Post by Kenzi Grey on Aug 24, 2016 20:33:17 GMT -5
OOC: The personal thoughts of Kenzi Grey from her personal diary (this is only her inner musings and is completely off-camera):
Today wasn’t a good day. As soon as I got going the first thing I saw was Tina whining! Look, I know that this isn’t an overnight thing, but Tina needs to grow up and realize that there is a whole big wide world out there that she should be living in! I did my best to sweet talk her into moving on…but that shit just didn’t work! I wasn’t proud of what I did…but it needed to be done!
I pulled out every little bit of nastiness that I could find to throw at her and drive her away. I knew that she wouldn’t feel good about it, but I need her to see the truth and move on! I’m not the one for her, I never have been, and probably never will be! The longer she stays around me…the longer she keeps trying to draw me back in the worse it will be if it ever happened. I needed her away from me for her own good!
I know my friends didn’t approve (especially Mel), but I’ll have to explain it to them later. Getting her to cut herself loose was the best thing I could have done for her. I told her that I didn’t care for her and that I didn’t want to be her friend, but that’s not true. I will always care for her…maybe that is why I got so pissed off when I saw her cozying up to Kate Bass and Alex Yin.
I shouldn’t have got upset, but I could already see what was going to happen…Tina was going to get pulled into all that Starpoint Girl/Casa de Kama nonsense! I had promised myself not to interfere, but I had no choice! I don’t know what Kate’s deal is, but she made it abundantly clear that she wants nothing to do with me. When I saw her hurting, I tried my best to help her, but she’d rather be pissy with me instead. After what she did to me, she should be way more careful about pissing me off!
I don’t know if I feel bad or not about attacking Alex Yin. I think I still care about her, but I get the feeling that she really wants nothing but to keep hurting me. Of course, I could be wrong…it could just be me wanting to hurt her for all the things she has done to me! Leaving me at the altar, dumping me over twitter, not coming to my defense when she could have saved me from an entire world of hurt! No…I don’t feel bad about anything I’ve done because it pales in comparison to what she has done and what she continues to do to me!
If Tina hooks up with either of these two and their circle…I’d be pissed off and what I did today would seem like a whole lot of nothing! All I want is for her to get better with someone…ANYONE that I don’t know!
P.S. I really enjoyed Tina's pictures today…I liked them…I won’t be looking at them again! Trying to stay pure! Good thing I have Parker Van Peters (AKA Spider-Man according to Tina) to keep me from going off the rails!
Additional P.S. I DON'T HAVE A HAIRY VADGE TINA! STOP YOUR LIES!
Today wasn’t a good day. As soon as I got going the first thing I saw was Tina whining! Look, I know that this isn’t an overnight thing, but Tina needs to grow up and realize that there is a whole big wide world out there that she should be living in! I did my best to sweet talk her into moving on…but that shit just didn’t work! I wasn’t proud of what I did…but it needed to be done!
I pulled out every little bit of nastiness that I could find to throw at her and drive her away. I knew that she wouldn’t feel good about it, but I need her to see the truth and move on! I’m not the one for her, I never have been, and probably never will be! The longer she stays around me…the longer she keeps trying to draw me back in the worse it will be if it ever happened. I needed her away from me for her own good!
I know my friends didn’t approve (especially Mel), but I’ll have to explain it to them later. Getting her to cut herself loose was the best thing I could have done for her. I told her that I didn’t care for her and that I didn’t want to be her friend, but that’s not true. I will always care for her…maybe that is why I got so pissed off when I saw her cozying up to Kate Bass and Alex Yin.
I shouldn’t have got upset, but I could already see what was going to happen…Tina was going to get pulled into all that Starpoint Girl/Casa de Kama nonsense! I had promised myself not to interfere, but I had no choice! I don’t know what Kate’s deal is, but she made it abundantly clear that she wants nothing to do with me. When I saw her hurting, I tried my best to help her, but she’d rather be pissy with me instead. After what she did to me, she should be way more careful about pissing me off!
I don’t know if I feel bad or not about attacking Alex Yin. I think I still care about her, but I get the feeling that she really wants nothing but to keep hurting me. Of course, I could be wrong…it could just be me wanting to hurt her for all the things she has done to me! Leaving me at the altar, dumping me over twitter, not coming to my defense when she could have saved me from an entire world of hurt! No…I don’t feel bad about anything I’ve done because it pales in comparison to what she has done and what she continues to do to me!
If Tina hooks up with either of these two and their circle…I’d be pissed off and what I did today would seem like a whole lot of nothing! All I want is for her to get better with someone…ANYONE that I don’t know!
P.S. I really enjoyed Tina's pictures today…I liked them…I won’t be looking at them again! Trying to stay pure! Good thing I have Parker Van Peters (AKA Spider-Man according to Tina) to keep me from going off the rails!
Additional P.S. I DON'T HAVE A HAIRY VADGE TINA! STOP YOUR LIES!