Post by Nyako on May 16, 2015 21:46:59 GMT -5
Personal Blog 05/16/15 – 8:03pm
I’m not going to lie, a little over a month ago I was ready to just give up. I got tired of all the attacks from behind, and the comments from behind my back questioning if I was a real champion or not. I got tired of trying to gain the respect of people who I probably should even have worried about. I got tired of being there for those who would turn around and just put me on blast for standing up for myself and my family.
Maybe I started to believe some of the things that were said. Maybe deep down I did start to believe I wasn’t a worthy Champion. Maybe I lucked into the belt and have lucked into keeping it. I mean I pride myself of being the consummate professional showing up for every event even if I’m not scheduled. Yet look what had happened the LAW before Validation; I skipped out against my match against Nikita Romanova. That’s how close I was to just walk away from it all.
That was then, this is now though. Two weeks later I’m back ready to put people in LAW on notice I’m not going out like some punk despite what popular opinion may think I am. I know there are still plenty of doubters that I should be the Marque champ and think I don’t deserve to hold this title, but you know what I’ve put down 3 people who thought they could just take it away from me and I plan on continuing to put down anyone else who stands in my way.
I’m not going to guess what made me change my mind because honestly I’m not sure. Maybe it’s the fact I didn’t want to prove people right, or maybe it was the fact that I wanted to put my foot up Steele’s ass denying her once again from becoming the first ever LAW Triple Crown champ. Whatever the reason is I plan on proving why I am the longest reigning Marquee Champ.
Yeah I said it and it’s the same thing I’ve been saying since I beat Mine to retain the title. I am the first Marquee champ to hold the belt this long. I’m not usually one to brag about things but you got to admit. That is some kind of feet. I know some would say well LAW has only been around for a year so is it really that big? Or others may say Violet would probably still be champ if she was still around and didn’t give it up. But you know what none of that matters. I’ve still done what no one else has done before me. I’ve held on to it for going on for almost half a year. And plan on extending it further than that.
I haven’t always looked the sharpest in the ring in my matches and hell a lot of them came down to things breaking my way in the end. Granted as of late luck hasn’t been to kind to me but still I rise when I need to and at Validation it will be no different.
I said it on the Hot Seat a little over a week ago. I’ve beaten two women Steele can’t get by without help from her buddies. What chance in hell does she think she has against me? I’m not trying to diminish anything she has done for herself up until this point by becoming the first LAW World Champion and also later becoming the LAW Tag champion, but looking back at those things, are they really that big of accomplishments since when it came time to put up or shut up when she had to fight to retain either title, she instead shrank at the chance to remain champ instead of rising to the top?
That’s the difference between me and Steele. She thinks she deserves all these things yet when she has to put up or shut up she seems to punk out. Maybe that’s why she’s a punk princess. I on the other hand give everything I got and then some to make sure I end up on top.
I would say I respect her but she has shown me nothing to respect. She whines when she loses and demands things she has no right demanding. Hell I’m honestly surprised she managed to win the 4 way to even challenge for the Marquee title. If I was a betting man, I would have put odds on Drew being the one who would have come out on top, and that’s saying something about another person who I’ve grown to despise over the past few months. But I think Steele used up what little luck she had in winning that match cause come Validation she’s going right back down to the bottom of the barrel once again.
The time for me being nice is over. I can say since I decided not to hang it up at least for now, I have been more focused on my mission here in LAW. I’m through giving respect to those who don’t even respect me. I’m just going to take it from whoever is stacked up in front of me and if people don’t like it I welcome them to try to do something about it. But be warned, you thought I was something to deal with before. You haven’t seen anything yet. This is the new era of Nyako and have mercy on those who don’t get out of the way.
May 16, 2015
Syn’s Office, CTN Headquarters
Manhattan, New York
Syn’s Office, CTN Headquarters
Manhattan, New York
“So I saw the Hot Seat last week.” Syn said to me.
I sat across from her in her office at CTN Headquarters for what seemed to be the billionth time. She had been checking up on me after what happened on the Hot Seat with Trisha VanReardon and my sister, Kymiku, or “Oni” as she’s better known for.
At first I felt we handled ourselves during the barrage from that viper, VanReardon, pretty well. Then out of the blue she blindsided us, well me more so about the fact that my younger brother was still alive despite the fact Kymiku had been telling me for the longest he had been dead.
Oni stormed off the set and I soon followed trying to get the full story from her after trying to give her the chance to break the news to me that Trisha was salivating at the mouth to deliver. I had confronted her outside of the building, looking for answers, wanting to believe she had a valid reason for not telling me the truth from the start. If this had been the Kymiku of old, I would have said it was just to torture me and torment me, making me think I might have been a cause for his demise. Ever since I reconnected with her a little less than a year ago though, I know she has tried hard to turn over a new chapter in her life and make amends for things she had done in the past. That’s why it caught me off guard when she hadn’t told me the truth.
What she told me I wanted to believe with all my heart since I could not sense in malice in her words, something she had a hard time hiding in the past. Yet still, why couldn’t she just tell me from the start that is what happened to Kenji. Did she think I would try to play savior and try to take him away from the Yakuza? O was she afraid I would blame her for what happened to him? Or maybe just maybe she didn’t want me to believe my little brother could turn into the monster she said he now was. Whatever the case was she had left me with more questions that would go unanswered for the time being and unsatisfied with the answers that were given.
I glanced up at Syn and with my lids slightly lowered. “Yeah, once again, the big breasted, yellow bellied, scum sucker got under my skin once again. She has a knack for doing that.”
I said with a heavy sigh. Syn gave a slight smirk at the comment but only for a brief second before her face went back to one of worry.
I rolled my eyes. “You don’t have to worry about anything Syn. I’m totally focused on beating the ever loving crap out of Kate next week. I’ll be damned if I let VanReardon distract me from that.”
“But this is a pretty big bombshell. I mean everything else that has happened to you over the past year has been big but this. Aren’t you just a little preoccupied by it? It would be understandable if you were. I could make a call to Lucas and see if he could postpone…” She started but I quickly cut her off.
“Like hell you will!” I bark at her as I could feel my anger starting to rise. I know she means well and I shouldn’t take it out on her but the sad fact of the matter is she is the only one around right now to unleash on.
I try to calm myself and I find myself gripping the arms of the chair tightly as I leaned forward in it snarling at my manager. I ease my grip and try to relax and regain my composure. “Like I said, I’m fine. I’ve been her way to long to know what losing focus on what is coming up ahead of me will cost me in the end. My number one priority is facing Steele and making that redheaded stepchild regret ever even sniffing in the direction of my title. I man you’d think the beating Comacho gave her time and time again would make her realize to set her sights on something different but nope, she seems to have a death wish or something.”
I try to steer the conversation away from what was apparent what Syn wanted to talk about but I could see she wasn’t going to let the subject go that easily.
“Sometimes persistence gets you what you want. Maybe that’s what she’s hoping for.” She remarked.
I know the comment she says on the surface looks like it’s about Steele but I can tell she’s probably trying to push me into looking into things about my brother or at least come to her for help on it. I really didn’t want to involve her in things; hell I wasn’t even sure I wanted to pursue things myself. Maybe partly because I was scared of what I would find, or maybe I just felt it was better to let sleeping dogs lie. Whatever the case I don’t think Syn would just drop the subject and probably pursue it on her own without my ok. I already know she’s had Boris do some of her dirty work for her, and was sure she was ready for him to look into this also.
“Sometimes persistence gets you in more trouble than you would have been in if you just left well enough alone to.” I say in reply. “But hey it’s her funeral so who am I to deny her last wish.” I know it wasn’t a resounding endorsement to go ahead with whatever she had planned but it was the best she was going to get from me.
Syn nodded her head slightly showing she understood. “Very well then...” She said as if finishing the matter. I knew that wasn’t it though, no way she’d let me out of her that easily. “I saw you went to the doctor last week. Is everything ok?”
“Damn woman can’t I do anything without you knowing about it?!” I said.
I was surprised by her comment, not realizing she had been tailing me. I know she had been worried about me and I know before the Street match against Drew and Steele, I had confided in her about possibly walking away from LAW. She could tell I was growing tired of the grind and what not. I would put it past her being the one to put a call into Lucas to have my match against Romanova taken off the last LAW show and saving me the embarrassing loss due to no showing. I appreciated everything she had and was doing or me despite times getting on my nerves but still there was line and she all but seemed to cross it now.
“I am just concerned about your wellbeing. After all you are still my client. If there is something wrong I need to be aware of these things plus seeing as it wasn’t the usually CTN doctor you saw…” She trailed off for a second, trying to get a read on me but I just sat there stoned face, not giving away anything. “It was cause for alarm. Are you fully healed up from the Street fight?”
“Yes mom, I’m fine. There is no cause for concern.” I told her.
The problem was that there was a slight cause of concern though seeing as I had been feeling sick off and on for the past month and had been late. I had my suspicions on what it was but I wanted to make sure, especially with everything else going on. Maybe that was part of the reason I was trying to bury my head in the sand about my brother, I had my own things to be of concern about beforehand, why would I need to add to that pile at the moment.
“I’m good, I swear to you. If something was up, I’d tell you…”
I could see it in her face she knew I was lying but she already got me to go along with one thing today she thought better of it to push the subject for now at least.
She sat back in her chair pondering, maybe thinking of what else she was going to grill me about. The doctor visit was surprising enough; I had no idea what else she could have up her sleeve. I reviewed my actions over the past few weeks to think if anything else popped up but my mind was drawing a blank.
“Is there anything else your highness or cane I hit the gym and continue training for Steele?” I said with a slight smirk on my face. “Not saying I don’t enjoy our conversations immensely but you know things to do people to beat, doubters to quiet.”
“Have you heard from Maleek lately?”
Again, another gut punch that seemed to come out of nowhere. I swear this woman was as bad at VanReardon with the surprise question and remarks. Only difference being she was working for me or at least I think she was, while VanReardon did it to make a name for herself at the suffering of everyone else.
I squirmed in the seat for a second. “No…” I said, not sure what to share with her that she already probably knew. “He’s called me a few times but I just haven’t gotten back to him. Honestly between dealing with him and being there for Kymiku, I rather err on the side of blood…” I trail off again. “..despite what might have or will happen.”
Granted what I said was partly true, but the other part was the fact he was one reason I was spotted at the doctor’s. I didn’t want to deal with telling him my concerns at least until I was sure, but also, I wasn’t sure I wanted him to know about it at all.
I had heard the rumors about how close he and VanReardon had been as of late, and although he did try to reassure me months ago during the whole Uzai/Kymiku/Song fiasco that he was working on something and wasn’t on her side. All the stories I heard said otherwise.
Why would he treat me any different than any of the other women he messed around with? I wasn’t special despite him making me feel so. But that was art of his charm I think, he had a way of making you just bend for him whether it was your intention to do so or not. I was just the latest in his game, and might have been a recipient of a prize from him at that. I just feel so lucky.
Syn could see I felt uncomfortable about the subject again seemed to decide to drop it for the time being. All these things she was leaving alone I knew would come back and bite me in the ass later. Still I rather face them then than now to say the least.
She decided to toss me a softball question for once as it seemed our meeting was winding down. “I’m thinking we head out to Seattle midweek. Get the lay of the land and settle in so you have ample of time to do the media circuit before you face Steele next weekend. Is that alright with you?”
I sighed in relief, happy to be talking about something so much lighter. Even though I wasn’t one to enjoy the media frenzy I welcomed talking about that more than my personal life any day of the week, especially right now.
“Yeah that’s sounds good to me. You got a gym scouted out there for me?”
“Yes it’s close to the hotel we’ll be staying in. I’m still making arrangement with some of the local talent to have you spar against in preparation. But other than that everything else is set my dear.” She says.
She looks at me with her dark eyes, giving me one more opportunity to get anything I want off my chest. “I think we are done, unless there is anything else you want to discuss my dear.”
I know she’s giving me a chance at opening the channel of communication but I stand fast on everything for the time being. The flood gates would come crashing down but it wouldn’t be today.
“No, I’m good.” I say a little too quickly but she just lets it pass.
With that I take my leave of Syn and let out a big sigh of relief as I walk out the door of her office. If there was any time I needed to concentrate more on a match than my personal life this was the time, cause with how things were stacking up. I wasn’t sure how much longer I would be doing things.