Post by Gabriella Camacho on Mar 24, 2018 22:57:41 GMT -5
I had fucked up. I knew I had fucked up. What the hell was I going to call it?
I held my head in my hands, and my phone was tossed lightly on the couch. Allie sat down next to me.
“It’s not all bad.”
“How? How it not all bad?”
Allie was spacing, trying to find a reasonable excuse or reason for her words.
“Maybe he’ll take it differently from what you think he will.”
“How else does he take it?”
“Um… you know like, “love ya buddy” That kind of love.
“I don’t think so. He’s going to be like, “This crazy psycho bitch says she loves me.”
Allie was doing her best to try and comfort me and make me feel like my horrible mistake was one that could be swept under the rug. She sipped her coffee while I sulked. I am so annoyed and pissed at myself, but Allie was still trying to convince me that it wasn’t a big deal.
“Seriously, I bet the next time you guys talk, he won’t even mention it. He’ll just talk to you normally. People say “I love you” all the time and it doesn’t have the meaning it used to. It’ll be fine.”
“But what if he doesn’t? What if I see him again and the first thing he says is “hey what was that I love you all about?” hmmm? What then? Fuck, I’ll be lucky if he even speaks to me again.
Allie just casually hand waved my concerns away
“You’re being was too dramatic about this. He won’t say anything, and unless you bring it up or say it again, he’ll never even remember it. He’s got a lot going on anymore, right? He’s busy, and that kind of thing will just go away. People never remember that kind of thing it’s said so often.”
I was less convinced of Allie’s reasoning.
“No, this ends it one of two ways, one, he thinks I’m in love with him and he tries to like, make a move or something. He tries to get me to move in, and next thing you know we’re planning for a family and our children and I’m looking around in 6 months wondering what the hell my life is, and then I’m a housewife and shit just goes crazy, or he heard that and he thinks I’m crazy and he never wants to talk to me again! This is horrible and I can’t believe how stupid I am sometimes.”
“Seriously Gabby?”
“Seriously.”
“No, it’s not that serious. You’re overreacting to this. It’s a simple mistake. It’s like texting a heart or texting to the wrong phone number. It’s an honest mistake and he will get over it. It’s not the end of the world. You need to get a hold of yourself. You’re making a mountain out of a molehill.”
“…”
“Just relax. You’re not getting a text or anything. He probably didn’t even hear it, or if he did, it’ll roll off his back, in one ear and out the other. He IS a man after all. Men have selective hearing.”
Maybe, maybe Allie was right. Maybe this whole thing would be a comical misunderstanding the next time. Or maybe, it passes without incident. Then, hey, what the hell, nothing happens and it’s water under the bridge.
--
It took a while, but eventually, I saw it that way and Allie was more than happy to remind me that I had more important things to worry about. Granted it was a huge social faux paw and I overstress about a lot of shit, but this… this shouldn’t have been something like that. I needed to get a hold of myself. And it took a long while, but I got over it.
I began my training to ensure I would be prepared for Alicia Lukas. One slip could mean more than just a loss, because I could already hear in my mind Alicia trying to talk trash if she won. Look LAW, I beat your champion. What kind of champion would I be if I just allowed Alicia to be better than me on any day, much less Sunday. No, I needed to me focused and ready. Ready to give the fans what they paid to see, and be the champion I always knew I was. Alicia Lukas would be a tough test but the thought of her beating me and having ANY bragging rights got my blood boiling. Maybe it was a pride thing, maybe it was just more motivation, but when Sunday came, I knew I was going to be fucking ready.
Let’s go.
From Gabby’s Blog:
I guess, first, let me address Crystal Hilton who took offense to me comparing her to Alicia Lukas last week.
In case you didn’t get it, I was actually talking about you favorably. I know, I can dog you out and drag you through the mud any day of the week, but I was simply trying to make a point. But let’s not even pretend that anything I’ve ever said about you wasn’t the truth. And you continue to prove my point each and every time you stab someone else in the back. Maybe soon you’ll realize why anyone being your friend is a bad idea.
ANYWAY
Moving on to the main event. Alicia Lukas and I. One on one, big match, and I get it, Alicia’s playing me cool like this is just another match and she’s got a long line of them because she’s super important and the traveling wrestler and this is what she does.
I have never understood the idea of going 18 million places and trying to be this traveling champion and the best in 5 places, it’s hard enough being at the top in one. But Alicia seems to have the same mindset at Sam Tolson. And maybe Tolson had a point, outside of LAW not many people know who I am. But enough people know about me to know that I’m not one you can just try and steal on. I’m not just some paper champion bitch that anyone on any given night is going to walk over. Oh no, no no no. I have planted my stake in the ground. My flag is here and I’m not going anywhere, even though people have tried to offer me money and a big chance at stardom and promises to treat me right and the whole 9 yards. I’ve been here instead, the whole time, fighting for everything I’ve ever earned. LAW is where I call home. I don’t need to venture out to 20 places, people can come to me. Alicia Lukas didn’t have to come here, she chose to and why? Because this is where shit happens.
See, Ms. Lukas has touted how she went looking for the competition and how she had to go to Japan because things were too easy in the United States, she had to go somewhere and get hit. We all know that foreign wrestlers are huge in Japan, but it has become obvious that Alicia wasn’t exactly satisfied with the competition in Japan, otherwise she’d still be there, right? She’d still be fighting in Japan in the death matches and exploding c4 matches and no ropes barbed wire, or wrestling children or blow-up dolls or whatever freaky ass Japanese wrestling provides.
But she’s not there, she’s here. She came back to the U.S. Maybe she conquered Japan, never heard she did, but maybe that happened. Maybe Japan booted her for not being as tough as she claimed. I don’t know, but it’s just as plausible as she just… came back. I have a hard time believing either of the former or the latter for that matter. So, why did Alicia Lukas come back?
Perhaps it was because when you’re big in Japan, you’re big a Japan and nowhere else. Maybe it was to make a name for herself so she was more marketable here in the states. Since seeing and hearing the name Alicia Lukas may not be the most intimidating thing in the states, until you hear that she’s made a name for herself in Japan and all around there. Maybe, just maybe.
Now she’s here, now she faces the LAW champion, Gabby Camacho, I have beaten almost every single person that has stepped into my path. I have not only made a name for myself, I have forged a legacy. And I did it all, here. I didn’t go anywhere, I didn’t need the “mysteries of the Orient” as a character trait. I busted my ass here and I continue that each and every time I hit the ring.
You see, this match means just as much, if not MORE to me than it does to Alicia Lukas. Alicia is just out to ass a name to her list of beaten wrestlers so she can be more valuable elsewhere. She’s just sucking up the resources like a virus at this point. I on the other hand, have to make myself into the champion that is the standard bearer for all of LAW. No one woman is about to walk into LAW and just steamroll the LAW champion, not by a long shot. I’m coming to Texas to beat Alicia Lukas’s ass like she stole something. It’s a matter of pride right now.
So, I do hope that Alicia is listening, I do hope she’s taking notes and understands that this isn’t a game to me. This is all I have. She may have 20 other contracts waiting for her, I do not. A loss for her is simply one and then in the long run, it means very little. For me, this is everything. If I can’t hold up my end of being the LAW champion, then I don’t need to be running around with the championship. THAT is how important this is.
Alicia Lukas, is good. Very good.
But at LAW 79, I’m about to be, that much better.
I held my head in my hands, and my phone was tossed lightly on the couch. Allie sat down next to me.
“It’s not all bad.”
“How? How it not all bad?”
Allie was spacing, trying to find a reasonable excuse or reason for her words.
“Maybe he’ll take it differently from what you think he will.”
“How else does he take it?”
“Um… you know like, “love ya buddy” That kind of love.
“I don’t think so. He’s going to be like, “This crazy psycho bitch says she loves me.”
Allie was doing her best to try and comfort me and make me feel like my horrible mistake was one that could be swept under the rug. She sipped her coffee while I sulked. I am so annoyed and pissed at myself, but Allie was still trying to convince me that it wasn’t a big deal.
“Seriously, I bet the next time you guys talk, he won’t even mention it. He’ll just talk to you normally. People say “I love you” all the time and it doesn’t have the meaning it used to. It’ll be fine.”
“But what if he doesn’t? What if I see him again and the first thing he says is “hey what was that I love you all about?” hmmm? What then? Fuck, I’ll be lucky if he even speaks to me again.
Allie just casually hand waved my concerns away
“You’re being was too dramatic about this. He won’t say anything, and unless you bring it up or say it again, he’ll never even remember it. He’s got a lot going on anymore, right? He’s busy, and that kind of thing will just go away. People never remember that kind of thing it’s said so often.”
I was less convinced of Allie’s reasoning.
“No, this ends it one of two ways, one, he thinks I’m in love with him and he tries to like, make a move or something. He tries to get me to move in, and next thing you know we’re planning for a family and our children and I’m looking around in 6 months wondering what the hell my life is, and then I’m a housewife and shit just goes crazy, or he heard that and he thinks I’m crazy and he never wants to talk to me again! This is horrible and I can’t believe how stupid I am sometimes.”
“Seriously Gabby?”
“Seriously.”
“No, it’s not that serious. You’re overreacting to this. It’s a simple mistake. It’s like texting a heart or texting to the wrong phone number. It’s an honest mistake and he will get over it. It’s not the end of the world. You need to get a hold of yourself. You’re making a mountain out of a molehill.”
“…”
“Just relax. You’re not getting a text or anything. He probably didn’t even hear it, or if he did, it’ll roll off his back, in one ear and out the other. He IS a man after all. Men have selective hearing.”
Maybe, maybe Allie was right. Maybe this whole thing would be a comical misunderstanding the next time. Or maybe, it passes without incident. Then, hey, what the hell, nothing happens and it’s water under the bridge.
--
It took a while, but eventually, I saw it that way and Allie was more than happy to remind me that I had more important things to worry about. Granted it was a huge social faux paw and I overstress about a lot of shit, but this… this shouldn’t have been something like that. I needed to get a hold of myself. And it took a long while, but I got over it.
I began my training to ensure I would be prepared for Alicia Lukas. One slip could mean more than just a loss, because I could already hear in my mind Alicia trying to talk trash if she won. Look LAW, I beat your champion. What kind of champion would I be if I just allowed Alicia to be better than me on any day, much less Sunday. No, I needed to me focused and ready. Ready to give the fans what they paid to see, and be the champion I always knew I was. Alicia Lukas would be a tough test but the thought of her beating me and having ANY bragging rights got my blood boiling. Maybe it was a pride thing, maybe it was just more motivation, but when Sunday came, I knew I was going to be fucking ready.
Let’s go.
From Gabby’s Blog:
I guess, first, let me address Crystal Hilton who took offense to me comparing her to Alicia Lukas last week.
In case you didn’t get it, I was actually talking about you favorably. I know, I can dog you out and drag you through the mud any day of the week, but I was simply trying to make a point. But let’s not even pretend that anything I’ve ever said about you wasn’t the truth. And you continue to prove my point each and every time you stab someone else in the back. Maybe soon you’ll realize why anyone being your friend is a bad idea.
ANYWAY
Moving on to the main event. Alicia Lukas and I. One on one, big match, and I get it, Alicia’s playing me cool like this is just another match and she’s got a long line of them because she’s super important and the traveling wrestler and this is what she does.
I have never understood the idea of going 18 million places and trying to be this traveling champion and the best in 5 places, it’s hard enough being at the top in one. But Alicia seems to have the same mindset at Sam Tolson. And maybe Tolson had a point, outside of LAW not many people know who I am. But enough people know about me to know that I’m not one you can just try and steal on. I’m not just some paper champion bitch that anyone on any given night is going to walk over. Oh no, no no no. I have planted my stake in the ground. My flag is here and I’m not going anywhere, even though people have tried to offer me money and a big chance at stardom and promises to treat me right and the whole 9 yards. I’ve been here instead, the whole time, fighting for everything I’ve ever earned. LAW is where I call home. I don’t need to venture out to 20 places, people can come to me. Alicia Lukas didn’t have to come here, she chose to and why? Because this is where shit happens.
See, Ms. Lukas has touted how she went looking for the competition and how she had to go to Japan because things were too easy in the United States, she had to go somewhere and get hit. We all know that foreign wrestlers are huge in Japan, but it has become obvious that Alicia wasn’t exactly satisfied with the competition in Japan, otherwise she’d still be there, right? She’d still be fighting in Japan in the death matches and exploding c4 matches and no ropes barbed wire, or wrestling children or blow-up dolls or whatever freaky ass Japanese wrestling provides.
But she’s not there, she’s here. She came back to the U.S. Maybe she conquered Japan, never heard she did, but maybe that happened. Maybe Japan booted her for not being as tough as she claimed. I don’t know, but it’s just as plausible as she just… came back. I have a hard time believing either of the former or the latter for that matter. So, why did Alicia Lukas come back?
Perhaps it was because when you’re big in Japan, you’re big a Japan and nowhere else. Maybe it was to make a name for herself so she was more marketable here in the states. Since seeing and hearing the name Alicia Lukas may not be the most intimidating thing in the states, until you hear that she’s made a name for herself in Japan and all around there. Maybe, just maybe.
Now she’s here, now she faces the LAW champion, Gabby Camacho, I have beaten almost every single person that has stepped into my path. I have not only made a name for myself, I have forged a legacy. And I did it all, here. I didn’t go anywhere, I didn’t need the “mysteries of the Orient” as a character trait. I busted my ass here and I continue that each and every time I hit the ring.
You see, this match means just as much, if not MORE to me than it does to Alicia Lukas. Alicia is just out to ass a name to her list of beaten wrestlers so she can be more valuable elsewhere. She’s just sucking up the resources like a virus at this point. I on the other hand, have to make myself into the champion that is the standard bearer for all of LAW. No one woman is about to walk into LAW and just steamroll the LAW champion, not by a long shot. I’m coming to Texas to beat Alicia Lukas’s ass like she stole something. It’s a matter of pride right now.
So, I do hope that Alicia is listening, I do hope she’s taking notes and understands that this isn’t a game to me. This is all I have. She may have 20 other contracts waiting for her, I do not. A loss for her is simply one and then in the long run, it means very little. For me, this is everything. If I can’t hold up my end of being the LAW champion, then I don’t need to be running around with the championship. THAT is how important this is.
Alicia Lukas, is good. Very good.
But at LAW 79, I’m about to be, that much better.