Post by Crystal Hilton on Nov 19, 2016 16:50:02 GMT -5
So I guess it’s finally upon us Gabby in a little more than a week you and I will be walking down that aisle and the two of us will be competing for the right to be the World Champion of LAW. That in itself is a big testament to how far we both have come this year. We both have made our strides in the ring. We both have gotten better and a year ago we walked down the aisle competing in the middle of the card. It wasn’t about a title back then. It was about being better than the other. Granted as I look back at it now I didn’t win in the way that I had hoped to win.
You went into that match full of confidence after all weeks prior to that you dropped me down on the mat with your killzone and got that big win over me and it was supposed to be our big rubber match. A match to settle our differences but yet nothing was really settled between us. We did fight one another but because of Kenzi Grey I was able to win and I can admit today that I needed help to get the job done.
But that was a year ago and fast forward to a year later. We have moved on from the likes of competing in the middle of the card to competing in the main event. For those who are really keeping track when I walk into Night of Glory in Minnesota I will be main eventing my very first Pay Per View in LAW. That shows you that despite having my share of ups and certainly my share of downs.
I have fought and clawed my way to getting to the top and now look at me. I am in a position that I deserve. A place that I feel comfortable in and a place that you didn’t think was possible. After all as I think about the war that you and I are about to engage in I can’t help about the way that you tried to bring me down last year. You basically called me washed up. You said I was a has been, and I didn’t have it anymore.
You should remember Camacho… After all I am trying to make this my big comeback tour like I am Diana Ross or some shit and that I am only a breath away from signing photographs in a bingo hall somewhere. Well look at me now Camacho! Look how far I have come and look where my hard work and dedication has gotten me.
It’s gotten me into a one on one match with you and as we journey towards Night of Glory I can walk into the Twin Cities and do the one thing that I have yet to do in this company. I can finally go out there and win my very first singles championship in LAW and not only can I win a singles championship but I have all of the ability to win THE championship.
How does it make you feel knowing that I earned my place in this main event?! Don’t even answer that because in your eyes all I seem to do is complain. That’s all I ever seem to do but honestly that’s not what I am about at all. I am nothing but blessed to even have this opportunity right now and if it wasn’t for you sparking something within me I doubt I would even be in a position ot be here right now.
You see with the way you that you continued to verbally abuse me I knew I had to get better and I had to do something about myself. Hearing people question what happened to the old Crystal Hilton. Questioning if the woman from five or six years ago was still in existence drove me to the brink of insanity.
So after hearing the same shit over and over again I did what any normal person would have done. I got better. I had the desire to get better and in the span of one night I won more matches this year than I have during the rest of the year. That just goes to show how much this means to me.
You however can’t respect that because all you see in front of you is a woman that is just waiting to stab you in the back. A woman that is ready to say look I got you! I know you are just waiting for it to come but the fact is you can keep on waiting because it’s just not going to happen.
This year has been nothing but a wakeup call for me. That you just can’t go where you want in this business just by status quo or namesake. You have to put in the time and effort if you really want to be a champion. And by the end of that’s all I really want to be is a champion. Be a singles champion in LAW.
One that the fans could admire. One that has no problem being on the grand marquee. Selling out arenas and one who has no problem bringing the championship wherever they go. That’s what I represent Camacho. I represent the woman who is willing to go out to that ring and grab that brass ring with her own very hands.
I get it… You think everything about me is façade. Being a woman who knows damn well she’s from Detroit but wants to cry Los Angeles when it suits her. A girl who changes with the times. A woman looking to do so much. Well newsflash whether that’s true or not I AM AN ACTRESS!
Isn’t the entire point to simply play the role of whatever is necessary to make it credible? Isn’t that the entire point of acting to show the world that I can be whatever I need to be in order to get the job done? Whatever is required is the mask I put on to go and flow with the moment?
That is normally the circumstance but let me tell you something. What you have seen these past few months hasn’t been acting. It’s been the real me that has been waiting to break out of her shell.
This whole entire year has been nothing less than the year of Crystal Millar! Last year it was about slapping me in the face and telling me I wasn’t good enough but you know what I did this year?
I stepped the fuck up! I became the household name again. I know I wrestle in a lot of companies but yet that hasn’t slowed me down because in one way or another I have ascended to the very top of the mountain in each one of those companies.
VWS granted Ana Valentine was one of my good friends and I was originally to be her hand picked chosen one. And yeah I won myself a World Championship but when it came time to actually being a champion and they wanted to move on without me. I showed I could be a fighting champion when pushed to the edge. Even though the company went defunct I can at least say I was the first and only Women’s World Champion that they ever had.
Or in IWF in 2015 I was a shell of my former self. I got beaten down in every single match. People I was beating two years ago were women that were having a field day when it came to facing me. They used me to spring board themselves into the limelight as I got left in the dust, but this year I bounce back and now I hold a championship that represents being a fighting champion, having to defend my title every two weeks.
And one cannot know my claim to fame without knowing what I have been doing in SCW. The way I came so close last year only to be denied over and over again, and it wasn’t until this year when I was finally able to stand up. Fight for what I believe in and now I am the woman to beat as it’s World Champion.
The fact of the matter Camacho is I have been building up myself for an entire year and I am now in a position when I am truly ready to emerge in the spotlight. I am ready to take my place at the top of this company.
Because out of everywhere LAW is the place where I haven’t made any strides and it at least looked that way until the Queen of the Ring.
Queen of the Ring where everything was left behind and despite being betrayed by my friends. Despite being left with absolutely nothing there was only one way for me to go.
Up… I had no choice but to spring upwards and from what you been telling everybody nobody is buying what I am trying to sell.
Just shut up Camacho you haven’t walked a day in my shoes. You don’t know what it feels like to be Crystal Millar. I am by no means perfect and I did claim to be at one point, but I learned from my mistakes and I know what I have to do in order to get the job done.
You however are a woman that can’t accept that there might be somebody out there better than you. I knew that the very moment you acted all pompous telling Keira off that good intentions don’t matter. Because she wasn’t going to get past you, and how she had placed all of this pressure on herself because she wasn’t going to get the happy ending she wanted because that road went through you. A road where she wasn’t going to beat you.
But what happened Gabby? Not only did you get beat but as soon as you did two weeks later you were already marching down to the ring demanding a rematch. What happened? You couldn’t handle being out of the spotlight for two weeks? Did it get to you that much that you had to eat your words?
Well that’s how I have been feeling for the past three years of being in this company. Not being t the top of my game like I should have. Being forced to dwell in the middle of the card trying to find my way to getting anywhere really so when I finally got where I wanted to go. When I felt like I was on cloud nine that I was Queen of the Ring and nothing could bring me down. The lost to Kenzi Grey did open my eyes a bit.
Yes she ran amuck, yes I should have said something but even though she cheated it still resulted in me getting beat, and I was quiet about it because it was something I wanted to forget.
I wanted to move on from it but Lucas made sure that wasn’t the case. He was the one that decided that my contention should be put on the line and yeah I got a little emotional over it. Who wouldn’t… Who wouldn’t have something to say when something is at jeopardy that they worked so hard to achieve?
I might have bitched a bit but it got the result that everyone wanted. It made me step up and there’s no question in anybody’s mind that I deserve to be in this spot. After all for you to call me out on it would make you the biggest hypocrite when you were so quick to demand your rematch. It’s the same exact thing, and you losing your belt made you step up to get it back, and the same happened for me.
As much as you might not want to be my friend or respect my wishes to just have a good match between the two of us I am not going to take your disrespect lightly. Whether or not you will respect me and the masses are the ones speaking.
Everyone is rallying behind me to win this match. They are making me out to be their hero and I could never imagine myself in that role. That role is suited for the likes of the Wendy Brieses, the Fujiko Mines, or the Keira & Roxi Johnsons of the world, but for me I have always been too arrogant to really accept that.
But I will go out there in Minnesota and I will beat you because I know that I am the better wrestler than you. In a fist fight you would give me the hands. In a debate contest you might serve me up on a silver platter, but inside of that twenty by twenty. Where none of that other stuff matters. That is my world. It’s a world where I can take flight and I can put it all on the line.
Last year I was too blinded by the thoughts of losing my father and marrying my Jonathan to really focused on wrestling but this year it’s about a new goal.
It’s about being the absolute best and proving to haters like you that I can go achieve the unthinkable.
It’s about being a better mother and showing my beautiful daughter that she doesn’t have to be a Kenzi Grey to make it in this business.
For every setback one should be able to pick themselves up and go at it again and that’s what I am going to do.
So think what you want but when you find yourself staring at the ceiling looking at the spotlight with me hovering over you with the World Championship held high above my head.
You will in fact respect or you will be forced to do so.
Come November 27th on my birthday. This Rose will blossom and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. I refuse to wither away… Especially to the likes of you Gabby… See you in the ring…
Hollywood Hills, California
Crystal’s Home
In order to be a champion one must put in the effort. Crystal found herself in her own personal gym. She was clad in her workout gear. The sweat was steadily pouring off of her head as she did push up after push up against a workout bench. She wasn’t alone in the gym as her daughter Brittany decided to spend some time with her. By spend some time she was just watching television in the background as Crystal continued to work out. Crystal did push up after push up as she let more sweat roll down her face.
“200…201….202…203….”
Crystal said out loud to herself as there wasn’t any time to really slow down. She needed to fire away at all cylinders if she wanted anything close to a chance at beating Camacho inside of the ring. Brittany turned her attention to her mom as she was watching television at the same time. The television was showing Dragon Ball Z in the background, and Brittany couldn’t help but giggle as she stared at her mother before looking at the television. She was laughing hysterically.
“Is there a reason why you are laughing so hard Brittany?! I didn’t think me training was a laughing manner…”
Brittany cracks a giggle again as she shrugs her shoulders but Crystal just grabs a towel as she wipes her forehead and sits beside her daughter. “Still don’t understand why you are laughing though. Shouldn’t you be playing Pokemon Moon or Sun? Trying to level up before Jonathan gets back home?”
Brittany just shakes her head. “Not really I am not going to get it until he comes back home from England. I made a promise that I wouldn’t even touch it until he gets back home… We wanted to basically level together and have battles along the way….”
“I see….” Is all Crystal could say as she nods her head in agreement. “Whatever… The sooner he gets back the sooner the both of you can lock yourselves up and spend times amongst yourselves… It’s not like either of you wanted to spend time with me….”
“Mom stop being silly…. We are spending time right now aren’t we?!”
“What by sitting here talking? And you laughing at me while I train? You still haven’t told me why you were laughing at me. Did some of my weave come out? Are my roots showing….”
Crystal says befuddled as Brittany shakes her head in return.
“NO it has nothing to do with your hair. It’s fine as usual. I would hope it’s fine as much as you pay to get it done. It’s just me watching this episode of Dragon Ball Z… You honestly remind me of….”
Crystal laughs as she cuts her right off. “Oh I know… I am like a modern day Bulma. You don’t have to tell me that much. The way I am innovative in the ring and in life. Always crafting up something new. Always finding a way to showcase my independence…I am flattered that you would think that way about me.”
Brittany however shakes her head offering a long sigh as she looks back at her mother. “Actually no trust me as annoying as you might be you are far from ever becoming a Bulma.”
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN I AM ANNOYING?!”
Brittany grins as she looks right into her mom’s eyes. “Come on the way you always scream out how you are a SILVER SCREEN QUEEN! The way you have to spew your catch phrases around. You know damn well people just tune you out whenever you say that right?! Especially Jonathan….”
“Well Jonathan gets on my nerves sometimes….”
“Mom you get on A LOT of people’s nerves. You freaked out when he labeled that he was married to a drama queen in his twitter bio. He’s not really wrong is he?!”
“Meh… I’ll let that slide… I guess I can be dramatic at times…”
“At times?! Try most of the time….”
Crystal offers a long sigh as she giggles in return. “Fine I can be a little demanding but…”
“Mom its fine it is who you are and you can’t change it but like I was saying you really come across like a Vegeta to me…”
“Vegeta?! Look I know between you, and Jenny you girls have been getting me into this whole Anime thing and I appreciate it. But how do you see me as a Vegeta. How does that even make sense to you?!”
Brittany smiles as she looks at her mother. “Just think about it… Vegeta at one point was the best of the best. He couldn’t be touched. His power level was way beyond the rest of the Saiyans but when it came down to actually maintaining his place among the top he let all of these other people pass him, and he never really caught up…”
“So he just move on and he didn’t do anything to catch up?!”
“No if you look at each and every single arc. He was in a position where he could have been the go to guy but he let his over confidence blind him. He spent way too much time shouting to everybody how much he was the Prince of all Saiyans like that was supposed to mean something in the grand scheme of things. Yet in reality his namesake really didn’t do much for him. Sure he was powerful and people knew the stories of who he was and what he used to be about, but he never solidified himself as being the one people wanted to beat. He was simply a hold me over until Goku would swoop in and save the day, unless it was that one time where Gohan had to do so… But for Vegeta is was hard for him to recover from that….”
Crystal nods her head as she sighs in return. “I guess you do have your point. It takes somebody else doing something I am not to get me to notice, and only then is when I find myself having to step up to the next level. When it reality I should have been doing that all along…”
Brittany nods her head in agreement. “And just like Vegeta here you are training. Busting your ass for what purpose? Because you feel someone else has surpass you? It shouldn’t be about that, and that’s the reason that you are busting your ass trying to fight for the title then you are doing it all for the wrong reasons. I love you mom and I know it’s not often that we get to spend time together, but I really want you to win this…”
“And I want to win this as well Brittany. You know how much this means to me. It means everything…”
“I know but sometimes you get carried away and when you chase something you tend to shut yourself off of the world to achieve it. When Keira pursued the World Championship you think she shut Roxi out of her life? No she was doing it for her and her unborn child. She never lost sense of who she was in order to do so… I want you to do it. Everybody does but in the same token. You can’t afford to falter. You can’t forget those who helped you along the way and when you do make it to the top please promise you won’t stab your loved ones in the back…”
“That’s something I won’t do… I made a promise and I am going to stick to that promise. As important as the LAW title might be to me. It’s not worth losing the faith and trust from my friends. I been down that road Brittany, and it really didn’t hit me until you decided to show me that the world doesn’t revolve around me…”
“And that was the hardest decision I had to make mom. I didn’t want to jump you. I never really wanted too… I wanted you to just be there for me when I needed you. You are supposed to teach me right from wrong. You are supposed to help guide me. You are supposed to just help me in life. When Kenzi was beating you down with the rest of the Kentourage I knew I couldn’t be a part of that anymore because I love you…”
“And I love you too Brittany. You don’t have to ever worry about me letting the business take control of me ever again. Is this title match important? Yes it is… It means the world to me but Brittany you are my WORLD! Despite everything I have ever done. You have been the one to catch me when I am down. You have been the one to cheer me on. You are my very inspiration for trying to make strides in the business because I know you will always be there for me, and I am nothing but grateful for it…”
“Mom….”
“Mom nothing I truly mean what I say Brittany and that’s why I am finally going to catch you playing softball this week…I know this road life gets the best of me, and I am always on the go…”
“Yeah but you have a big match coming up. You should be training. Working hard to win that title…”
Crystal shakes her head. “And nothing comes in the way of me being a mother first and foremost. I always used people to get what I wanted and it’s wrong. It’s time I give back to the people who actually do mean something to me. Which is why I will be there for Nicky during this time of her being sick. I will be there for Mackenzie when she is feeling down about being respected or not. But most importantly I will be in your life because that’s what a mother should be for their daughter…”
Brittany hugs her mom as she looks up into her eyes. “And I will be there for you because you need me… Thank you so much mom…. Thank you for just being you…”
Crystal shakes her head. “No… THANK YOU… You are the one who isn’t walking the path that I went through. By your age I was already pregnant with you but look at you Brittany. You are pretty smart. You are still in high school that’s a whole lot better than where I was plus you are on the softball team. SOFTBALL a sport I could have been great at but I didn’t go that way. You are basically living the life I never did and I appreciate seeing you walk it…”
Brittany smirks in return. “And I appreciate you… Do you want to maybe play some catch in the front yard? I’ll go get my glove… Help me warm up for my big game tomorrow. This Fall Ball Championship game is going to be tough…”
Crystal smiles as she looks down into her eyes. “Of course I would but you better have a glove with extra padding… My pitching was absolutely nasty… You better be ready to catch what I am about to throw…”
The two women smile as one another as they head up the stairs and grab their softball gloves. It was going to be a great day between mother and daughter.
You know it’s funny when you really think about it. I had the opportunity to really hang out with my daughter this past week. In between matches and warming up. With Jonathan across seas over in Yorkshire taking care of a sick family member. It has been all about my time with Brittany inside the house, and I couldn’t be any more happier over my daughter. She really is growing up before my eyes.
However she said something this week that really caught my attention and I didn’t know how I should have received it. But she flat out told me that I was a modern day Vegeta. Now to be honest I didn’t know how to take it because Vegeta is always so hot headed, always so full of himself and when proven elsewise he is still out there trying to prove that he is the best. I guess when you really get down to depths of it.
It’s a representation that best represents me. Vegeta a character who spent his entirety plotting how he was going to rule the galaxy and be the strongest. When I was fresh out of my father’s wrestling school and I left my Lucha Libre mask behind. You couldn’t tell me anything. I felt as if I was the best! As if I couldn’t be touched. 2005 Divas Unleashed best rookie and best break out star of the year. 3WL Hall of Famer as well as rookie of the year. The accolades came and it was as if I was destined to be something great in the wrestling world.
People called me the second coming of Star. You know the girl I always joke around with the fact is as she preached about being the Glittering Goddess. I truly was that Rose Goddess. I was blossoming in ways and at a rate that nobody has seen before. And people couldn’t deny my talent.
I simply was the best or at least I thought so but to jump about 9 years later when I found myself in LAW it just seemed as everything that I thought I was or as great as I built myself up to be. I was far from that.
To my Vegeta there was about 4 other Gokus waiting out there for me, and just like our Saiyan Prince I was forced to play second fiddle to the likes of Oni, Keira, Mackenzie, and of course there’s you Camacho. All women who at some point or another had found a way to surpass me. Oni I ran into 3WL. The crazy bitch tried to stab me but I wasn’t a punk. I held my ground and I was able to solidify myself as the only Grand Slam Champion in that companies history.
But for some reason in LAW I could never quite catch up to her. As far as Keira goes. She ahd always had my number. She had a lengthy Breakout title reign. She won the World Championship and she did two things I just couldn’t do in this company.
Of course there’s Mackenzie and to be honest she started off beating me and I turned around and beat her. But we could have an honorable match and I wanted it on my terms for the third encounter. Instead of showcasing how much I improved I decided to let my anger blind me.
It’s as if I went Majin and some other entity was controlling where I felt I had to go down the path of Kate Steele. That’s right Kate fucking Steele. The woman who stole the Marquee Championship. Who used it as a tool to force herself into another title match, and guess what it worked for her. So why couldn’t it work for me in the same token?
The truth is it didn’t and despite me getting all amped up because I originally beat her when she got counted out. Despite her having a hurt leg she still found a way to beat me. And my Majin self as I will call it just resulted in me getting slapped around silly by Wendy House.
Getting outmatched in a situation that was best suited for me, and getting laughed at by the likes of Dan Pollaski and everybody else.
But as much as that annoyed me and bothered me. As much as I felt hurt knowing that my closest friends all walked away from me thus killing EMF with it. Nothing came close to hurting me as much as you have Camacho.
Because if I am Vegeta than you are the modern day Goku. You are the person everybody wants to fight. You are the one who is able to successfully play that cool calm collected hero while I am forced to stay in the background being more of an antihero.
And it drives me to the brink of insanity because I know for a fact that I am better than you yet I get proven elsewise when we step in the ring. Where I failed in my quest of grabbing the Marquee Championship you just go out there and win the thing like it’s nothing. Where I struggled to beat Oni in this company you beat her in an absolute brutal and bloody match. It’s like you are right there trying to upstage me, and you even beat Keira in a LAW ring something I have never managed to do.
Well I am tired of getting laughed at by the likes of you and in the same way that GOku always wanted to test his fighting against all of these random people that tried to attack the Earth. It seemed as if he never really got to give Vegeta that fight he desired. It’s like he wasn’t even there.
Is that what you think of me Camacho? Am I invisible to you?
Well you better wake up because I refuse to just stay in the shadows while you do what you want to do. I refuse to not be acknowledged as you look onward to fighting and defending your crown.
Because in this day in age. I know for a fact I have the tools and what it takes to beat you because between the both of us I want this more.
That championship is not a trinket to me. It’s a symbol of Redemption.
It’s a symbol of Recovery.
And it’s a symbol of Recognition and represents Revelation.
When a person holds that it means they are the face of the company and they are the woman who has a target on their chest that everyone is gunning for. As much as I might have hated Lucas for making me defend my tournament win. It did felt quite invigorating, and it helped me rise to the challenge.
So why can’t I do that on an everyday basis and do it with the biggest prize around my shoulders?
The fact I can do that and in today’s saga. In which they are calling Super. Goku and Vegeta are now at an even playing field. They are equal to one another. You might see it because you like being calm and thinking you are going to do what you always do and save the day.
But sometimes my passion, and emotions get my better judgment
Maybe I am a little hotheaded and I fly into a battle without thinking over the consequences but is there really anything wrong with me being a fighter and trying to ascend to the next level to rise to your challenge?
We call that being a warrior, and I will take my rightful place at the top. After all what good is being a Silver Screen Queen if you don’t have a thrown to go with it?!
Through it all I will lay down a foundation for my very own Trunks. My beautiful little girl that the legend of her mother isn’t a fairytale. It isn’t a tale that is told just to remember the good old days. It’s actual fact, and she, you, and the rest of the world will see how true it is at Night of Glory.
So everybody better grab their cameras. Take your snapshots because what you are going to see is something that is quite legendary. You are going to see me ascend to a place I have never been for in LAW.
I will in fact ascend to the next level and there isn’t a damn thing that you can do to stop me Camacho.
This tale has been told for three years.
Three years of headache…
Three years of being heartbroken
Three years of being called a has been…
But it’s time to flip to the end of these sad chapters and show everyone why you shouldn’t judge the darkest times in a person’s life.
Why there will be a happy ending and what will go down at at Night of Glory will be the end result of what happens when you finally put hard work into something.
Lights
Camera
Action
It’s Showtime… It’s time to make it happen.
I am Crystal Millar, and this is my rise to the top…
Time to ascend to the very next level…