistake again. Everything I am is going into my relationship with my family...and I pray it doesn't fail...but on the off chance it does...I hope you'll give me a real chance then, to make up for what I did to you."
Jami chuckles a bit.
"If it's any consolation...Alex is the happiest with her new girlfriend that I've seen her in the year I've known her."
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