Post by Dazi Molaroni on Apr 3, 2015 17:34:30 GMT -5
I had decided to pay a visit to the memorial site I had made for my father in Scottsdale. Four months already. I couldn't believe it. I was kept away from the funeral, but personally had this made so I could visit him whenever. I went ahead and bought some flowers, as a way of saying i missed him. I got out of the car, grabbing the flowers and taking a sigh as I made my way over to the spot. A stone with his name, benches all around and waterfalls coming down each side.
"Hey there daddy."
I sat the flowers in front of the stone, sitting across from him on the bench. I took a breath, hands folded in my lap. For a moment, my world was silent, I needed it to be. I wanted to find the right words to say.
"I do forgive you dad. I forgive you for all of the stuff that happened growing up. I learned over the course of the last few months you loved me the only way you knew how. I'm now twenty-seven...soon to be twenty-eight, need to get my head on straight and forgive you."
I smiled softly, that felt very good to get off my chest. For the first time in life, I felt very at peace with myself.
"So, a lot is going on with me. I met Austen while in town. He is such a sweetheart and for the first time...he is an actual man. Not the little kids I used to see. Austen is genuine and loves being with me. After a few jobs, I also found a place to call home wrestling wise. LAW."
I felt like telling him that would be a good way of going about things. He may be dead, but I will always be daddy's little girl.
"LAW is going to give me that chance I never got. New, fresh slate for me. This is going to be the last chance. If I flop out of this now, I have decided to go back to modeling. I am more thick headed than that and you know it. I have a good feeling about this though. Like you did when you opened the refinery in LA. I think that is where my heart comes from, why I never give up. It's because of you daddy."
I wiped a tear from my face, sitting in silence. I knew that things were hard for me at first...and the way i had lashed out was wrong. Now i sit here, taking a breath and gaining closure, looked to the Arizona skyline. It was as if my dad was smiling down, the colors were all my favorite. All were mixed into one jumbled beautiful masterpiece. I looked back at my watch, realizing the time and got up.
"I'm sorry daddy, but I have to go. Austen has a funeral and I want to be there. If you see a guy named Davey you tell him I said hey and take it easy. I miss you and I will see you soon."
I smiled softly. Heading back ot the car, the sun was setting and I was really happy. Happy that life was finally on track for me.
Let the new phase of Dazi begin.
"Hey there daddy."
I sat the flowers in front of the stone, sitting across from him on the bench. I took a breath, hands folded in my lap. For a moment, my world was silent, I needed it to be. I wanted to find the right words to say.
"I do forgive you dad. I forgive you for all of the stuff that happened growing up. I learned over the course of the last few months you loved me the only way you knew how. I'm now twenty-seven...soon to be twenty-eight, need to get my head on straight and forgive you."
I smiled softly, that felt very good to get off my chest. For the first time in life, I felt very at peace with myself.
"So, a lot is going on with me. I met Austen while in town. He is such a sweetheart and for the first time...he is an actual man. Not the little kids I used to see. Austen is genuine and loves being with me. After a few jobs, I also found a place to call home wrestling wise. LAW."
I felt like telling him that would be a good way of going about things. He may be dead, but I will always be daddy's little girl.
"LAW is going to give me that chance I never got. New, fresh slate for me. This is going to be the last chance. If I flop out of this now, I have decided to go back to modeling. I am more thick headed than that and you know it. I have a good feeling about this though. Like you did when you opened the refinery in LA. I think that is where my heart comes from, why I never give up. It's because of you daddy."
I wiped a tear from my face, sitting in silence. I knew that things were hard for me at first...and the way i had lashed out was wrong. Now i sit here, taking a breath and gaining closure, looked to the Arizona skyline. It was as if my dad was smiling down, the colors were all my favorite. All were mixed into one jumbled beautiful masterpiece. I looked back at my watch, realizing the time and got up.
"I'm sorry daddy, but I have to go. Austen has a funeral and I want to be there. If you see a guy named Davey you tell him I said hey and take it easy. I miss you and I will see you soon."
I smiled softly. Heading back ot the car, the sun was setting and I was really happy. Happy that life was finally on track for me.
Let the new phase of Dazi begin.