Post by Kenzi Grey on May 21, 2016 21:17:14 GMT -5
My name is Mackenzie Michaela Grey and this is my last will and testament…
I wish that I had more time to write to you Alex…I wish that I had time to finish that song. A happier ending would be better I think…something where I find a way to make you love me again and I learn to not be so stupid and jealous. I suppose happy endings aren’t for everyone…certainly not for me. I know now that I don’t deserve one and I never did. The world owes me nothing…though, I thought for a very long time that it did. I was saddled with a mother that didn’t care about me and surrounded by strangers who never really saw me for who I could or would be. You changed all of that, and I repaid you by turning your life upside down and making you just as unhappy as I had been.
I was selfish Alex…because I didn’t see what I was doing to you…all I could see was the way that you made me feel. I was so happy…never happier in all my life. I should have spent more time sharing that feeling with you instead of lying and scheming to keep you all to myself. That’s what happens when you try to hold on too tightly…you squeeze the life out of the other person. That’s what I did to you…I squeezed you too tightly and you were suffocating while you were with me. I didn’t notice…or I didn’t want to see it…and that is unforgivable…
…but I wish that it wasn’t…
I wish that you would take me back. I wish that I could go back in time and undo everything that I ever did to hurt you. I wish that I could go back in time and undo everything that I did to hurt all of the other people around us…
Sidney Grey…she was never really much of a mother, but I think that maybe if she had a better daughter, she wouldn’t have been the way that she was. If I had tried a little harder…if I had learned to forgive her for not forgiving me for being born, maybe I could be what she needed me to be. I missed my chance to do that…I ruined everything when I…when I did what I did to her. I should have been stronger…I should have been a better daughter. You were a better daughter to her than I was…it’s too bad that she wasn’t even conscious to see it.
Roxi Johnson tried to help me after my mother was put in the hospital. She did that out of the kindness of her heart and I wish that I had the same capacity for compassion that she has…but I didn’t at the time. Maybe I was jealous of her…maybe I didn’t like how easy it was for her to feel for someone else. I had never been able to look very far pass my own feelings to see anyone else’s. I hated that she was so happy…she felt so safe and secure in who she was. I accused her of running down my mother…and it was a lie, one that I should have never told. I did more to her…more things that I shouldn’t have done. I have no right to ask you to apologize to her for me, but I know I won’t be around to do it.
It almost seems silly for me to mention Jenny Tuck as someone that I wronged…but I suppose I did. She tried to have my freedom taken away when she accused me of running down my own mother. In a way…I can respect that…but I couldn’t forgive it either. The money…the fame...that really meant nothing, it was the fact that she was taking me away from you. I fought hard against her to make sure that didn’t happen…and I hurt a lot of people in the process. It was a war that I wanted to win and in my mind you were the prize, but I should have stopped and took the time to see that winning at any cost wouldn’t be winning at all. Jenny Tuck was right about me…not being good enough for you…and I was wrong to do what I did to her. Is it bad that I don’t regret it? Probably…but I know it was wrong and I’d like her to know that I realize that.
Hannah Paul was my friend long before you and I were an item. We lived together and I thought that one day we would share in each other’s joy at finding love with different people. When you came into my life and I was confused by the feelings that I had…I confided in her and she tried so hard to help me see my way to you. She’s the reason that I finally found the strength to say how I felt…but I waited too long…I was the one who gave her the opportunity to fall in love with you. I was angry at her for that…I was angry at her for having feelings for you that rivaled my own…but everyone who gets to know you falls in love in their own way. I know that you’ll never forgive me for what I did to Hannah…using you to get myself out of trouble with the law…using the law to get her out of our lives. It was wrong of me. I knew that she was a better person than I was…I saw it in your mother’s face…and I saw it in yours. I couldn’t compete with her for your heart and I hoped that sending her away would change things…but now things are worse. Even now…I still can’t apologize…I still can’t say that I’m sorry to her…but I am sorry for what it did to you.
Maria Salvatore was just doing what she thought was justice when she came after me…forcing me to fight you. If I was a stronger person…I could have dealt with that situation, knowing that a match between us would never weaken what we had. I know that I was the weakling now…I should have accepted it and showed her that love conquered all. Instead, I wrecked everything and in the end I only proved that she was right to point the finger of blame at me…she was right to try to punish me. Even when it was over and done, I couldn’t accept it and I lashed out at her. I shouldn’t have done that…not in front of you…not at all. I don’t know where Maria is or if she can ever forgive me, but I hope that she’s okay and I hope that she’ll accept the fact that I’m sorry.
Alexis Blake never did anything to hurt me…all she did was try to protect the person she loved from me. I would have done the same for you…I have done the same for you, even though you never wanted me to or never approved. I would walk through fire and crawl through broken glass for you…Alexis would do the same for Maria. I had no right to do what I did…knowing that it would drive Alexis over the edge. Now, their relationship is damaged and I can’t help but to feel responsible for it. Alexis blames me…and I blame myself. I know that she wants revenge, but now I am being selfish yet again and depriving her of it. I hope that she finds whatever it is that she lost because of me…please tell her that. I’m sorry…truly I am.
Mackenzie Roberts…she’s a fucking cunt…I hope you kick her ass.
Keira Fisher despises me for all of the things that my mother has done and she especially hates me for what she thinks I nearly did to her wife. I mention her last…not because she is the most important, but because she was supposed to be the instrument of revenge that would finally make sure that I paid for each and every sin I committed. I suppose that it was fitting that it would be her, since she was the first one to point the finger at me for being the shit heel that everyone has learned to call me. I played games with her…I poked and prodded her until she exploded and blindsided me last year. Secretly, I was happy that I had driven her to violence without ever laying a hand on her. It gave me the moral high ground to point the finger at her…to label her the bad guy. That is what made me start to think that the path I had only just started to head down was the right one. I manipulated her…and even though I lost my very first match against her in spectacular fashion…I still felt victorious because I controlled the narrative. She was the bad guy…and I was the victim. I reaped the reward of sympathy and all she reaped was scorn for how she had humiliated me.
I learned to be a bitch from my feud with Keira…she was as much my teacher as Violet Ripley or Nyako ever were. I know that she doesn’t want or accept any credit for what I became, but it’s the truth and I have no problem with saying it now. Every moment…everything that I did seemed to lead me right back to her…like she was Doctor Frankenstein and I was her monster. She told the world that I was really just the same as my mother…she never missed a chance to stoke the flames on Twitter…to remind me of how worthless I was…anything to diminish me in your eyes.
I really wanted to go to Validation and silence the last voice that railed against me…the voice that happened to be the first that said I wasn’t good enough to be with you. I thought that if I defeated her that would be the end to it all. The haters arguments would be silenced…rendered invalid and all you’d hear was my voice saying that I was the only one for you. You’d see me the way that I saw you…perfect…strong…unafraid. Even when the odds in that match were stacked against me and winning made all but impossible…I knew that I would still win because I would be doing it for you.
My world is shattered now…my heart torn into a million pieces without you. I blamed everyone that I named in this letter from my mother right down to Keira Fisher…but in the end, I have only one person to blame for this…myself. I don’t deserve you and I never did. What Keira and the others said about me was right…I never deserved you and you certainly deserved much better than me.
I could have stayed and fought Keira…maybe I would have still found a way to win instead of losing like I was supposed to…like I always have, but what would it matter now? Everyone who fights, fights for something. I have nothing to fight for anymore without you…and maybe that is the best thing for everyone…
Keira gets to gloat that she ran me out of LAW and she was right about me the entire time…she was…
More importantly, you get to move on without the constant reminder of the worst mistake of your entire life…lowering yourself to love someone who didn’t love you the way that you deserved. I love you Alex Yin…I really do, with all of my heart…but I know that it’s not the way you want…the way you need…the way it should have been.
Someone once said that the hardest thing to do in this world is to live in it. I’m not strong enough to live in a world that doesn’t have you in it. You deserve your happily ever after…and I know that will never happen with me around to ruin it…
Goodbye Alex…I’ll always love you. Don’t be sad…just find a way to be happy…be happy for me.
Everything that I have, I leave to Alex Yin, the most adorable girl and the love of my life;
I always knew that I wasn’t your first, but I would be the one to make you my wife.
I leave you all that I have…because without you I would have nothing at all;
When the others came and went you’re the one who helped me stand tall.
Before you came, my life was a jumble with hardly no rhyme or reason;
You taught me to live well, to be strong, and to cherish each and every season.
I can’t remember every birthday or holiday that has passed through all the long years;
But I remember you in every detail…through all the laughter and even the tears.
I know that I caused you a lot of pain, and I wish that I could take it all back;
I was stubborn and jealous…a broken young girl who’s heart was too small and too black.
You were right to make me go…to tell me to leave, now you can be happy and free;
My gift for you is that I’ll find a way to exist in the next world even if there’s no you and no me…
I always knew that I wasn’t your first, but I would be the one to make you my wife.
I leave you all that I have…because without you I would have nothing at all;
When the others came and went you’re the one who helped me stand tall.
Before you came, my life was a jumble with hardly no rhyme or reason;
You taught me to live well, to be strong, and to cherish each and every season.
I can’t remember every birthday or holiday that has passed through all the long years;
But I remember you in every detail…through all the laughter and even the tears.
I know that I caused you a lot of pain, and I wish that I could take it all back;
I was stubborn and jealous…a broken young girl who’s heart was too small and too black.
You were right to make me go…to tell me to leave, now you can be happy and free;
My gift for you is that I’ll find a way to exist in the next world even if there’s no you and no me…
I wish that I had more time to write to you Alex…I wish that I had time to finish that song. A happier ending would be better I think…something where I find a way to make you love me again and I learn to not be so stupid and jealous. I suppose happy endings aren’t for everyone…certainly not for me. I know now that I don’t deserve one and I never did. The world owes me nothing…though, I thought for a very long time that it did. I was saddled with a mother that didn’t care about me and surrounded by strangers who never really saw me for who I could or would be. You changed all of that, and I repaid you by turning your life upside down and making you just as unhappy as I had been.
I was selfish Alex…because I didn’t see what I was doing to you…all I could see was the way that you made me feel. I was so happy…never happier in all my life. I should have spent more time sharing that feeling with you instead of lying and scheming to keep you all to myself. That’s what happens when you try to hold on too tightly…you squeeze the life out of the other person. That’s what I did to you…I squeezed you too tightly and you were suffocating while you were with me. I didn’t notice…or I didn’t want to see it…and that is unforgivable…
…but I wish that it wasn’t…
I wish that you would take me back. I wish that I could go back in time and undo everything that I ever did to hurt you. I wish that I could go back in time and undo everything that I did to hurt all of the other people around us…
Sidney Grey…she was never really much of a mother, but I think that maybe if she had a better daughter, she wouldn’t have been the way that she was. If I had tried a little harder…if I had learned to forgive her for not forgiving me for being born, maybe I could be what she needed me to be. I missed my chance to do that…I ruined everything when I…when I did what I did to her. I should have been stronger…I should have been a better daughter. You were a better daughter to her than I was…it’s too bad that she wasn’t even conscious to see it.
Roxi Johnson tried to help me after my mother was put in the hospital. She did that out of the kindness of her heart and I wish that I had the same capacity for compassion that she has…but I didn’t at the time. Maybe I was jealous of her…maybe I didn’t like how easy it was for her to feel for someone else. I had never been able to look very far pass my own feelings to see anyone else’s. I hated that she was so happy…she felt so safe and secure in who she was. I accused her of running down my mother…and it was a lie, one that I should have never told. I did more to her…more things that I shouldn’t have done. I have no right to ask you to apologize to her for me, but I know I won’t be around to do it.
It almost seems silly for me to mention Jenny Tuck as someone that I wronged…but I suppose I did. She tried to have my freedom taken away when she accused me of running down my own mother. In a way…I can respect that…but I couldn’t forgive it either. The money…the fame...that really meant nothing, it was the fact that she was taking me away from you. I fought hard against her to make sure that didn’t happen…and I hurt a lot of people in the process. It was a war that I wanted to win and in my mind you were the prize, but I should have stopped and took the time to see that winning at any cost wouldn’t be winning at all. Jenny Tuck was right about me…not being good enough for you…and I was wrong to do what I did to her. Is it bad that I don’t regret it? Probably…but I know it was wrong and I’d like her to know that I realize that.
Hannah Paul was my friend long before you and I were an item. We lived together and I thought that one day we would share in each other’s joy at finding love with different people. When you came into my life and I was confused by the feelings that I had…I confided in her and she tried so hard to help me see my way to you. She’s the reason that I finally found the strength to say how I felt…but I waited too long…I was the one who gave her the opportunity to fall in love with you. I was angry at her for that…I was angry at her for having feelings for you that rivaled my own…but everyone who gets to know you falls in love in their own way. I know that you’ll never forgive me for what I did to Hannah…using you to get myself out of trouble with the law…using the law to get her out of our lives. It was wrong of me. I knew that she was a better person than I was…I saw it in your mother’s face…and I saw it in yours. I couldn’t compete with her for your heart and I hoped that sending her away would change things…but now things are worse. Even now…I still can’t apologize…I still can’t say that I’m sorry to her…but I am sorry for what it did to you.
Maria Salvatore was just doing what she thought was justice when she came after me…forcing me to fight you. If I was a stronger person…I could have dealt with that situation, knowing that a match between us would never weaken what we had. I know that I was the weakling now…I should have accepted it and showed her that love conquered all. Instead, I wrecked everything and in the end I only proved that she was right to point the finger of blame at me…she was right to try to punish me. Even when it was over and done, I couldn’t accept it and I lashed out at her. I shouldn’t have done that…not in front of you…not at all. I don’t know where Maria is or if she can ever forgive me, but I hope that she’s okay and I hope that she’ll accept the fact that I’m sorry.
Alexis Blake never did anything to hurt me…all she did was try to protect the person she loved from me. I would have done the same for you…I have done the same for you, even though you never wanted me to or never approved. I would walk through fire and crawl through broken glass for you…Alexis would do the same for Maria. I had no right to do what I did…knowing that it would drive Alexis over the edge. Now, their relationship is damaged and I can’t help but to feel responsible for it. Alexis blames me…and I blame myself. I know that she wants revenge, but now I am being selfish yet again and depriving her of it. I hope that she finds whatever it is that she lost because of me…please tell her that. I’m sorry…truly I am.
Mackenzie Roberts…she’s a fucking cunt…I hope you kick her ass.
Keira Fisher despises me for all of the things that my mother has done and she especially hates me for what she thinks I nearly did to her wife. I mention her last…not because she is the most important, but because she was supposed to be the instrument of revenge that would finally make sure that I paid for each and every sin I committed. I suppose that it was fitting that it would be her, since she was the first one to point the finger at me for being the shit heel that everyone has learned to call me. I played games with her…I poked and prodded her until she exploded and blindsided me last year. Secretly, I was happy that I had driven her to violence without ever laying a hand on her. It gave me the moral high ground to point the finger at her…to label her the bad guy. That is what made me start to think that the path I had only just started to head down was the right one. I manipulated her…and even though I lost my very first match against her in spectacular fashion…I still felt victorious because I controlled the narrative. She was the bad guy…and I was the victim. I reaped the reward of sympathy and all she reaped was scorn for how she had humiliated me.
I learned to be a bitch from my feud with Keira…she was as much my teacher as Violet Ripley or Nyako ever were. I know that she doesn’t want or accept any credit for what I became, but it’s the truth and I have no problem with saying it now. Every moment…everything that I did seemed to lead me right back to her…like she was Doctor Frankenstein and I was her monster. She told the world that I was really just the same as my mother…she never missed a chance to stoke the flames on Twitter…to remind me of how worthless I was…anything to diminish me in your eyes.
I really wanted to go to Validation and silence the last voice that railed against me…the voice that happened to be the first that said I wasn’t good enough to be with you. I thought that if I defeated her that would be the end to it all. The haters arguments would be silenced…rendered invalid and all you’d hear was my voice saying that I was the only one for you. You’d see me the way that I saw you…perfect…strong…unafraid. Even when the odds in that match were stacked against me and winning made all but impossible…I knew that I would still win because I would be doing it for you.
My world is shattered now…my heart torn into a million pieces without you. I blamed everyone that I named in this letter from my mother right down to Keira Fisher…but in the end, I have only one person to blame for this…myself. I don’t deserve you and I never did. What Keira and the others said about me was right…I never deserved you and you certainly deserved much better than me.
I could have stayed and fought Keira…maybe I would have still found a way to win instead of losing like I was supposed to…like I always have, but what would it matter now? Everyone who fights, fights for something. I have nothing to fight for anymore without you…and maybe that is the best thing for everyone…
Keira gets to gloat that she ran me out of LAW and she was right about me the entire time…she was…
More importantly, you get to move on without the constant reminder of the worst mistake of your entire life…lowering yourself to love someone who didn’t love you the way that you deserved. I love you Alex Yin…I really do, with all of my heart…but I know that it’s not the way you want…the way you need…the way it should have been.
Someone once said that the hardest thing to do in this world is to live in it. I’m not strong enough to live in a world that doesn’t have you in it. You deserve your happily ever after…and I know that will never happen with me around to ruin it…
Goodbye Alex…I’ll always love you. Don’t be sad…just find a way to be happy…be happy for me.
Bobbi London frowned as she read the letter that Kenzi had presumably left for Alex Yin in the apartment that they shared. Kenzi probably thought that Alex would return there to collect her things, but she didn’t…or she had overlooked the letter that was left. Bobbi felt bad for reading it…knowing that it was meant for someone else.
Alex Yin had been Bobbi’s first legitimate friend since coming to LAW…maybe she was her only friend. Bobbi hadn’t dreamed that she would find someone as good and wholesome as Alex…someone that would force her to see things through a different light. Always happy and go lucky…except when Kenzi did something to ruin it, Alex was never mean or judgmental. Just like Kenzi’s letter said…she deserved to be happy and maybe seeing this letter would do that for her, even if…God forbid…Kenzi had followed through on doing something terrible to herself.
Bobbi wanted to leave the letter for Alex to find, but it was already too late for that. When she tried to secret the letter away, she was quickly busted by the other girls that had accompanied her to the apartment.
Dana O’Connell walked over and snatched the letter out of Bobbi’s hand. “What’s this about? Is it the account numbers to Kenzi’s bank account?”
Bobbi was immediately ready to bash the girl in the face, but her sister, and resident nutcase was right there to defend her twin, ready to more than tip the odds in her sister’s favor.
“Maybe it’s a map to where she stashes her weed in this dump!” She narrowed her eyes as she got between the two of them, her hand fishing around inside her pocket where Bobbi knew she had secreted away brass knuckles. “What are you trying to hide fatty?”
Bobbi started to respond and tell them that it was nothing, but Dana was already reading the letter out loud. Dinah laughed at the sappiness of the poem that served as Kenzi’s supposed will, but at least Dana appeared to take it more seriously. She punched her sister in the arm to quiet her and then took the letter into the next room and handed it over to Sidney Grey.
Sidney took the letter and read over it quickly from the confines of the wheelchair she had been relegated to following the hit and run she had suffered several months prior in Portland, Oregon. She finished reading the letter and crumbled it up, the look on her face was twisted and sour. “Alex FUCKING Yin is responsible for whatever happens to my daughter! I fully intend to hold that stupid little cunt responsible for this! She’d better pray that I find Kenzi safe…because there is nothing and no one that can keep her safe from me if I don’t!”
Bobbi was unable to hold her tongue as she walked in, “Ms. Grey…Alex would ‘ave never done anything to ‘arm Kenzi. I know this as a fact mate!” She shook her head, “If anything at all…trying to bring ‘er back ‘ere just to face Keira Fisher is more harmful than anything else!”
Sidney folded her arms as she smirked at Bobbi. “You don’t understand a fucking thing that doesn’t go into that loud mouth of yours and into that fat fucking belly, do you?” Sidney gestured towards the chair she sat in. “I’m in this goddamn chair because of that little shit stained rape baby put me here! As far as I’m concerned…Keira is welcomed to give her the ass kicking that I unfortunately cannot!”
Bobbi did what she could to reason with Sidney, “You saw the blood…you know that she could be trying to ‘urt ‘erself…maybe she ‘as already for all we know! We can’t be concerned with something as insignificant as a fucking wrestling match in the face of all that!”
Sidney laughed, but it was devoid of any mirth at all. “You have known Kenzi for what…a few months? I have known her for most of her life…she’s a weakling! She might nibble on the barrel for an hour or two…but she doesn’t have the guts to pull the trigger!” She threw the wadded up letter to Bobbi, “You could wipe your ass with that…it still wouldn’t make it anymore true.” Bobbi caught the letter and nearly dropped it when Sidney wheeled her chair right up to her, pointing her finger in her face. “Kenzi is going to come back here with me and she is going to answer for everything that she has done…EVERYTHING! Now…” She gestured for Bobbi to get moving. “…get her stuff together! She’ll need a bag packed for when I find her and drag her ass back over here from Japan!”
Bobbi frowned as Dana and Dinah smirked at her. She lumbered to the back bedroom as she hastily started to pack a few things that Kenzi would need…assuming they even found her. She sincerely hoped that they would find her in Tokyo, just as Sidney had surmised with the help of Alex Yin. It was their last hope…a desperate Hail Mary in Bobbi’s opinion.
Bobbi looked over her shoulder to make sure that no one was there, then she put the letter in what she assumed was Alex’s nightstand, as it was the one that was over crowded with action figures and snack wrappers. She pulled out her phone and quickly fired off a text to Alex, telling her that there was a letter left for her in the apartment. She hoped that perhaps the letter would bring Alex some peace, regardless of what they found or didn’t find in Japan. While Bobbi didn’t at all agree with the idea that Kenzi was planning on the ultimate goodbye…she hoped that Sidney was right about Kenzi’s inability to follow through with her threats and she’d be found. Maybe there was no hope in saving the relationship between Kenzi and Alex, but maybe they could save what was left of Kenzi…and not just to bring her back and feed her to Keira!
The match against Keira Fisher couldn’t have been less important in Bobbi’s eyes, though it seemed to be front and center for Sidney. For a time, Bobbi herself had asked if she could step into the ring and face Keira. At first, it had been nothing but a gesture on her part to make sure that Kenzi didn’t lose complete face in LAW…but after seeing some of the comments from Keira…she would have liked nothing more than to push her fist through Keira’s smug little face.
Bobbi had nothing against Keira…up until the woman began to show her true colors by not showing a stitch of concern for Kenzi after her disappearance. Though, she shouldn’t have really been surprised, the callousness of it all disgusted her. There was no doubt that Kenzi had done Keira wrong, but at the end of the day, all was well that ended well. Wishing death on someone went a little too far. Keira needed to be put in her place and even though it had been unlikely that Kenzi would have been able to do it, having never won a singles match, Bobbi knew that she could! She had yet to wrestle a match in her entire life…but she didn’t intend to wrestle anyone in LAW, she had been hired to kick ass when it was required. Keira was going out of her way to make sure that it was required!
It didn’t matter why Keira was doing what she was doing…the Interim General Manager had already made it clear that if Kenzi wasn’t able to go to Validation, Bobbi would make her debut against Keira. Kenzi had her reasons for wanting to lay hands on Keira, which were evident in her letter to Alex…now Bobbi had her own reasons. Keira needed to be hoping and praying that Kenzi was found safe and sound, because if she wasn’t…the only bitch that was going to be broken at Validation was Keira Fisher!
30,000 Feet
Over the Pacific Ocean
The private plane ride to Tokyo was a long and uncomfortable one for Sidney Grey. A trip of that distance was problematic enough for anyone, but after months of being in a near catatonic state, her muscles were left barely strong enough to support her sitting upright in her wheelchair for long periods of time. By all rights, she should have lay her head down and slept off the stress of the trip….but she had slept enough for two lifetimes. She was done with sleep for the next few months…at least until she felt she had gotten caught up on all the events she had missed out on.
Sidney turned and looked across the aisle at Bobbi London as she snored away, enjoying her respite from guard and wheelchair pushing duty. Sidney grabbed a pillow and flung it at the sleeping woman, hitting her squarely in the face and immediately waking her from her slumber. She swatted at her face as she sat up, disoriented. “WHAT TH BLOODY FUCKING ‘ELL?!!”
Sidney leaned over, smiling at the large woman, “Oh! You’re awake…good! I haven’t been able to sleep a wink.”
Bobbi stared at the pillow that had been thrown at her, then wiped the slobber from her mouth and sleep from her eyes as she sighed. “Yeah…I suppose that’s catching, huh?”
Sidney ignored Bobbi’s comment. “So…you’ve been looking after my daughter while I was…away?”
Bobbi shrugged, “Not so long really. Just a couple of months.” Bobbi rooted around the console next to her until she found the treasure she was looking for, the remainder of the ham and cheese sandwich she had intended to save until much later. She’d have to make the sacrifice of having the attendant get her another one instead. “Kenzi and ‘er friend Ashley Marie Chase met me on the set of one of ‘er movies and she hired me to be ‘er personal bodyguard.”
Sidney narrowed her eyes at this, then glanced back at the O’Connell twins as they lay stretched out in the back, rendered into unconsciousness from raiding the mini bar. Sidney looked back at Bobbi. “Kenzi must have racked up quite a few enemies to be in need of so much protection.”
Bobbi closed her eyes as she slowly chewed the stale sandwich, still savoring what was left of the well prepared goodness. After a moment, she was able to answer Sidney’s question. “Kenzi insisted on enlisting those two sheep-shagging bastards to look after ‘er interests…but to answer yer question…yeah…she’s made an enemy or two mate. So I ‘er…th ‘atred people ‘ave for ‘er is quickly approaching th dislike everyone seems to ‘ave for you.” Bobbi took another bite of her sandwich, then paused between chews, “No offense…”
Sidney ignored the apology. She propped her elbow up on the armrest, resting her head on her hand. “And this thing with Keira Fisher? Do you think Kenzi really did it?”
Bobbi shrugged, “Keira claims that Kenzi ‘ad one of ‘er friends tried to rundown ‘er wife a few months back. Kinda like what ‘appened to yo…” Bobbi paused in the middle of that sentence, unsure if she should finish it. Instead, she decided to finish her sandwich, looking away from Sidney as the woman watched her intently.
Sidney sat back in her seat, lacing her fingers as she quietly contemplated what Bobbi had imparted. “So…my little rape baby has been a busy little beaver, huh? With me gone, she’s been winning friends and influencing people left and right.” She smirked, “I have absolutely no love lost for Keira Fisher, but if Kenzi really tried to have Roxi rundown…then she deserves everything that she has coming to her!”
Bobbi finished her sandwich and gave the slightest of nods. “That would ‘ave been a shit thing to do…I admit that.” Bobbi looked at Sidney, really wanting to ask her a question of her own. “Ms. Grey…would you mind telling me…I mean…did you see who it was that ‘it you?”
Sidney was silent for a long while as she considered Bobbi’s question. “So…you want to know if it was Kenzi that hit me?” Sidney gave a sigh, “Kenzi and Kenzi alone is responsible for what happened to me! She is going to pay for what she did…you can be damn sure of it!”
Bobbi frowned, “Did you tell th coppers? I mean…is that what this is all about? Dragging ‘er back to th states to throw ‘er in jail?”
Sidney laughed, “I haven’t told the police anything…yet, but don’t read too much into that! I am going to drag Kenzi’s ass back to the states…but she’s not going to jail…at least not right away! Kenzi has a date for a serious ass kicking at Validation…and I don’t want her to be late!”
Bobbi shook her head. “You’d do that to your own daughter? I mean…I’m not saying that she shouldn’t be punished…but…”
Sidney glared at Bobbi, shutting her down. “I don’t want my daughter to go to prison…but she’s out of control and she needs to be reined in! She’s coming back with me…and after Keira is done…I’ll make damn sure that Kenzi regrets what she did!” Sidney paused, I know that you’re worried that you’ll be out of a job after Validation…but don’t worry…if you do exactly as I ask…I’ll make sure that you have a place by my side from this point forward.”
Bobbi sat back in her seat, contemplating what Sidney had said…and being none too happy about any of it.
Candid Moment: Bobbi London
Don’t get me wrong ‘ere mates, but I’m not sure that Sidney Grey is an altogether well person. No…I’m not talking about me ‘aveing to push ‘er about like a giant stuffed kangaroo! I’d ‘eard rumors of Sidney Grey’s infamously less-than-sunny disposition…but seeing it up close and personal doesn’t exactly fill me with th best of vibes concerning how this little bloody trip of ours is going to be at all ‘elpful in th’ least!
Yeah, I get it that we’ll find Kenzi and bring ‘er back to where she belongs…but th purpose of it all seems arse over tits to me! I mean…I know that Kenzi might ‘ave fucked up something royal, but th point of the matter is that Kenzi isn’t in the best frame of mind right now. She’s all alone…probably shattered into a million pieces and now Sidney is gonna just show up out of the fucking blue and heap more shit onto ‘er? Kenzi needs ‘elp…she needs a right proper shoulder to cry on! I’m really regretting not standing up more for Alex as Sidney refused to let ‘er come. As shitty as I think Alex was for dumping Kenzi over social media…at least I know that Alex would go into this with her mind on first making sure that Kenzi was okay!
I guess that task falls to me. If I ‘ave to step in…I know that Sidney won’t be ‘appy with me…but I’m th one who’ll ‘ave to look at meself in th bloody mirror from now on! I’m going to do whatever I can to make sure that this thing doesn’t go any further south than it already ‘as!
Tokyo, Japan
Private Airstrip
Bobbi was glad to be off the plane at long last, but a feeling of foreboding was hanging in the air. She didn’t know if it was because she was still worried that Kenzi was planning to do away with herself…or if it was something else. As soon as she saw the car waiting for them that was surrounded by Japanese Yakuza, she knew the reason for her apprehension. Bobbi leaned down and whispered to Sidney, “You think this is a good idea mate? Those look a bit like mobsters to me…not exactly th cute and fucking cuddlies from th bleeding black and white telly, if yah know what I mean.”
Sidney rolled her eyes at Bobbi. “Honestly…I only understand half of what you say, but you don’t get paid to speak…so DON’T!” Sidney instead turned to Dana and Dinah O’Connell, waving them over as they exited the plane, still seeming a bit tipsy from their drunken ride over the Pacific. “Girls…if you’d be so kind…could you make sure that these little yellow piss-ants don’t think that I just brought along two drunken punching bags with me!”
Dinah snickered, “Grey…relax, Dana and I are masters of Drunken Style Kung Fu!”
Bobbi chimed in, “Well…th drunken part you two sheepshaggers obviously have down!”
Dana bristled at the comment, her dislike for Bobbi more than evident. “You fat ass piece of shit! Maybe she should carve a few tons of blubber off your back and give it to them as a peace offering!”
Sidney raised her hand, “ENOUGH! I pay you to keep me from getting my ass kicked, not to kick each other’s asses! Now, if you don’t mind…less talking…more looking intimidating!” She gestured for Bobbi to push her over to the car.
As the four women got near the car, one of the men standing by opened the car door and Oni Kymiku, the former LAW Champion stepped out, assessing Sidney with a raised eyebrow.
Oni hadn’t been seen in LAW since being suspended for attacking Lucas Dupree, but the vacation didn’t seem to be adverse to her. “Sidney Grey…” she leaned down to get eye-level with the wheelchair bound woman, “…you’re shorter than I remember.”
Sidney smiled back at her, “This is a temporary condition…I assure you.” She looked around at the suited and tattooed individuals that surrounded Oni. “Is this what you are doing with your time these days?”
Oni shrugged, “Until I’m permitted back into LAW…I’m obliged to break the laws here.” She looked at Sidney’s protection, “Is this The Pink Ladies 2.0? They seem a lot better than the originals.” Oni smirked at her little joke.
Sidney chuckled, “God, no!” She gestured to her legs. “This is just how I roll these days…until I no longer have to roll. Get it?”
Oni didn’t smile, simply folded her arms. “Sidney…let’s cut to the chase here. I agreed to meet you because I was curious as to what this was all about.”
Sidney sat up straighter in her chair, “This is about you helping me find my daughter and bringing her back to the states. You have people here who can locate Kenzi…that’s all I need…to find her and take her back…period!”
Oni frowned, “Grey…we were never friends and I don’t owe you a damn thing! Why in the hell would I do anything for you?!” Oni laughed, but it was hollow. “To be perfectly honest with you, I only agreed to see you because I heard you were crippled…and I really wanted to see it for myself. Now that I have…I’m going back home where I can look back on this moment and smile every time I walk around my estate or have to stand on my toes to reach something on a high shelf!” Oni rolled her eyes, “Good luck finding your little brat…”
Dinah and Dana stepped forward and Oni’s people did the same. The twins grinned viciously, eager for a fight, despite their lingering inebriation. Sidney held up her hand to stop Sisterhood from getting into a tussle. “Not yet girls.” Oni glared at them, then turned to get back into her car, Sidney spoke up again, “You do owe me Oni!” Oni stepped inside her car and the door was closed. Sidney continued on, “I brought you to LAW…I’m the one that reunited you with your sister! Regardless of how the rest turned out…you at least owe me for that!”
The car started to pull away, then it stopped and the darkly tinted window in the back rolled down. Oni’s profile was visible, but she didn’t bother looking at Sidney. “Grey…by all rights…I should get out of this car and beat you to within an inch of your life…but I’m not going to do that…and do you know why?”
Sidney responded, “Because you know that even in this chair, I could still kick your ass.”
Oni smirked, then opened the car door and stepped out. She marched right over to Sidney, and Dana and Dinah were right there to block her path. Sidney pulled the twins back, allowing Oni to come to her. Oni knelt down in front of Sidney, looking her right in the eye. “I’m not going to give you the beating you so richly deserve because you deserve to suffer so much more than that!” She shook her head and chuckled, “Maybe…just maybe this really is what you really deserve.” Oni patted Sidney on her all-but useless legs, “Maybe you deserve the person that put you in that chair…assuming the rumors are true…and she deserves the chance to put you in the ground.” Oni stood up and gestured to one of her people and they quickly walked over. Oni spoke to the woman in Japanese and gestured to Sidney and her group. The woman bowed to Oni and gave Sidney and her people a disdainful look before walking off. Oni turned back to Sidney with a sigh, “Give me an hour…and your daughter will be found. After that…you and I will not speak civilly again.”
Sidney nodded, “All I want is my daughter…afterwards…I don’t care if I ever lay eyes on you…”
Candid Moment: Sidney Grey
I was the one who was responsible for bringing Oni Kymiku to LAW…I only wish that I had been awake to enjoy seeing her leave it! Such is life I guess. All the same, whether she wants to admit it or not, she really does owe me! Not for becoming the first 2-time LAW Champion…but for reuniting her with her estranged sister. I don’t know what went on between them and I don’t particularly care! All I know is that without me, none of that would have been possible! I am the one who reconnected her with the sister that she apparently alienated herself from…yet again. Her problem…not mine!
All of Oni’s stupid talk about me ‘getting what I deserved’ is just a bunch of bullshit! I didn’t deserve ending up in this wheelchair…but my little wayward demon spawn is deserving of more than a few things when I finally find her! Don’t get me wrong…I don’t want her hurt…but I do want her to pay for what she’s done…and pay she will! That is something that I promise everyone within the sound of my voice! Kenzi Grey is going to regret her part in what she did to me…she is going to regret it for the rest of her natural born life!
The Ritz-Carlton
Tokyo, Japan
True to her word, Oni’s people located Kenzi Grey in less than an hour using her underground network of less-than-savory connections. Kenzi had flown into the country more than a week ago and had gone on the honeymoon that she had planned to take with Alex Yin. Sidney had initially been worried that Kenzi had gone off and done something rash, but seeing that she had set herself up in such lavish accommodations alleviated any lingering fear she might have felt for her child’s safety.
As they were lead to Kenzi’s suite, circumventing the usual hassle of security thanks to Oni’s inside connections, Dinah elbowed her sister. “That little bitch was holding out on us! Been paying us goddamn peanuts when she can afford all of this?! A raise…we are getting a fucking raise!”
Dana snorted, “We are getting back pay as well!”
Bobbi glared at the two as she pushed Sidney. “Why don’t th two of you stupid slags shut your traps until we’re sure that Kenzi is okay?!”
Dana scowled at Bobbi, “You think the little shit paid a mint to fly all the way to fucking Tokyo to slit her fucking wrists? You’re a dumbass! She could have done that back in the damn States lard ass!”
Dinah chimed in, “Hold on D…the escaped Macy’s Day Mascot might have a point! I mean…don’t they have that haunted suicide forest over here? The one they made the movie about?” Dinah laughed, “It’s possible that the little lovesick moron came over here just to off herself in the woods with the rest of the rice eaters!”
“ENOUGH!” Sidney yelled, halting the upsetting conversation there, just as they arrived at the Penthouse Suite.
The nervous looking manager gestured to the door, then started to leave, but Oni’s people were quick to steer him right back as they directed him to open the door. The man only protested once. A smack to the face was all that was needed convince him that he was far from done. He used his key to access the door and stood aside as it opened. Bobbi wheeled Sidney inside as Dinah and Dana followed. Dinah stepped back out smacked the man hard on the back of his head for good measure as she chuckled at the high pitched shriek he made.
Sidney folded her arms and narrowed her eyes as she looked around at the accommodations that Kenzi had been living in while everyone was frantically looking for her, worried about her well-being. The suite was stunning and lavish beyond all reason. She had spared no expense, that much was more than apparent. No doubt, Alex Yin would have been thrilled at all of this. Sidney was glad that she’d never get to experience it. However, this was an expense that she knew was well beyond Kenzi’s means. If the girl had been younger, Sidney would have put her over her knee and beat her until arms got tired. Even though Kenzi was technically an adult, she still considered taking the girl over her knee just for all of the aggravation she had caused everyone.
As they walked into the Great Room, they found it littered with half-eaten food and empty liquor bottles strewn all over the place. All around were half-naked people lying about in various stages of an alcohol and drug induced stupor. Dana shook her head, elbowing her sister this time as Dinah grabbed a handful of pills and joints, shoving them into her pocket. “This bitch is going to pay through the nose! She never threw any parties like this when we were around!”
Bobbi answered absently, “Probably cuz there’s never cause to celebrate when you two dung beetles are about!” Dana gave Bobbi the finger, but refrained from giving a retort.
Sidney sent Bobbi, Dana, and Dinah all through the suite to rouse the sleeping and drunken masses in search of Kenzi among the revelers. They kicked the half-naked partygoers out of the suite, but Kenzi was not among any of them in the exterior rooms. Bobbi pushed Sidney to the back and into Master Bedroom. As soon as they walked inside, Sidney swore under her breath and averted her eyes. “Jesus! Bobbi…take care of that…please!”
On the massive bed, Kenzi was stretched out nude among a twisted mass of equally naked humanity, all reeking of sex, sweat, and alcohol. Bobbi untangled Kenzi from the masses and wrapped her in one of the sheets as she carried her out of the room. Sidney’s displeasure with all of this was evident by the look on her face, but at least Kenzi had been found relatively safe and sound.
Dana and Dinah walked into the room where Kenzi had been found, both shaking their heads collectively. Dinah put her hand on Sidney’s shoulder. “I know that it’s hard finding out that your daughter is a drunken whore…”
Dana put her hand on Sidney’s other shoulder, “Just remember…it could always be worse…she could have been Australian!”
Sidney waved both women’s hands off her shoulders. “Get these shitheads the hell out of here! But I want you to take all of their phones and cameras…I don’t want any pictures of Kenzi acting like a drunken whore getting out!”
Dinah gave Sidney a questioning look. “What if someone says no and then gets hurt…just a little bit?”
Sidney gave a dismissive wave. “I didn’t ask you to be gentle, so that’s on you!” Dinah looked at Dana and smiled broadly, as if it was Christmas Day for her. The twins got to the task of clearing out the suite, as Sidney sat back in her chair and ran her fingers through her hair and closed her eyes. It was a relief to have Kenzi back…but that was only a piece of the puzzle…now the hard work would begin…
Kenzi sat on the couch, wrapped in the sheet that Bobbi had carried her out of the bedroom in. Her knees were pulled up tight into her chest and in her hands she held a steaming hot cup of black coffee. She tried to sip the scalding hot beverage, but she could feel her stomach turn at the thought of drinking even a single drop. She stuck out her tongue and shook her head. “No…I…I can’t!”
Sidney glared at her daughter from the confines of her wheelchair as she spoke to Dinah. “If she tries to put that cup down, I want you to pick it up and throw it in her goddamn face!” Dinah grinned at this, rubbing her hands together in anticipation.
Kenzi’s mouth fell open as she stared at her mother. “What the fuck?! You don’t even know wha…”
Sidney sat forward in her chair as she narrowed her eyes and pointed her finger menacingly. “You drink that fucking coffee down…and you do it NOW!”
Kenzi thought about throwing the cup at her mother and daring anyone to do something about it, but the look on Dinah’s face said that she was more than eager to do whatever heinous thing Sidney allowed her to do. Looking over at Bobbi, the large woman encouraged her to drink and avoid a fight. Kenzi grimaced as she sipped at the black liquid and it scorched her throat on the way down to her belly…a belly that had consumed little more than snack chips, alcohol, and ecstasy since she left the states. Kenzi took one more gulp, then looked at her mother with distain. “How’s that?”
Sidney rolled her eyes, “What in the fuck is wrong with you Kenzi?! Why are you here…with…with these PEOPLE acting like a goddamn drunken twat?!” When Kenzi didn’t answer, Sidney snorted, “This is all that little yellow whore’s fault! Alex Yi…”
Kenzi threw the cup of coffee on the floor, shattering it on the tile floor as she nearly came unglued. “STOP IT!! DON’T YOU TALK ABOUT ALEX!! DON’T YOU SAY ANOTHER FUCKING WORD ABOUT HER…I…I…” Just as quickly as her mood had escalated, she seemed to slip into a deeper depression. Tears ran down her face in an uncontrolled torrent. She buried her face into the sheets as her body heaved with the tears she tried her best to hold back.
Dinah looked at Sidney. “Can I get another cup of coffee and throw it at her now?”
Sidney ignored Dinah as she wheeled herself closer to Kenzi. She reached up and snatched her daughter’s head out of its hiding place. “You disgust me! After all the things that you have done…this is what brings you to fucking tears? THIS?!” She let Kenzi’s head go, but continued to glare into her eyes. “I would have some respect for you if you told me that you were using Yin for whatever sick pleasure you claim to enjoy sexually these days…but obviously you are nothing but a goddamn weakling where that nasty whore is concerned!”
Kenzi roared back in anger, “SHE’S NOT A WHORE!!”
Sidney chuckled to herself, “She couldn’t wait to dump you and move in with two other lesbos! I bet you that the three of them are all licking and sucking each other right now…all without a single thought of how you’re doing or if you are even alive right now!” She shook her head and laughed out loud this time. “Trust me Kiddo…Alex Yin got what she wanted from you and now that she has herself a Marquee Title match…you’re yesterday’s news…”
“…shut up…that’s not true…” Kenzi muttered as she stared daggers at her mother.
“It’s absolutely true! If you hadn’t ditched your phone…you would have known that.” Sidney reveled in telling Kenzi about Alex moving on…regardless of whether she was stretching the truth or not. “Yeah! She’s been having little play dates with all her new friends…you know…people who all hate your guts…”
“…SHUT UP…THAT’S NOT TRUE…” Kenzi responded forcefully.
Sidney shrugged her shoulders, “You don’t have a single friend in LAW that cares about you…not a single one…I checked.” She looked around thoughtfully, “A few people wondered if you would be back to LAW in time for Validation…but that was only because they wanted to see Keira Fisher kick your ass or kick your ass themselves. Other than that, no one has given a damn…even the little nappy haired girl who was holding the rings for you at your sham wedding.” Sidney shrugged again. “No time for Kenzi I guess…especially when there are more important things going on in the world…like Jon Snow coming back to life and Daenerys Targaryen being shown naked for the first time in like forever!” She laughed a little at her little joke, “No one missed you…no one gave a damn…not a single one of them!”
Kenzi dropped her head as she felt the hole in her chest open a little wider. Over the last two weeks she had begun to see that perhaps Alex was feeling a bit trapped and overwhelmed, but it was only because she loved the girl with all of her heart. Alex had been her light in the dark for so long that she was all that Kenzi cared about…all that she saw. Back when Kenzi was shooting her movie with Ashley Marie Chase, there was a moment when Kenzi felt conflicted and thought that there could be something between them…but she tucked that fantasy away and focused her time and effort on Alex instead. Even when Alex nearly strayed with Hannah…Kenzi held on to the idea that they would find a way to keep things together. Alex reaffirmed that notion when she asked Kenzi to marry her. That had been the ultimate display from Alex and from that moment on…she knew that she needed to do whatever was needed to keep the two of them together. Maybe at times…she went to extremes…but it was all done out of love…every single bit of it.
Now…hearing that Alex had moved on, it was clear that she was never in love with Kenzi…and if she was, it was nowhere near as fierce as the love she felt for Alex. A part of her thought that Alex would think to come her to find her. For over a week and a half, she held on to that notion…but as time passed, it became clear that Alex meant every word of what she said over Twitter. It was over…and there was no coming back from that.
For Alex, it was like they had never been together at all…for Kenzi, everything was a constant reminder for her. Smells…a touch…a glance from the corner of her eye…it brought thoughts and memories of Alex rushing back to her. Despite it all…Alex had remained pure to her…still that shining and perfect beacon of light that she herself had not been good enough to bask in. There was little else to do than to drown herself in the filth that Alex and everyone else had made her out to be. It no longer mattered since no one cared…even Brittney Williams or Ashley Marie Chase, the only two women to attend her wedding that she didn’t have on her payroll.
Brittney was fickle…the two of them had started out as foes and their relationship had grown into something else entirely. She thought that Brittney would always have her back…just like she would be there for Brittney if she was ever called. Apparently…just like the love she felt for Alex…Brittney only cared about Brittney. This shouldn’t have been a surprise…but it was…and it hurt…it hurt a lot that she had never bothered to ask if she was alright…not a sentence…not a peep.
Ashley was another matter entirely. The two of them had grown close out of the sight of everyone in LAW. When she was suspended from her position as General Manager, Kenzi was the voice that sounded the loudest. She had kept Ashley’s names on everyone’s lips, making sure that she would get her chance to be GM again. She had thrown herself against every interim General Manager that Lucas appointed…even when at times it seemed that it would ruin Kenzi and cost her everything. Kenzi was loyal to her friends and she had stayed true to the course, even when people like Jenny Tuck and Maria Salvatore punished her for that loyalty. Kenzi thought that Ashley shared those same feelings…but now that Ashley and Sam had Alex…there was no need to continue with Kenzi.
Sidney watched as Kenzi soaked it all in…every word of it. “How does it feel to have everything taken away from you…especially by someone that claims to loves you? It sucks…doesn’t it?” When Kenzi didn’t answer, Sidney reached up and roughly grabbed Kenzi’s face, forcing her to look her in the eye. “I know how that feels Kenzi! Do you wonder how I know?”
Kenzi swatted Sidney’s hand away. “I DIDN’T FUCKING RUN YOU OVER! I DIDN’T!”
Sidney laughed at this, “You’re some kind of fucked up, kid! You said that like you really believed it!”
“I didn’t do it…” Kenzi repeated.
Sidney arched her brow, “Just like you didn’t try to have Roxi Johnson run down? Just like you didn’t have Jenny Tuck jumped backstage before your match?” Kenzi opened her mouth to respond, but thought the better of it and remained quiet. “That’s why Keira Fisher wants your blood…that’s why Jenny Tuck has spit in your face…not once, but twice!”
Kenzi sat back in her chair, throwing her head back over the backrest as she breathed out heavily. “I don’t care anymore…I don’t care about any of it. That part of my life is over. I’m done with LAW…so Keira and Jenny Tuck can go finger fuck each other in a broom closet while they joke about running me out of LAW…I don’t care…I quit.”
Sidney folded her arms, “You quit? Just like that? You think that you can just throw up your hands, walk away, and it’s all over?” Sidney sucked her teeth, “No…you have a commitment…you are going to Validation and you are going to face Keira and you are going to pay for what you tried to do to her wife!”
Kenzi screamed at Sidney, “NOTHING HAPPENED TO ROXI!! SHE’S FINE!!”
Sidney narrowed her eyes at Kenzi, “Well…something damn well happened to me Kenzi…and you are going to answer for it…you are going to pay for it with your fucking freedom as soon as that match ends!”
Kenzi’s face went ash white as she stared at her mother. “You told the cops that I did it? Mom…no…NO YOU DIDN’T DO THAT!!”
Sidney laughed, “If I had done that…you’d be in jail right now, but more importantly…you’d be missing out on that Keira Fisher ass kicking! Since I’m in no condition to give it to you…I figure, why not let her do it?!”
Kenzi swallowed hard at the thought. She had faced Keira once before…in her very first match in LAW. Keira had been upset that Kenzi had accused Roxi of running down her mother. On that night, Kenzi got the most humiliating beat down in LAW history. Kenzi had to pay an internet firm to push down the results that popped up whenever anyone searched for the match. The match was so short and brutal that the entire thing was on Vine. Kenzi had seethed over the loss for months…but she never did anything about it. When Jenny Tuck had made the match against Keira, she initially saw it as a chance to gain some revenge for the loss that she had suffered. She didn’t know how she’d win…but with Bobbi and the O’Connell sisters behind her…a chance would present itself. After the match was changed again, being twisted into a situation that Kenzi could not possibly hope to prevail in…she was decidedly less intrigued by the prospect. Having her heart ripped out of her chest made the match nothing more than an afterthought which had faded into nothingness as far as she was concerned. She wasn’t going back to LAW…so that match was off as far as she was concerned…they were all off.
Kenzi sat forward, going nose to nose with her mother. “I’m not going to Validation…so you can go right straight to fucking hell! I’m going to stay in this suite and I am going to celebrate my honeymoon by drinking and fucking myself to death…and there’s nothing you can say or do to change any of that!”
Sidney sat back in her own chair, assessing Kenzi…impressed by her newfound resolve and amused by her idiocy. This was why Kenzi wasn’t fit to bare the Grey name…not when it came to wrestling. She didn’t have to the acumen for the sport…she didn’t have the ability to think three and four moves ahead. While Kenzi was settling in on telling Sidney what she wasn’t going to do…Sidney was already working out where the best place in the arena would be for her to sit and watch Keira beat the hell out of Kenzi.
Sidney smiled at Kenzi, “You’re so smug…aren’t you? Thinking that you can just make a decision and there are no consequences. There are consequences that you need to consider…if not for you…then for others.” Sidney turned to Dinah and Dana, “You two put Jenny Tuck on the shelf, didn’t you? Do you think you could do the same for Alex Yin?”
Dinah chimed in, “For the right price…I’ll toss in a pavement facial! We’ll make sure that she’s broken into so many pieces that you’ll be able to play Chinese Checkers with all the parts!”
Across the room, Bobbi bristled at the notion of anyone touching Alex, but she kept quiet, not wanting to start a fight that would end up with her turning Dinah and Dana into a human centipede starter kit. Regardless of everything that had happened, Bobbi still cared for Alex, the same way that she knew that Kenzi still cared about Alex…even though she had tried her best to erase her memory.
Kenzi glared at her mother as she twisted the threat inside her head. Part of her wanted to tell her mother to go fuck herself and walk off…but another part of her, one that she thought was lost screamed out that they had to do something to keep Alex safe. “I’ll call Alex…I’ll warn her!”
Sidney burst into laughter. “Assuming she took your calls…between burying her face in Ashley’s and Samantha’s smelly assholes…you know as well as I do…she won’t miss Validation and her chance to get her hands all over Mackenzie Roberts! She’d blow you off even harder than she did on Mother’s Day!”
Kenzi tried to ignore her mother’s harsh jabs. “I’ll call Dazi! She’ll ban them from the building!”
Sidney continued to shake her head. “You’re really going to try to play that card? Even after she just rolled over and allowed you to be put you in an unwinnable match? You think she is going to listen to a word you say? All she cares about is you showing up for Validation to make sure that her time as LAW GM goes off without a hitch. If you don’t believe me…” she held up Kenzi’s phone that displayed the myriad of tweets between Sidney and Dazi. “…she knows that this match is what the people want to see…so she will do whatever it takes to get you in that ring. She’ll think that you are lying again to get out of that match.” Sidney chuckled, “Feel free to call Dazi if you like…but I’m not lying.” Sidney tossed the phone to Kenzi.
Kenzi sat there in stunned silence as she looked down at the phone. She knew that she shouldn’t care about Alex. The girl had shit all over everything that Kenzi thought that the two of them were…but no matter how hard she tried to deny it, she still loved Alex…and she hated her mother. She narrowed her eyes, staring viciously at Sidney. “So…I go and lay down in the ring and then you call off the attack?”
Sidney rolled her eyes, “You can lay down if you want to…but I think Keira is going to stomp a mudhole in you for what you almost did to Roxi…and for what you had done to Jenny Tuck! You can let her beat the fuck out of you or try to fight back if you like…makes no difference either way. After that match ends…your ass belongs to me! You’re going to pay for what you did!”
Kenzi looked at her mother, her eyes red and tearfilled. “I didn’t hit you!”
Sidney screamed in Kenzi’s face, “ENOUGH FUCKING LIES!” Kenzi flinched back from her mother’s rage. “You are going to Validation and you are going to admit to Keira what you did and then you are going to take your medicine! Right after that’s over…if there is anything left of you…it’s going to be carried out of the ring after I tell everyone what and who I saw the night I was run down in Portland!”
Kenzi shook her head, tears running down her face. “You’re going to lie and send me to jail? Are you that fucking bitter and jealous of me?!”
Sidney leaned in, “I’m not bitter or jealous…am just fucking ashamed to be called your goddamn mother!” Sidney snatched the phone out of her hands and waved for Bobbi to wheel her out of the room, to which the big Aussie promptly complied. It was apparent from the look on her face that she didn’t agree with anything Sidney said, but she had absolutely no say in any of this. As Bobbi wheeled Sidney past Dana, she looked over at the woman, “Get her shit together and get her downstairs and into the car. Drag her out of here naked if you have to…but we are flying back out to New York tonight!” Almost as an afterthought, she raised her hand. “Wait…before you bring her down…I want her in front of that camera! I want her to tell everyone that she’s coming back for Validation! It better be convincing…it better be damn convincing!”
Dana nodded as she and her sister set to yanking Kenzi off the couch forcefully as they gathered her and her belongings and they hustled her in front of the camera for one of her show’s Candid Moment confessionals…
Candid Moment: Kenzi Grey
I’m not sure what I’m supposed to say…except that maybe…I’m sorry for a lot of the things that I did…and for my behavior after LAW 47…
I…I hadn’t planned on coming back for Validation. After Ale…
…I don’t think I want to…do this…
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…I…
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Keira…I know that you and I have no love lost for one another. You hate me…I hate you…it just keeps going around and around. After you beat me at LAW 31 in Pittsburgh, all I could think about was coming back and getting into the ring with you one more time. I wanted to take back that loss…I wanted to show you that I really did belong in LAW…regardless of what you said or how you felt about me and my mother. That was over 10 months ago Keira…10 of the longest months of my life.
Frankly…a lot changed in that time. I fell in love…my acting career took off…I nearly got married. A lot of wonderful things happened…and…a lot of terrible things also happened. I got arrested…I lost my acting career…and I lost my fiancée. 10 months…so much can happen in that time…so many things changed…
However…in all that time…over all those many long months…do you know what never changed? You and your squawking! YOU AND YOUR BIG FUCKING MOUTH JUST RUNNING AND RUNNING AND FUCKING RUNNING!! The same tired bullshit…day in and day out. Badgering me about my mother…crying about something that ‘almost’ happened to Roxi Johnson! ALMOST ONLY COUNTS IN HORSESHOES AND GODDAMN HAND GRENADES! Why can’t you be happy that you have her…that you have each other? WHY CAN’T YOU JUST BE HAPPY?!!
I tried to move pass things where you were concerned…I hoped that you would finally shut up and move on, but you didn’t. You kept on coming back…you kept on telling the same stories…you kept on badgering me! The more you talked…the more people piled on and started repeating what you were saying…driving me up the damn wall! Jenny Tuck…Maria Salvatore…a pair of stupid sluts with two things that made them dangerous…big mouths and managerial power. I had to deal with them…I had no choice but to do whatever it took to get them off my back so that I could save what was left between me and Ale…
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I’m not proud of the things that I did…but I did them for something that you don’t know a goddamn thing about! I did it for love! I did everything I could…I did things that I shouldn’t have done…I did it all. In the end…it didn’t matter. I lost everything anyway…just like you and everyone else that listened to you wanted. I left LAW…again…like you wanted, but still you continue to run your mouth…you keep running your mouth…YOU WON’T STOP RUNNING YOUR MOUTH!!
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…talking…talking…TALKING…
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I don’t have anything left Keira…everything is gone…all of it that mattered. You got your way…you broke me and you made sure that I lost…and I lost…and after I lost it all…I lost some more…I think I lost my mind. All I wanted to do was to walk away…to just go and leave. I didn’t want to see you…I didn’t want to see her…I…I just wanted to go. You could have your bragging rights…you could have LAW all to yourself…just go…go and FUCK OFF! But…you won’t even do that…you won’t even let me walk away…
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…so…
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…so…Validation…this all ends with a match. I match I had wanted for months…then turned my back on. I gave it to you…the win…you could just take it and walk away. You want the match instead…still…after everything…STILL! Now you’re going to get it Keira…you’re going to get it like no one else has gotten it…I promise you that! No more games…no more tricks…no more anything! You begged for this match…you begged for the stipulations…you begged to have me brought back to be in it…and now…YOU’RE GOING TO BEG ME TO STOP BEATING YOUR ASS INSIDE THE FUCKING RING!!
I have NOTHING to stop me from ending you! I have NOTHING to make me pity what I do to you! I have NOTHING…NOTHING…and soon…you’re going to see that when someone has nothing to lose…you’re the one that stands to lose it all…
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You made my life a living hell…just like you said you would. You made me miserable at every single turn…now it’s time for our roles to be reversed. It’s time for you to see what it feels like to lose…and to lose…AND TO LOSE…AND TO KEEP ON LOSING AND LOSING AND LOSING SOME MORE!
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…Validation…
…my suffering finally ends…and yours begins…