Post by alexyin on Nov 5, 2016 17:11:35 GMT -5
So it's in the run up to another event and I've pushed it right up against the deadline to RP. I really feel like I need to step away from RP'ing for a while for a number of factors.
This is one of the best feds I've ever been involved with and I'm thankful for that but my passion for writing long pieces is running low. I know that it's quality over quantity but I've always struggled with stretching my pieces and when someone comes out with 2000 words of well-written story development and i force myself to 1000 words lacking any direction, it runs me down because I feel like I'm not pulling my weight. I was saying on Twitter recently that the irony is that I've never been a bigger wrestling fan than I am right now but my interest in fedding has been running low for a while and I need time to re-energise. I don't want to write simply out of obligation and that's what this is becoming for me.
I did take some time off recently because of work concerns (I work eight hours a day but that's on top of a four-hour commute and I simply couldn't find the time even though I know others manage) but somehow I've been put back in the mix and I simply can't go at that pace whilst my engagement is so low.
As many of you know I'm very active on Twitter (which makes me feel guilty that I'm so much more prolific in the less essential part of this fed) and this is by no means me up and quitting entirely. I just REALLY need to take time off, substantial time off to try and recharge. I'll still be around on Twitter and the like so don't think I'm leaving but I'm suspending my RPs indefinitely after this event.
Sorry if this is putting anyone out but I felt I had to be honest both as to why I feel the quality of my work is decaying and why I feel I've been far from my best for a long time. I just need to re-evaluate my role-playing and learn to love it again.
This is one of the best feds I've ever been involved with and I'm thankful for that but my passion for writing long pieces is running low. I know that it's quality over quantity but I've always struggled with stretching my pieces and when someone comes out with 2000 words of well-written story development and i force myself to 1000 words lacking any direction, it runs me down because I feel like I'm not pulling my weight. I was saying on Twitter recently that the irony is that I've never been a bigger wrestling fan than I am right now but my interest in fedding has been running low for a while and I need time to re-energise. I don't want to write simply out of obligation and that's what this is becoming for me.
I did take some time off recently because of work concerns (I work eight hours a day but that's on top of a four-hour commute and I simply couldn't find the time even though I know others manage) but somehow I've been put back in the mix and I simply can't go at that pace whilst my engagement is so low.
As many of you know I'm very active on Twitter (which makes me feel guilty that I'm so much more prolific in the less essential part of this fed) and this is by no means me up and quitting entirely. I just REALLY need to take time off, substantial time off to try and recharge. I'll still be around on Twitter and the like so don't think I'm leaving but I'm suspending my RPs indefinitely after this event.
Sorry if this is putting anyone out but I felt I had to be honest both as to why I feel the quality of my work is decaying and why I feel I've been far from my best for a long time. I just need to re-evaluate my role-playing and learn to love it again.