Post by Nyako on Aug 9, 2014 17:41:00 GMT -5
Personal Blog 8/9/14 – 11:05 am
I’m on my way to Denver, CO and a these thoughts popped into my head.
I’m beginning to think it’s a requirement that one has to have personal issues in order to be gainfully employed but CTN. You look at all former wrestlers, personalities, or what not that came before me and are still around. Not one of them is well adjusted. Sure they may put up a front that makes them look like they are normal but deep down inside we are all damaged.. Maybe that’s why so many flock to the company, to be with those hat are a like in so many ways. At the same time though it also makes you feel sad about not knowing what normalcy is.
I honestly thought I had it once many years ago but it was fleeting. I ran when I felt it just got too comfortable. Maybe that’s why things are going the way they are now for me. I have two sisters in my life that I feel are going in opposite directions. One who I felt abandoned me and didn’t want family ties comes back to try to reconnect and damage what might be entirely impossible to totally repair. Another who I basically walked out on growing up and is now a self-made women who may or may not resent me for past transgressions.
It’s funny how things seem to come full circle in life really. I do the same thing to one that the first did to me a long time before and yet I am the one angry for how things are turning out. Man, I am a hypocrite. I guess that’s another thing CTN employees have in common. Have a hard time realizing their own shot comings until it smacks them right in the face.
Of course all this comes at a time when I probably…scratch that when I definitely do not need it the most. Right when I’m restarting a career path I thought I had left behind me. Maybe that’s why my first time out wasn’t as stellar as it should have been. I wasn’t in the right mind and to be honest took it to lightly. This time though I plan on showing match one was just a warm up. A chance to get my ring legs back. This time out I plan on being a hundred times better. And instead of letting my issues be a distraction, I’ll turn them into strength. That is one of the last qualities of a CTN employee. We thrive on turning any issue we have into motivation to get what we want. What I want right now is to show LAW that I’m ready to answer the call of being one of the best in the place and along my way I plan on hurting those that cause me great pain and for people like Miyoko well guess she’ll just be collateral damage for the demons I’m going to need to exercise.
August 8, 2014
Nyako’s Flat, Soho, New York
“Why are you here Song?” Nyako asks. She looks at her ‘sister standing in the middle of her apartment, timid and not sure how to respond to Nyako’s inquiry.
It was bad enough when she first arrived and she had to face Oni alone. Despite Oni’s somewhat calm demeanor toward her she was still on edge from the visit. Now though she was facing the woman she called her big sister and wasn’t sure if this was the right move at all.
“I came to talk to you sister…” SoLo said. Her voice was soft and barely above a whisper as she felt intimidated by Nyako’s icy glare.
“About what?” Nyako asked. Her demeanor getting a bit more agitated by the minute she stood in proximity to the young woman she once, well still loved with all her heart as if they were related by blood. In fact she had felt closer to her than she had her own flesh and blood sister until recently.
“Ny please just hear me out…” SoLo said. She wanted her sister to listen to what she had to ask instead of throwing her out. She knew they situation was sticky and what she wanted to talk to her about would not mend any of the fences that may have been broken between the two of them thanks in part to her employer, Sidney Grey.
“What you finally decided to come around and tell me why you just fired me from being Grey’s trainer?” Nyako asked. Her tone had a bit of venom and sarcasm in it as the words not only stung SoLo but caught her by surprise.
SoLo looked at Nyako confused. “I didn’t fire you Ny. You had quit remember. After your…our…Oni showed up at LAW #10. I thought that maybe you needed time to calm down. I wanted to call but…”
“But felt a phone conversation was too personal huh Song? Felt if you had to tell me yourself you wouldn’t be able to do Grey’s dirty work or maybe I just wasn’t up to your standards huh? Maybe you felt I couldn’t teach that old witch anything and it was better just to cut bait and fire me like a regular employee and not your sister huh?”
Now it was SoLo’s turn to get angry as the words her sister leveled against her stung like needles. SoLo wanted to say she wasn’t the one who walked out of the family all those years ago. Only keeping in touch on major holidays, just to see how things were going. She wasn’t the one to rip the heart out of a little girl who one day came home from school only to see the sister she had known for most of her early life just abandon her without a personal good bye. The same thing she was being accused of doing now.
Instead SoLo kept it from bubbling up and over and took a deep breath to gain some calmness. She looked into her sister’s eyes. “I did not send anything to you Ny. As I stated, I wanted to give you time to calm down and cool off before approaching you about possibly returning to being Grey’s trainer…” Her voice was steady but had hints of underlying hostility just under it.
Nyako cut her off. “You are the one who asked me to be her trainer. I agreed to it because we are sisters and because I owed you. Then you just…”
This made SoLo snap. “WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME SPEAK NY!!!”
The outburst silenced Ny as she looked at SoLo dumbfounded. This was not something SoLo did not do often; in fact in all the time Nyako had known her, she never witnessed this type of reaction.
“If you would just hear me out instead of constantly cutting me off or trying to hurt me with your words; I could at least try to explain things to you. But no, you’re dead set on blaming me for what’s going on and not listen to reason.”
Nyako, over her shock, straightened up and nodded to SoLo to go on although she was reluctant about it. She took a seat and crossed her arms on her chest and looked at SoLo.
Now SoLo felt like she was on the spot. She really didn’t want to blow up at Nyako but Nyako was so stubborn at times. She shook her head slightly to organize her thoughts trying to get back on tract.
“I didn’t fire you Ny. I swear. I would never do that. I wanted you to continue training Mrs. Grey and possibly lead her on a decent path instead of this one she’s on. She’s making enemies left and right and those who claim to be her allies would stab her in the back if the price was right.”
Nyako gave a humorless snort. “That’s the understatement of the year.”
SoLo continued as she knew Nyako had firsthand knowledge of her employer’s on goings. “But before I could reach you, I saw you had signed a contract to wrestle for LAW. I was caught by surprise because I thought you didn’t want to be a wrestler anymore.”
“That makes two of us.” Nyako said. A small sigh escaped her as she began to relax, feeling that SoLo was telling her the truth. Despite Nyako thinking her other little sister was changing, as shown by her earlier outburst, she was still the same honest person underneath.
SoLo looked at Nyako quizzically “What do you mean?” She said. She took a seat on the couch perpendicular to the chair Nyako was sitting in, relaxed a bit.
“I didn’t sign a contract. Someone signed one for me. They forged my signature and the whole nine yards.” Nyako remarked. She was resigned to the fact of what happened but still wanted to find out who did it.
“But how could they? Didn’t Ms. Syn try to help you get out of it?”
“I don’t know how, and as for getting out of it. I decided to stick it out once I talked to Dupree. Someone had to keep an eye on Kymiku and since I’m blood. Plus seeing as I was unemployed…”
SoLo started to protest but Nyako put up her hand to silence the young woman and shook her head. She smirked slightly. “I know, I know, you didn’t fire me. Probably was Grey…seeing how she operates wouldn’t put it past her. Course I can’t see her forging my name on a LAW contract.”
Nyako pushed herself up out of her chair and walked to her kitchen area. “Do you want something to drink? I’m sorry I don’t have a crème soda for you.”
SoLo smiled to herself, feeling happy that her sister remembered her favorite childhood drink. She hadn’t had one in years but remembered how good it would taste especially when Ny would go out of her way to get her one no matter what. She missed that about her sister.
“Water would be fine Ny. I can’t stay much longer anyway. I have someone waiting for me downstairs. I’m sure she’s worried about me by now.”
Nyako grabbed two bottles of water out of her fridge and handed one to SoLo as she took her seat again. “Why don’t you have them come up. No reason for you to make them wait.” Nyako sat up in her seat and leveled a gaze at SoLo. “Or were you afraid there was going to be bloodshed or something.” She said. She cracked a slight grin to put SoLo at ease as she saw her tense a bit.
“Maybe next time…” SoLo said. She was slightly embarrassed by the fact she thought her sister was still angry at her. “I just didn’t think inviting the daughter of Mrs. Grey would have been a good idea…”
Nyako took a pull from her bottle and sat back in her seat again. “Kenzi, right?” Nyako said. She remembered seeing and even talking to her the few times they crossed path when she was Sidney’s trainer. “Nice chick. Hard to believe she’s related to that bitch of an employer of yours.” She didn’t waste time trying to mince words.
SoLo cringed a bit from the comment, not because it was untrue just that she didn’t feel right talking about Sidney Grey and felt maybe she could get others to see she wasn’t as bad as she seemed; despite that being vastly untrue.
“Kenzi is nice and my best friend. That’s part of the reason I came honestly. You see...” SoLo said.
She felt the nervousness returning. Just when she seemed to smooth things over with Nyako, she felt she was about to upset the apple cart one again but had to push on.
“Mrs. Grey is sorry for what happened to your sister last show and wanted to say it was all an accident. She asked me to t talk to you about…well seeing if you could impress on Kymi…Oni, about not seeking retribution on her or Ms. St Clair come the show on Sunday. I know it’s a lot to ask, and really I have already talked to Oni about it. She assured me she wouldn’t take action against them unless they came after her again, but well it’s just…”
Nyako took it all in. She had a feeling this was the main reason behind SoLo’s visit in the first place. She didn’t fool herself into thinking the young woman just came by to clear the air with her after what happened. Even though that was a nice bonus in the whole scheme of things, plus she learned she wasn’t the one to fire her. Still, Nyako felt a bit betrayed that SoLo would come to her asking a favor for her no good employer.
“The reality Queen B can’t handle the mess she made so she sent you to try to clean it up? “ Nyako asked. She tried to keep the anger out of her voice but felt a little slip in the question.
“She’s a busy woman. I had scheduled so many appearances for her and other events, she just didn’t have the time. I’m sure she would have if…” SoLo started. She went quiet though as she saw the look Nyako was giving her.
“Song, don’t lie to me. I’ve known you for a long time and despite our time apart…” Nyako said. She paused for a minute as she saw what effect the words had on her sister. She felt the same way too and felt like a louse for being the one to walk away from her early on. She pushed on though, regaining her train of thought. “Despite all this time, I know when you are lying.”
SoLo wanted to protest but it quickly died down because she knew Nyako was telling the truth.
“Sidney wants to cover her ass and that of her fellow plastic and fake twin, Sidney 2.0. She’s not sorry for what she did to Kymiku, and if I hadn’t come down to chase them off she would have injured her just like she had done to Hilton and everyone else before. I know what kind of individual she is because I’ve had to deal with her type while working for CTN and with a few of my former clients. So I don’t believe that she’s sorry.”
SoLo felt a bit defeated from the statement. She had gotten word from Oni that she would not seek payback, but she wanted to make sure Nyako would hold her to her word, and possibly not look for revenge herself for the actions taken against her sister.
Nyako could see the look of rejection and failure on SoLo’s face. Nyako wanted to make Grey and St. Clair pay herself but she had talked Oni out of doing something rash, how would she look if she ran in halfcocked herself?
She scooted up to th edge of her chair and leaned forward and put a hand on SoLo’s leg reassuringly as the young woman played with the label on her unopened water.
“I have my own issues to deal with, namely focusing on Miyoko. I’ve been busting my ass for her all week so I don’t have another let down like I did last time with Doc, and so I won’t need ‘help’ to pull out a win.”
SoLo looked up at Nyako feeling a little relieved.
“Kymiku…well despite how she used to be…” Nyako hesitated. She wasn’t sure if she should mention it to anyone else since it seemed she was the only one who believed Oni had changed.
“She got her own match to worry about with Camacho despite me telling her not to fight this week. So you see we both got our hands full enough to not have to also worry about Sidney and Summer.”
This put SoLo at ease. She trusted Nyako and knew she would keep her word.
SoLo threw her arms around the neck of her older sister and hugged her tight. Nyako was caught off guard at first but then hugged SoLo back.
“Thank you so much Ny. You do not know how much this means to me. I will make sure Sidney is on her best behavior and tell her to keep Ms. St. Clair in check too. I appreciate it and I know Kenzi will appreciate it and in the long run Mrs. Grey will see how lucky she is also.”
“Nyako pulled away from SoLo and snickered. “Yeah whatever. The only way she’s learn is when someone goes upside her head to make her see the light. Until then, I don’t see her changing despite whatever you do for her.”
Nyako got up from her seat and SoLo followed suit and rose from the couch.
“You are too good for her Song. You really are, you need to be working for someone who will appreciate everything you do for them and not use you as the go between or the sacrificial lamb. Hell maybe you should try to get her kid in the business, you and her seem to have a much better relationship than you and that old bag.”
SoLo gave a weak smile. “I can’t abandon Mrs. Grey. As I said despite how she comes off she needs me. She would be lost without me.”
“Don’t lose yourself in the process then Song. Cause if that happens I will have to pay her a visit. And no matter what, she will pay big time for it.” Nyako said. SoLo knew she was serious and hoped it would not come to that point.
“Bad enough I’m going to have to take all this built up frustration, anxiety, rage, and everything else out on Miyoko, especially since she took Steele to a draw, but I need to relieve some pressure somewhere and she’s as good of a outlet as any.”
“Please be careful Ny. I don’t want anything to happen to you.” SoLo said.
“Like I said, only person that I plan on being in pain is Miyoko. I got a lot riding on this match and hell if I go 2-0 since coming in, I'll make a good enough impression to be in the Queen of the Ring.”
SoLo hugged Nyako again before taking her leave from the apartment and promising to call Nyako later and to make sure she came by again, next time with Kenzi in tow to introduce her correctly to her sister.
After SoLo left Nyako waited a few minutes before yelling out loud in the empty flat. Thoughts raced through her mind of what was going on in her small part of the world.
She was able to clear the air with her adopted sister even though she wasn’t to happy with the path she was on but promised to keep an eye out for her.
She also had the issue of Kymiku to deal with after living together for almost a month and thinking things were well, this part of her past she didn’t tell Oni about would sure come up sooner or later and she knew they would probably have it out.
At least she didn’t have to worry about Grey for now although she did plan on making her pay for her actions. Even though Oni seemed to be trying her hardest to turn over a new chapter in her life Nyako wasn’t so forgiving.
She also still had her issues with Syn she had to deal with and wasn’t sure which direction things would go from there.
Last but certainly not least though she still had her match with Miyoko that had been on the forefront of her mind for most of the week. Her display against the Doc was decent but sloppy at best, amateur at worst, but she knew she couldn’t put the same effort against Miyoko. She was bailed out against the Doc but knew she had to get a rematch to show the woman what she was like at the top of her game. Right now though, Miyoko would be getting Nyako at her best and most focused so far in LAW. She wanted to show she wasn’t just talk but also could legitimately put everything on the line plus more. She found herself in this predicament and she was going to make the best of it, one opponent at a time. Next Miyoko, then the Queen of the ring.
Before Nyako could head to the bathroom to shower after her earlier run, she felt her cell buzz.
She pulled it out of her pocket and pulled up the waiting text.
“Good luck Sunday. After your show we need to talk.”
Nyako responded back before putting the phone down on the coffee table.
“If I have the time. you know how that is Syn, ” faded from the sent screen.