Post by Crystal Hilton on Aug 19, 2015 20:51:30 GMT -5
Boston, Massachusetts
The trip to the other end of the country felt like an eternity but Crystal knew that Queen of the Ring was steadily approaching and by the time the Pay Per View came upon them on Sunday it would be quick. Crystal had spent countless days training with Kate Steele help mentoring the young wrestler that she really didn’t get to focus on herself which was a major change considering the way that Crystal first came into the company demanding that she be the highest paid, have her name in the Grand Marquee among everything else but despite all of her demands. Despite everything she has gone through she hadn’t been living up to her full potential and it was starting to show in her matches and in everything that she had done. Where did “that” Crystal Hilton go. Where did the woman that made everyone bow before her disappear too?
That was a question that was hard to answer and even Crystal herself didn’t know that answer. She offered a long sigh as she sat down at the edge of her bed. She pulled out her iPhone and turned the camera on reverse so that she could get a glimpse at herself. Her reflection stared back at her and Crystal just gazed into the lens of the camera as she started to speak out loud.
Crystal: What happened Crystal?! You were the best at one point… The cream of the fucking crop and you just fell off… I could say if I slipped in one company but in all the companies that I currently wrestle in. It just seems like I can’t get past the midcard and four years ago before that. I was the best in the damn world. What caused that much of a drop?! Where did that Crystal Hilton go that actually won matches?
Crystal keeps gazing at her own reflection and it isn’t long before there is a knock at her hotel door. Crystal gets up and walks over to the door to answer it and standing on the opposite door is Crystal’s former best friend Nicky Silver. Crystal looks over at Nicky as the heavy set woman stares back at her. The two meet eyes as Nicky offers a smile back at Crystal.
Nicky: So are you going to welcome me inside or am I supposed to stand out here all day?
Crystal: Of course you can come in, I am still trying to figure out why you want to keep talking to me though. I already forgave you and if you didn’t notice Queen of the Ring is in a few short days. I have to mentally be ready for it, and to be honest I don’t know if I am really where I need to be at.
Nicky: Oh is that a fact?! Crystal… Let me in I think you and I seriously need to have a little chat.
Crystal: Fine.
Crystal moves out of the way as Nicky makes her way inside the hotel room. She closes the door behind her as Nicky shakes her head looking deeply into the eyes of Crystal.
Nicky: Crystal what happened to you girl?!
Crystal: What do you mean what happened?!
Nicky: I mean exactly that. What happened to you. At one point you were everything in this wrestling business and then it seems like you got soft all of a sudden.
Crystal: What do you mean got soft?! I been the same since I got here.
Nicky: Really? Losing to Summer St. Claire? Please… To be honest I think I need to confess something to you.
Crystal: And what’s that?
Nicky takes a long deep breath as she continues to share her heart with Crystal.
Nicky: Well to be honest the reason why I turned on you in the first place had nothing to do with our friendship, but it’s the fact that you were starting to get too soft. You were welcoming way too many friends into your heart and you allowed that to deter you away from what you needed to do in order to be successful in this business. Oni for starters you were the one telling me to just forgive her. That perhaps I should move on but do you remember the way she paralyzed me with her moved then went about selling her blood stain attire on ebay like it was some sick joke?! Do you remember how she tried to stab you at a meet and greet event?! Yet you wanted to be that woman’s friend and move on beyond that.
Crystal doesn’t say anything as she takes it all in.
Nicky: You lost to Sidney Grey in an I Quit match and have nothing to say about the issue. You didn’t complain to me about throwing the towel in and you should have said something. Show some emotion, show some emotion. Yet to you it was like whatever and you moved on. Moved on to what exactly?! We would go on to win the Tag Titles and that’s cool but you still showed that you weren’t the woman I remembered. You were far from that and I know that it wasn’t easy for you to have your place as a singles star, and being in the shadow of me, Serena Royale, and Zelda Knite could have caused you to become more humble about yourself. But when are you going to wake up and start making a name for yourself?! When are you going to let the name of Crystal Hilton shine above everything else?!
Crystal just shakes her head as Nicky continues to vent.
Crystal: It’s whatever to me.
Nicky: The A Listers… We were a good group there’s no doubt about that but it only came about after the Violent Femmes couldn’t exist anymore, Eva wasn’t with us no more. We added you and Cassandra and it became the A Listers. You yourself had EMF and it had it’s run in that other company you was in but even here Zelda was ready to move on with it. Taking Skye Sparks with her and then you immediately sign just to hold onto that legacy. When are you going to move on from all of these things that held you back and emerge on your own. I thought coming down to your match against Oni would remind you of that. What sparked you on your singles run on the first place but it seems like you have forgotten what brought you to the dance in the first place.
Crystal: So I guess you have a problem with me being friends with Marianne and Alex Yin…
Nicky: That’s your call but don’t let them hold you back from what you want to accomplish. You going to let Jennifer clown on you again how she’s better than you? Then do something about it because to be honest Crystal this whole Queen of the Ring tournament. This is your tournament to win and it would be a tragedy if anyone else emerges ahead of you to get it.
Crystal: Seriously?! There’s some good competition here.
Nicky: Yeah but none of them knows what it feels like to be denied as much as you have. Delilah is way too knew to the company. Same can be said for Lucy. Mackenzie had a shot at the big dance and she failed. Skye Sparks has been inconsistent and even went on a hiatus at one point. Alex Yin isn’t quite there yet. Marianne isn’t ready for prime time, and that leaves you and Jenny. Are you going to let a woman you trained ascend higher than you once again or are you actually going to take your place at the top. You finally going to show what Crystal Hilton is all about. You have been denied the Marquee Title on numerous occasions. You never been in a position to compete for the big one. You have been on the roster since the very first Pay Per View. This is your moment Crystal.
Crystal just sits there slowly nodding her head in agreement.
Nicky: So I don’t care if you have to glance in the mirror for an eternity to find yourself. You need to do whatever it takes to make sure you win. In the same way you won a tournament to become 3WL Champion after the company came back from hiatus. In the same way you won a tournament in that other company to get right into the fray. This is your only guaranteed way to make the change from the bottom to main eventer. This is not something you want to win but something I feel you need.
Crystal: Damn you think I fell as far as the bottom?!
Nicky: I only call it like I see it… Now get your mind ready or else this might be just another opportunity you lost to Jenny Williams because that woman knows how to come up big in big match situations.
Crystal snarled as she hated hearing that. As much as she respected Jenny for what she has done in the wrestling business. It always pained her how she made strides in the wrestling business. It was time Crystal made some history of her own. She walked towards the bathroom to glance at the mirror. She needed to find herself. After all this was her tournament to win and after what Nicky told her. She started to really believe in that. Nicky took her leave, leaving Crystal to find herself and it’s on this image we fade out on.
As I sit here and think about it. Everyone I have talked to has said the same exact thing when it comes to me. What happened to Crystal Hilton? What happened to the woman who used to be on top of the world. Where did the Crystal Hilton that was feared among everyone go to, and for the longest time I didn’t have any answer to those questions. I just ignored them to be honest, and focused on the thought that maybe next time things would work out. I was holding onto the mere thought that I could perhaps find myself down the road and pick up the missing pieces to my career.
But to be honest there is no tomorrow, there is no tomorrow, there is no TOMORROW…
Damn now I am out here quoting Carl Weathers but to be honest that’s what I am going through right now, and there isn’t a tomorrow especially considering my entire career in this company has been holding out on the glimpse that there will be better luck next time but damn it how can I hold onto that when everything I ever wanted is glancing at me in the face. I can showcase in the course of one single night that I have what it takes to make it to the main event. I can showcase that I still have something in the tank and I can outlast everyone else to chase the one thing that people want me to conquer and that thing is the Queen of the Ring. It’s more than just the crown and coronation progress.
As much as that would be a major ego boost to me, and everyone knows how I feel about egos I need to go beyond that fact and get right into the core of getting back to the very basics. Remembering the very thing that got me to the big dance in the first place, and that being my wrestling ability. Sure the lights, the movies, all of that came later but that was only after I was a successful wrestler. That’s only I made all the strides to get to the very top of the wrestling world.
The way I feel right now I feel like Rocky from Rocky Three. I made the climb. I was at the very top of the entire wrestling world, but fame and fortune went to my head. It was no longer about performing in the ring but it was about the extracurricular activities that followed and it should never be that way. Somewhere along the way I lost sense of myself. I relied on getting by on name and ego alone and my wrestling ability suffered because of it.
Violet? That was a lost…
Summer St Claire? That was a lost...
Sidney Grey? That was a lost…
Teaming up with Nicky? She walked out on me…
Mackenzie Roberts? That was a lost…
I showed signs of life against Mackenzie in the second encounter and I even managed to pick up a win over Nyako, but if you look at my other big matches besides that fact.
Oni Kymiku? Lost...
Kate Steele? Lost…
I haven’t been able to come through in the clutch and this Queen of the Ring can change opinions of me. Instead of having someone on the likes of Natasha Rose who thinks it’s some mere injustice to lose to the likes of me. People will see that my name still holds the same merit and respect that it once did.
I am tired of sitting on the sidelines wishing to be the bride while stuck at being the bridesmaid. I am sick of sitting in the dugout while someone else has to pitch hit for me to win the game. On Sunday I will do what everyone wants me to do and I will step up like I know I can.
There’s tough competition no doubt, Lucy, Delilah, Mackenzie and Skye Sparks represent that much. I even have my own stable mates in this thing in the form of Jennifer, Marianne, and Alex Yin but in this tourney I am not looking at the tough competition or even my teammates I am looking at what I can do, and the only one holding me back is myself.
So you could stomp on me as much as you want but I will find a way to rise back up. No matter how much I get trampled, no matter how much you try to kick me around, as long as I don’t show my roots nothing will ever stop this rose from blossoming, for I am the flower that refuses to wither away.
You can call this getting that eye of the tiger, call it having a heart on fire. Call it whatever you want but when the dust settles and all the smokes clears you will see that I have what it takes to take my place at the top of this company and position myself for the next level.
Simba said it best, Oh I can’t wait to be King but in this case I can’t wait to be Queen…
Fujiko, Oni it honestly doesn’t matter you two better watch out because at Night of Glory I am coming for one of you. That’s not a threat that’s a promise.
See you there...
The trip to the other end of the country felt like an eternity but Crystal knew that Queen of the Ring was steadily approaching and by the time the Pay Per View came upon them on Sunday it would be quick. Crystal had spent countless days training with Kate Steele help mentoring the young wrestler that she really didn’t get to focus on herself which was a major change considering the way that Crystal first came into the company demanding that she be the highest paid, have her name in the Grand Marquee among everything else but despite all of her demands. Despite everything she has gone through she hadn’t been living up to her full potential and it was starting to show in her matches and in everything that she had done. Where did “that” Crystal Hilton go. Where did the woman that made everyone bow before her disappear too?
That was a question that was hard to answer and even Crystal herself didn’t know that answer. She offered a long sigh as she sat down at the edge of her bed. She pulled out her iPhone and turned the camera on reverse so that she could get a glimpse at herself. Her reflection stared back at her and Crystal just gazed into the lens of the camera as she started to speak out loud.
Crystal: What happened Crystal?! You were the best at one point… The cream of the fucking crop and you just fell off… I could say if I slipped in one company but in all the companies that I currently wrestle in. It just seems like I can’t get past the midcard and four years ago before that. I was the best in the damn world. What caused that much of a drop?! Where did that Crystal Hilton go that actually won matches?
Crystal keeps gazing at her own reflection and it isn’t long before there is a knock at her hotel door. Crystal gets up and walks over to the door to answer it and standing on the opposite door is Crystal’s former best friend Nicky Silver. Crystal looks over at Nicky as the heavy set woman stares back at her. The two meet eyes as Nicky offers a smile back at Crystal.
Nicky: So are you going to welcome me inside or am I supposed to stand out here all day?
Crystal: Of course you can come in, I am still trying to figure out why you want to keep talking to me though. I already forgave you and if you didn’t notice Queen of the Ring is in a few short days. I have to mentally be ready for it, and to be honest I don’t know if I am really where I need to be at.
Nicky: Oh is that a fact?! Crystal… Let me in I think you and I seriously need to have a little chat.
Crystal: Fine.
Crystal moves out of the way as Nicky makes her way inside the hotel room. She closes the door behind her as Nicky shakes her head looking deeply into the eyes of Crystal.
Nicky: Crystal what happened to you girl?!
Crystal: What do you mean what happened?!
Nicky: I mean exactly that. What happened to you. At one point you were everything in this wrestling business and then it seems like you got soft all of a sudden.
Crystal: What do you mean got soft?! I been the same since I got here.
Nicky: Really? Losing to Summer St. Claire? Please… To be honest I think I need to confess something to you.
Crystal: And what’s that?
Nicky takes a long deep breath as she continues to share her heart with Crystal.
Nicky: Well to be honest the reason why I turned on you in the first place had nothing to do with our friendship, but it’s the fact that you were starting to get too soft. You were welcoming way too many friends into your heart and you allowed that to deter you away from what you needed to do in order to be successful in this business. Oni for starters you were the one telling me to just forgive her. That perhaps I should move on but do you remember the way she paralyzed me with her moved then went about selling her blood stain attire on ebay like it was some sick joke?! Do you remember how she tried to stab you at a meet and greet event?! Yet you wanted to be that woman’s friend and move on beyond that.
Crystal doesn’t say anything as she takes it all in.
Nicky: You lost to Sidney Grey in an I Quit match and have nothing to say about the issue. You didn’t complain to me about throwing the towel in and you should have said something. Show some emotion, show some emotion. Yet to you it was like whatever and you moved on. Moved on to what exactly?! We would go on to win the Tag Titles and that’s cool but you still showed that you weren’t the woman I remembered. You were far from that and I know that it wasn’t easy for you to have your place as a singles star, and being in the shadow of me, Serena Royale, and Zelda Knite could have caused you to become more humble about yourself. But when are you going to wake up and start making a name for yourself?! When are you going to let the name of Crystal Hilton shine above everything else?!
Crystal just shakes her head as Nicky continues to vent.
Crystal: It’s whatever to me.
Nicky: The A Listers… We were a good group there’s no doubt about that but it only came about after the Violent Femmes couldn’t exist anymore, Eva wasn’t with us no more. We added you and Cassandra and it became the A Listers. You yourself had EMF and it had it’s run in that other company you was in but even here Zelda was ready to move on with it. Taking Skye Sparks with her and then you immediately sign just to hold onto that legacy. When are you going to move on from all of these things that held you back and emerge on your own. I thought coming down to your match against Oni would remind you of that. What sparked you on your singles run on the first place but it seems like you have forgotten what brought you to the dance in the first place.
Crystal: So I guess you have a problem with me being friends with Marianne and Alex Yin…
Nicky: That’s your call but don’t let them hold you back from what you want to accomplish. You going to let Jennifer clown on you again how she’s better than you? Then do something about it because to be honest Crystal this whole Queen of the Ring tournament. This is your tournament to win and it would be a tragedy if anyone else emerges ahead of you to get it.
Crystal: Seriously?! There’s some good competition here.
Nicky: Yeah but none of them knows what it feels like to be denied as much as you have. Delilah is way too knew to the company. Same can be said for Lucy. Mackenzie had a shot at the big dance and she failed. Skye Sparks has been inconsistent and even went on a hiatus at one point. Alex Yin isn’t quite there yet. Marianne isn’t ready for prime time, and that leaves you and Jenny. Are you going to let a woman you trained ascend higher than you once again or are you actually going to take your place at the top. You finally going to show what Crystal Hilton is all about. You have been denied the Marquee Title on numerous occasions. You never been in a position to compete for the big one. You have been on the roster since the very first Pay Per View. This is your moment Crystal.
Crystal just sits there slowly nodding her head in agreement.
Nicky: So I don’t care if you have to glance in the mirror for an eternity to find yourself. You need to do whatever it takes to make sure you win. In the same way you won a tournament to become 3WL Champion after the company came back from hiatus. In the same way you won a tournament in that other company to get right into the fray. This is your only guaranteed way to make the change from the bottom to main eventer. This is not something you want to win but something I feel you need.
Crystal: Damn you think I fell as far as the bottom?!
Nicky: I only call it like I see it… Now get your mind ready or else this might be just another opportunity you lost to Jenny Williams because that woman knows how to come up big in big match situations.
Crystal snarled as she hated hearing that. As much as she respected Jenny for what she has done in the wrestling business. It always pained her how she made strides in the wrestling business. It was time Crystal made some history of her own. She walked towards the bathroom to glance at the mirror. She needed to find herself. After all this was her tournament to win and after what Nicky told her. She started to really believe in that. Nicky took her leave, leaving Crystal to find herself and it’s on this image we fade out on.
As I sit here and think about it. Everyone I have talked to has said the same exact thing when it comes to me. What happened to Crystal Hilton? What happened to the woman who used to be on top of the world. Where did the Crystal Hilton that was feared among everyone go to, and for the longest time I didn’t have any answer to those questions. I just ignored them to be honest, and focused on the thought that maybe next time things would work out. I was holding onto the mere thought that I could perhaps find myself down the road and pick up the missing pieces to my career.
But to be honest there is no tomorrow, there is no tomorrow, there is no TOMORROW…
Damn now I am out here quoting Carl Weathers but to be honest that’s what I am going through right now, and there isn’t a tomorrow especially considering my entire career in this company has been holding out on the glimpse that there will be better luck next time but damn it how can I hold onto that when everything I ever wanted is glancing at me in the face. I can showcase in the course of one single night that I have what it takes to make it to the main event. I can showcase that I still have something in the tank and I can outlast everyone else to chase the one thing that people want me to conquer and that thing is the Queen of the Ring. It’s more than just the crown and coronation progress.
As much as that would be a major ego boost to me, and everyone knows how I feel about egos I need to go beyond that fact and get right into the core of getting back to the very basics. Remembering the very thing that got me to the big dance in the first place, and that being my wrestling ability. Sure the lights, the movies, all of that came later but that was only after I was a successful wrestler. That’s only I made all the strides to get to the very top of the wrestling world.
The way I feel right now I feel like Rocky from Rocky Three. I made the climb. I was at the very top of the entire wrestling world, but fame and fortune went to my head. It was no longer about performing in the ring but it was about the extracurricular activities that followed and it should never be that way. Somewhere along the way I lost sense of myself. I relied on getting by on name and ego alone and my wrestling ability suffered because of it.
Violet? That was a lost…
Summer St Claire? That was a lost...
Sidney Grey? That was a lost…
Teaming up with Nicky? She walked out on me…
Mackenzie Roberts? That was a lost…
I showed signs of life against Mackenzie in the second encounter and I even managed to pick up a win over Nyako, but if you look at my other big matches besides that fact.
Oni Kymiku? Lost...
Kate Steele? Lost…
I haven’t been able to come through in the clutch and this Queen of the Ring can change opinions of me. Instead of having someone on the likes of Natasha Rose who thinks it’s some mere injustice to lose to the likes of me. People will see that my name still holds the same merit and respect that it once did.
I am tired of sitting on the sidelines wishing to be the bride while stuck at being the bridesmaid. I am sick of sitting in the dugout while someone else has to pitch hit for me to win the game. On Sunday I will do what everyone wants me to do and I will step up like I know I can.
There’s tough competition no doubt, Lucy, Delilah, Mackenzie and Skye Sparks represent that much. I even have my own stable mates in this thing in the form of Jennifer, Marianne, and Alex Yin but in this tourney I am not looking at the tough competition or even my teammates I am looking at what I can do, and the only one holding me back is myself.
So you could stomp on me as much as you want but I will find a way to rise back up. No matter how much I get trampled, no matter how much you try to kick me around, as long as I don’t show my roots nothing will ever stop this rose from blossoming, for I am the flower that refuses to wither away.
You can call this getting that eye of the tiger, call it having a heart on fire. Call it whatever you want but when the dust settles and all the smokes clears you will see that I have what it takes to take my place at the top of this company and position myself for the next level.
Simba said it best, Oh I can’t wait to be King but in this case I can’t wait to be Queen…
Fujiko, Oni it honestly doesn’t matter you two better watch out because at Night of Glory I am coming for one of you. That’s not a threat that’s a promise.
See you there...