Post by Kenzi Grey on Nov 25, 2016 13:07:59 GMT -5
Sam Tolson, I hope you can hear the tell-tell ‘tick-tock’ of the clock counting down as we get closer to Night of Glory. I don’t want you to think that clock is counting down to anything other than what it is…ME putting YOU out of my misery, once and for all! You see, I have no problem with the fact that you’re mad that I took the Chaos Title away from you…HELL! You should be pissed off at that! No, my problem with you runs a hell of a lot deeper than that. You see Sam, my problem with you…is YOU!
Now, before you run through the halls half naked to hop into bed with Ashley to show her this…take a moment and allow me to elaborate. I don’t care that you are one of the best in LAW…possibly the world. It doesn’t concern me that you have held titles from one coast to the other. I’m not worried that you have it in for me because you think I can’t get the job done in a one on one match. None of those things are my issue with you…I have beef with you for one reason and one reason only…Ashley Marie Chase!
…PERIOD, POINT FUCKING BLANK…
I love AMC…
You don’t like that? Well…that’s too fucking bad, because you can’t do a damn thing about it! However, before you go flipping your lid and thinking I’m talking about taking her from you…understand what I mean when I say that. I love AMC…she’s been my friend, my confidant, and my mentor in LAW. She has been closer to me than a sister! That means that she's family and that I care about her…that means that I would do anything for her! That means that if she’s facing a problem, it’s my duty to step up to the plate and do something I about it!
…you are that fucking problem Sam Tolson…
You run around here screaming at the top of your lungs how mad you are about me having a friendship with your girlfriend, but when it is all said and done…it’s just a bunch of lip service! You don’t give a damn about her…only how it makes you look that she’s not led around by the nose by you!
Granted…I know that things got heated between you and me when I kissed her during my match at Validation in May…but that was just a bit of gamesmanship between the two of us…and honestly, while I know it pissed you off…I don’t regret it. I’m glad it lit a fire under you, because it showed that you cared about her in a way that was important to me. She’s my friend and I only want the best for her…at that time, I thought it was you…but I started to realize in fairly short order that it wasn’t!
You see Sam…just like you’ve been watching me these last few weeks, I’ve been watching you that much closer and for a hell of a lot longer! When AMC was agreeing to guide my career, I was watching what you’d say and what you’d do. Yeah…you weren’t happy and I expected that…I respected that…but there was more. As much as you love to go on social media and run your fucking mouth about all the ass you are gonna kick…you also love to go on there and troll the pretty pictures of women that aren’t AMC and drool over them as well…talking about smacking the asses. What was that the other day? Once? No...you said you wanted to smack her ass twice!
…I saw you fawning all over Essi Oliver on Twitter…damn disrespectful if you ask me…
Trolling one of my best friends, Missy…while you sit at home, BORED! ‘You could turn up at my doorstep’ Winkey Face LOL
…REALLY BITCH? Is that that how you respect my friend? Is that how you respect your relationship with her…what other secrets are you hiding Sam? What other skeletons do you have in your closet...?
Hey…I could go on and on about you and your ‘pussy grabbing’ attitude, but I think you get my point. But, just in case it isn’t all that clear to you…allow me to add, just a little more gas to that already roaring fire!
I was at the event where Ashley defended her HKW Bloodlust Title. I went there to support her! I sat through that horrific match and after she was battered, bloodied, and bruised, I also went to see her at the hospital. I called to check on her everyday and I sent her words of encouragement.
…WHERE IN THE FUCK WERE YOU…'bored' and trolling for more loose tail perhaps…?
The bottom line is this…I don’t know what you do behind closed doors, but I do see what you do in the harsh light of day, and I don’t like it…and I don’t like how you treat my friend! You’re not good enough for her…and you don’t deserve her!
…that being said...ironically, she loves you to pieces…
So what am I to do Sam? How do I reconcile this since I can't show her what a BITCH IN HEAT you are? Well…it’s simple! You need to realize what’s important to you. It’s not the Chaos Title, because that belongs to me now. You’ll never get that. It’s not revenge on me for kissing your girlfriend or taking the aforementioned title belt from off your overly broad man shoulders. It’s me…helping you spend quality time at home with AMC…as she puts you back together like a one hundred and sixty pound jigsaw puzzle…nursing you back to health like the world's biggest baby bird! Maybe…just maybe…you’ll come to realize that you already have everything that you need right in your own nest...right there in front of you!
I know AMC is going to ask me to take it easy on you…she might even ask me to lay down for you, but…I won’t do it…not this time Sam. You see, just like she had to go against her nature when I fought you at Double Shot and not tell you what I had in store…I will go against my nature on Sunday when I decide that I am going to do what is best for her; beating you bloody and sending you out the building feet first to the nearest emergency room!
I’m walking into YOUR Devil’s Playground with the goal of teaching you a lesson that you won’t soon forget! Disrespecting me is one thing, I can take that...no one respects me in LAW, so I'm done asking for it. Now, disrespecting people that I consider family…OH…that is quite another!
…you're gonna dance with the Devil bitch, I promise you that! I’ll see you on Sunday Sammy…
No one has been more proud to represent LAW as a champion than me...NO ONE! My Chaos Title has been to more rival arenas than any other title belt on the planet...hands down. Tonight I bring my title to the Galen Center as I go to watch Song and her friend and tag team partner in the Elders, Alana Allure challenge The Angel Clan for the SCW Bombshell Tag Team Titles. I am so excited and nervous for them that I can hardly be still as I pace backstage, watching with the other girls on the monitors. I spend most of the match wincing and covering my eyes as Song fights. As the match draws to a close, I can hardly stand it...
Lucy Seraphina is begging for a tag back in but Song makes her way back to her feet first and she rushes towards the Champion's corner and she shoves Lucy down to the outside while Alana Allure stalks her way around the ring and spears the falling Lucy into the barricade. The SCW fans let out a 'HOLY SHIT' chant from the way Lucy's spine bounced off the barricade. Uriella Abaddon looks on from inside the ring concerned and this lights a fire inside her as she grabs onto a handful of Song's hair and she looks for the Abaddon's Break...but as she goes to lift Song up, Song leaps out of the way before scooping Uri up by the side and plummeting her to the canvas with the 'Blasted Slam.' Song quickly hooks the leg and goes for the pin.
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2...
3...
Ding! Ding! Ding!
"Here are your winners AND NEW Sin City Wrestling Bombshell Tag Team Champions... THEEEEEEEE EEEEELDEEEERSS!"
Alana rolls into the ring and lifts Song up to celebrate, while Jasmine hands them their new championship belts.
No one is prouder of their win than me as I jump around, screaming like a lunatic. Everyone looks at me, but I don't care...this is what I was hoping for; Song...my Song, is now a champion! As I celebrate with the rest of the Elders, I am the first to see them coming down the hallway with their new titles, I can't help but to go hug them both, along with the rest of the Elders. As Alana recounts the match to the group, I grab Song's hand and pull her aside. “I'm very proud of you babe! But...I wanted to tell you something...” I look around nervously to make sure no one else hears me. “You were always a champion to me...” I throw my arms around her and hug her tightly, not minding at all that she's sweaty from her match. In fact, I think I actually like it.
Song replies, rather glibly, “Thanks I guess.”
I reply, with a confused look. “You guess?”
Song shrugs, “Pretty much yeah.” Song looks over to the side where the rest of the Elders are at. “Hey guys wait up for us.” The Elders just nod as they make their way into the Elders Locker room. We stand there for a moment, as I am struck dumb by her cold demeanor. After a few more moments she takes my hand and leads me into the Elders locker room. Song seems subdued as she gets her bag and prepares to leave the arena. I have no idea what's wrong...and I'm a little hurt over the cold shoulder treatment, but I hope that her moodiness will pass and she'll tell me what's wrong...
I remained quiet for the rest of the night. I wasn't unset so much as I was disappointed in her reaction to my attempt to congratulate her on her accomplishment. I figured that she was unhappy with the result of the match with Jon Dough and Eyesesane losing their SCW Tag Team Titles, but she had no control over that. Once we are dropped off, I hug everyone and head into the house, doing my best to not show my hurt feelings. “Hey, do you want a shoulder rub? I know you're probably sore.”
Song looks at me with a weird look, “Sore? HA, not at all! If you just want to give me a rub you can but sore? HA, that’s funny.” She drops her bag on the floor with her newly won title belt inside. I watch as Song makes her way upstairs to her bedroom to change.
I walk upstairs and shower. I throw on a t-shirt and I hop into bed. I pat the empty spot beside me. “You want to sit down and talk?” Song walks pass, wearing an obviously fake smile, ignoring my invitation. Instead, she goes to her personal bedroom and hits the shower. I roll over and pull out my phone, making myself busy with sending out texts to the rest of The Elders. I'm so proud of all of them for fighting their hearts out, win or lose. I just hope that they all keep their heads up. I pat the bed and Mao, Song's cat, hops up on the bed and I stoke the cat's fur, listening to the 'purr' as I sing a song... ‘Soft Kitty’ seems appropriate.
After a few minutes Song makes her way back to the master bedroom, dressed and looking ready for a night on the town. “Hey, so after the PPV the Elders were going to Planet Hollywood for some drinks. I left my ID at home like a dummy and...well I wanted to change. I really don't want to go but I said I would, so now I have to. Get changed and be ready in like 30 minutes and I will drive us there. Till then I will be on the upper deck patio doing me.”
I get up and walk over, looking at her and nodding. I kiss her on the cheek. “You look nice Babe. Go ahead and be with your partners tonight. I'll wait for you...I'll give you that rub that I promised.” I head back over to the bed and hop back on it. Inside, I really want to go with her...but her strange attitude troubles me. I had expected her to confide in me, but when she doesn't I decide to wait until she feels like it. I smile at her. “Hurry back.”
Song replies, “Like I said I'm leaving in 30 minutes, so if you change your mind, then cool. If not, then whatever.” She walks out, closing the door behind her.
I sigh as I pet Song's cat and turn on the FaceTime to call Melissa Reaves, Katie Anderson, and Missy. I hope that they feel like talking to me since Song doesn't. I have a pleasant conversation with them, but my mind is on Song the entire time and they can tell that I'm not really into it.
30 minutes later, Song makes her way back inside. She looks at me. “You still staying or coming with?”
I shrug, “If you really want me to go, you can pick something out for me. If it's no big deal, I'll wait for you to come back.”
Song doesn’t say a word she just leaves the room. After a few minutes, she returns with a dress from my closet. “Here you go Kenzi…”
I find this even more confusing, as I expected her to just leave...so it's obvious that she wants to spend time with me...she just doesn't want to fucking talk to me. She has no idea how much that irritates me...or maybe she does. I suck it up as I don't say a word, I just get dressed and follow her out, taking her hand as I do...I can't help that I love her, despite being treated like shit...
When we finally arrive, meet up with Alana, Matt Spears, Dr. Weaver, and Eyesnsane. I look around for Orchid, but oddly she is no one where to be seen. In fact, she had also completely missed the SCW event as well, which was odd. Song continues to patronize me with her fake smile as she leads me upstairs to the VIP section. I pause and take a few pictures with fans and staff who recognize me and I can tell that this annoys her...so I do enjoy that. As we arrive, before Song can give them her name, the security looks at me and nods with a smile, opening the section to us. Song shakes her head, annoyed. We walk in and sit with the rest of the Elders who are already there.
Despite the VIP treatment, I really only want to spend time with Song, though her callous attitude bothers me. I thought that she loved me and would never allow me to feel like I was just 'along for the ride' but that is what this feels like. I thought we would have a sweet moment in the arena after her big win as I told her how I felt, but the cold shoulder treatment didn't sit well with me. I assumed that she was disappointed for Jon and Eye losing their match...as I was, but the outcome was beyond her control. I had hoped that she would open up as the night wore on, but everything remained the same. Instead of getting upset, I just went along for the ride and crossed my fingers in the hopes that this wasn't another 'joke' on her behalf because it wasn't funny at all...it was hurtful. Still, I did my best to keep my attention focused on the others. There was no need for me to be 'Debby Downer' as the new addition to the close knit group. “Thanks for having me out with you guys, even though I'm not really an Elder.”
Eyesnsane spoke up, “It ain't even about all that you all good.”
Alana Allure added, “It's about friends and family hanging out relaxing.”
Matt Spears, looks around as if listening to a voice inside his head, then nodded, “Hey Kenzi, Jon says yes you are! Kentourage and Elders are all one in the world of Wrestling.”
Song nods, almost absently, “Jon has a good point there Kenzi, so does Alana.”
Dr. Weaver gestured to them, “Ladies please take a seat we have drinks coming for you two.”
I hold up my hand. “No drinks for me tonight...I kinda wanna keep my head screwed on tight. Juice is fine. Also, thank you guys.” Even though Song agreed with the sentiment, it wasn't like she was jumping up and down to be the first to say anything, I know I was being petty, but everything about tonight since Song blew me off was grating on my nerves. I didn't want alcohol adding to my frustration as I worked hard to keep it under my hat. I smiled at everyone and did my level best to keep up the appearance that I was having a great time, though I largely attempted to keep my focus off of Song.
We took our seats and after a moment, a waiter showed up to take our orders. To my surprise, Song skipped the alcohol as well, choosing to go with her favorite, RC Cola. She looked at me, “What kind of juice would you like?”
I shrug, “I'll have pineapple.” I put my hand on Song's lap, and I give it a pat, then turn my attention back to the group. I hope that its a sign that things are returning to normal.
Song removes my hand from her lap and instead laces her fingers between mines, but she doesn't really bother to hold on tightly as she usually does. She looks at me and smiles for a second before putting her head down. Song looks up at everyone, “So some day huh?”
Eyesnsane nods in agreement, “Yeah you and Alana did great today.”
Alana points at him and Jon, “Same with you and Jon Dough.”
Matt Spears listens to the voice in his head, then adds, “Yeah you all did great.”
The waiter comes by with RC Cola and Pineapple juice. He puts each glass on the table. Song and I thank him as he walks off. I eagerly let go of Song's hand as I take up my drink in both of my hands. I'm not thirsty, I just have no desire to have Song pretend to want to touch me. I stand up, walking around the table. “A toast to the Elders! You guys are the best friends that I could have hoped for...and I love you all.” I look at Song, then nod and clink my glass against those of the others. “Thank you all for being real with me. I can't tell you how much that means.” They all can a drink, Song looks at me, and I can tell she knows that I'm really pissed off.
Alana adds to the toast, “Were all family here, all of us.” Alana looks at Song and gives her a wink on the sneak tip. I notice that Song puts on a half-smile.
Old feelings of jealousy bubble up inside me and I feel powerless to stop them. I know that Alana is a just a friend, but knowing that she had a bond with Song that I don't eats at me. I thought I had gotten over it, but seeing the two of them share a moment that I'm not privy to sets me on edge. I walk over and sit next to Dr. Weaver, patting her on her shoulder, hoping to distract myself. “How have you been Doctor? I'm hoping to get some time with you in a couple of days. I want to pick your brain on something.” It's really just small talk for me, though I really do what to ask her some questions, but I just want to put some distance between myself and Song for the moment. I don't want to escalate things any further. I don't want to be upset with her...but communication is the key and right now she's not doing that and I wish that I had stayed home...if it was still our home.
Dr. Weaver smiles at me, taking a sip of her drink first, then giving me her full attention. “Well, Mr. Grey what is on your mind?”
I move in close as I ask, “How much do you know about cancer treatment?”
Dr. Weaver leans in closer. “Well that would depend on a few things like what kind of cancer what stage there or how bad is it and such.”
I nod at Dr. Weaver. “Okay...looks like I have some research to do. Thanks!” I wave at Song, then sip my juice, turning my attention to everyone else at the table...pretending to enjoy myself.
Dr. Weaver shows a look of concern, the whispers, “...is there something you want to talk to me about Ms. Grey...?”
I pat her leg, “Nope! Well, not yet. I'll call you.”
Dr. Weaver smiles at me, “Well you have my number so you call me anytime you need or want to okay?” Weaver holds her glass up and takes a sip. “I mean that girl.”
I nod at her, happy that I have someone else to talk to about Nicky's condition, should I chose to take her up on it. I keep my eyes on Song. I can't help myself, despite the momentary distraction, I still find myself going right back to her. I drink my juice and keep quiet, trying my best not to get anymore upset. As much fun as this evening could be, I'd like it better if Song would just talk to me. She hasn't had very much to say tonight at all. I down my juice and I excuse myself as the rest of the Elders enjoy themselves. I find it difficult to continue to sit there so close to Song and not have her attention. I walk out to the dance floor and start dancing by myself, though I keep my eyes on Song. I hope that this is enough to get and hold her attention. As I do, a man comes over and starts dancing with me. I try to ignore him, but he continues to try to dance up on me.
I can see Song watching me, and as soon as the stranger joins in, she taps the table, to get the attention of Eyesnsane Matt. As I see the two of them get up, I look at Song and shake my head. I point at Song and wave her over instead. Song gestures and the two men sit back down. I can tell that she doesn't really want to join me, but reluctantly comes over.
As I continue to dance, the man gets increasingly handsy with me. I look at Song, wondering if she'll save me or not. Song walks over and I reach over and grab her, smiling at the man. “Sorry, she's with me.” I point behind him. “You can dance with them if you want.” The man turns at sees Matt and Eye starting to get up and quickly excuses himself. I keep my attention on Song, with my arms wrapped over her shoulders, while I stare into her eyes. “What's this all about Song?” I don't know if she intends to walk back to the table, but I hold on tight, just to let her know if she does, she's going back alone. I kiss her, not caring whose watching. “Talk to me...or send me home.”
Song can’t help but blush no matter how upset she is. “There’s people watching us, were in public you know. 'Miss you’re too good to be my girlfriend in public.' Now you say talk to you or send you home fine, I'll take you home and you can talk to me all you want.”
I nod, this is what I wanted more than anything. I hold her hand tightly, not caring that people are watching us. She gives me a dirty look as we start walking off the dance floor. Song sees Master Lilly and Orchid as they are escorted into the VIP section with the others. Song immediately lets go of my hand and runs towards the two as if I was not there with her at all. I'm just as happy to see the two of them as she is, but I feel disrespected all over again. I walk over and greet Lilly and Orchid with a hug and a few kind words, but I don't linger. I wave goodbye to the rest of the Elders. I point at Orchid, motioning for her to call me later. I go and stand by the exit and wait for Song to finish spending time with the rest of her friends...all of which are obviously much more important and exciting to be around that me...
When we finally left from the Hardrock Café, I had expected Song to tell me what I did wrong, but it was just more of the same for the rest of what I had thought was going to be a really good night. I was happy to have gotten the time to bond with the others, but in the process, it seemed that the person I most wanted to connect with had no desire to want to connect with me. It was obvious that I had done something wrong and I needed to figure out what it was. When we got back to the house, I didn't force the issue, I just held her hand until we reached the bedroom and I got undressed and curled up in the bed. When my phone buzzed, I didn't look at it, I just turned it off and stayed curled up until Mao came by for a rub, which I provided. I had really thought I was doing all the right things for once, but it was obvious that I was still a shit girlfriend, even when I thought I wasn't.
Song didn't bother to join me, opting instead to get into the hot tub...with no invitation for me. I took this as my cue that the night was over and there was no conversation in the offering. I turned over and did my level best to go to sleep...though, I was entirely too upset to do anything other than close my eyes. I'm not sure how many minutes or hours pass before I finally open my eyes again.
I get up after realizing that Song still hasn't come to bed and likely isn't coming. I check the hot tub and find it empty, then I walk to her room and see her asleep, surrounded by pictures. I consider leaving her, but I hate the fact that she's uncovered...and alone. I go into her room and gather up the pictures, feeling bad about glancing at them as I put them away. I don't recognize everyone, but I do recognize her ex-boyfriend, Chin. This sends a stab through my chest, but I'm too deep in love with Song to do anything other than be hurt. I carefully tucked Song in...then I stood there for a moment considering what to do next. I started to leave her, but instead I slipped into the bed, scooting up behind her, wrapping my arms over her as I whispered into her ear; "...I'm sorry..." and kissed her shoulder. I closed my eyes, but I still didn't sleep...I just listened to her for the rest of the night.
Early that morning, Song pops up out of bed, startling me as she starts looking around frantically. When I see this, it's obvious what she's looking for. I reach over and pick up the stack of pictures from the nightstand and hand them to Song, "Is this what you're looking for?"
Song takes the pictures. “Thank you, yes this is what I was looking for.” Song takes her pictures and puts all but three away. Song gives me a strained look. “I'm heading to the basement to workout. When I am done I will make breakfast.” Song gives me a bow, which is odd and she makes her way out of the room.
I sit up and consider going with her to make her talk to me, but if history has proven anything, its that she prefers not to be disturbed when she's training. I respect that...I don't like it, but I respect it. Instead, I lay back down, grabbing my phone as I start flipping through my messages. As I do, something randomly catches my eye; a conversation between Nicky Silver and her weirdo boyfriend, Michael Samsa. As I look at the odd back and forth, it seriously looks like he is preparing to ask her to marry him...
I fired back a message, then I stopped, staring at the messages. I shake my head and roll my eyes. This is no business of mines. I didn't even know why I pretended to care. They could both rot! I had problems of my own. I kicked back, calling Mao up to the bed as I stroked the cat's soft fur...trying to turn my attention to happier thoughts. As I play with Song's cat, I hear the doorbell ring. I jump out of bed and run down the stairs to answer the door, hoping not to disrupt Song's workout. I open the door and I'm surprised to see Lilly and Orchid. I squeal as I hug them both.
Master Lilly greets me, “Hello Kenzi.”
Orchid, gives me a hug, “Hey Kenzi, is Song around we have some bad news to tell her, We figured she is mad at us as her phone goes to voice mail when we try to call her.”
I'm reluctant to say anything as I figure she's only mad at me for some reason she's yet to explain. I don't want her more upset, but if it's something she needs to know, I have no choice. “Come with me." I show them downstairs to the training room. I walk Lilly and Orchid downstairs, calling to Song, as I don't want her to think I'm disturbing her workout. "Hey Babe, you have visitors..." I stand aside and let them in first and I stand off to the side. If it's Elders business, they won't want to be there.
Song answers, “Okay I'm coming!” as she trots from around the corner. As soon as she sees Master Lilly and Orchid, without warning Song starts yelling at the two of them in Cantonese. All I can make out is that at one point she clearly says my name. I lower my head and sigh, feeling ashamed that I have caused all of this.
Master Lilly points at Song, “Song you need to calm down a bit!”
Song seems to grow more angry as she runs to the corner and grabs her bag, pulling out the SCW Tag Team Title belt. She points at it then points at them while still yelling in Cantonese. Again I hear my name and all I can do is wonder what she's talking about. She suddenly turns, then unexpectedly shoves the title in Orchid's face, yelling at her in English, "You are a selfish bitch sometimes, FUCK YOU CUNT!!” Everyone seems shocked by this display as she tears up and tries to walk away.
Orchid looks at Master Lilly who just nods, and Orchid turns around and grabs a handful of Song's hair, yanking her back in front of them. As she is pulled back, she reaches out for me, and though I have no idea what is happening, I force my way between them, holding her.
Orchid shoves the belt into Song's chest, “I tried calling you...”
Song narrows her eyes angrily, “Don’t lie.”
Master Lilly interjects, “Why are you so upset over this, Jon, Eyesnsane, were both there.” Master Lilly leans over to look at me. “Song says you were at the show where she won the title, is that true?”
This seemed like a strange question to me. Where else would I be? "Of course I was! I would never miss out on a moment like that for her...or anyone of the others if I could help it!"
Song starts pointing at me while still looking at Master Lilly and Orchid, yelling in Cantonese again.
Orchid apparently has had enough of being belittled by Song, and she caves in. “I'm sorry Song, but you’re looking at it all wrong.”
Master Lilly adds, “Kenzi was there to support you Song. We're sorry we couldn't be there.”
Song turns her attention to Lilly, “Kenzi doesn't count and you know that! She is just my girlfriend, you two are family and you said you would be there to support me!”
I'm sure that Song's words are meant to cut Lilly and Orchid, but I can't help but to feel cut to the bone as well. As Song is yelling, I notice that she is holding on tightly to two pictures. Orchid manages to snatch the two pictures away from her, avoiding her attempt to take them back. Orchid hands them to Master Lilly and all Song can do is glare at Orchid.
Master Lilly looks at the pictures, one is of herself with Song, Orchid, Blasted Monk, Master Wong Fai Hung and his father Master Wong Kai Ying. She pauses, sniffing at the air. She looks at Orchid then at me. “Orchid, Kenzi do you guys smell that?”
Orchid takes a deep breath and then looks at me. “Are you guys burning incense?”
I shake my head, but I'm still a bit numb after hearing from Song's own lips that I 'don't count' since I'm 'just a girlfriend.' I choke back whatever pride I have left as I answer. “Just ask her...I don't come down here when she's training."
Master Lilly looks at the other picture, seeming surprised, "Your mother and father! I thought there was nothing left...all of the pictures lost." I knew that Song's mother and father had passed when she was only 5. Lilly looked at Song, “Song where is the Alter at?”
Song looks dejected as she starts to walk, “Follow me.” She reaches over and takes my hand as she shows us the way. Song walks to the back end of the room, she goes in a small locker room where she opens up a closet. She puts her hand on the back wall of the closet and the wall slides in opening to a hidden alcove.
Master Lilly finds the light switch and turns it on. Its a dim light but enough to make out all that is in the room has been converted into a kind of shrine. Master Lilly sees a picture on the wall, the same one I saw upstairs in her hand earlier of Song, her ex-boyfriend Chin and the other woman I didn't recognize. Lilly clears up that mystery as she touches the woman's face and whispers the woman's name, "...Ms. Lee..." which I recognize to be Chin Lee's mother. Master Lilly looks at Song. “So you already know I see.”
Song nods, “Yes, Master Wong called, that’s how I found out that you two went to Hawaii for a few days after you both promised you would be there for me on the biggest night of my wrestling career. Yet instead I find out that you two are on vacation breaking your promise, you guys couldn’t wait a few days so I could’ve have joined you? When Orchid won her Breakout title it was so much of a big deal that Master Wong even came from China to see the match! I was there, you were there Master Lilly...everyone was there! Yet when it was my turn, where was my support, where was my family, where were the ones that are supposed to love me? On top of that I find out that Chin and Mama Lee died in a car crash, as they were heading home to see my match on television...while you two were on fucking vacation! Yes, Kenzi was there and as much as I love her and as much as it meant a lot to me it was my family I wanted there to cheer me on like I did and do for them! Instead I find out you two were having cocktails relaxing under the sun!”
Master Lilly looks at me as she can clearly see that I am lost on what is going. “Kenzi did you know about Chin or any of this for that matter? I mean no disrespect but you always have something to say, can you shed any light to what is going on?”
I shake my head. "I'm sorry...I've kinda been on my own since Sunday night." I shrugged, "I guess the girlfriend isn't as high of a priority." I know that it's nasty to say, but my feelings are really hurt. Song has marginalized my love for her and shut me out in the most disrespectful of ways. She could have trusted me with this...like I trust her with everything.
Song looks at me then at Master Lilly. Song gets down on her knees looking at the ground now. “No Master, but you see Kenzi is different than you or I. Master, where we come from, we honor our families. Master, I love Kenzi with all my heart but she does not understand the true meaning of family, to honor them and to protect them when needed most. Master, Kenzi has a sister in need of help, only Kenzi can save her, yet she is choosing not to. I love Kenzi too much to fight with her about this but at the same time how can I share something like an alter with someone who seems to not understand? Master, I understand that she just found out that Nicky is her sister and Kenzi made it clear that she hates her. I understand hating someone but to let your own sister die is too much even for me. How can I talk to someone like that about family matters and such..."
All eyes turn to me in shock as Song's words hit me like a slap to the face and for the first in a very long time I am speechless. I stumble back, suddenly so filled with shame that I can't stand having their eyes on me. Before anyone can stop me, I turn and run out of the room and up the stairs, nearly blinded by the tears in my eyes. I run into the bedroom and sit on the bed, just staring.
As I sit there, I hear footsteps coming up fast. Song runs into the room, then sighs as she walks over and sits next to me. “Its rare for me to see you this way. I hate to admit it tends to be the other way around. You want to talk?”
Orchid and Master Lilly come up and knock on the door before I can answer. Song gets up, but Master Lilly raises her hand and speaks, “Song we came by to congratulate you on your win. We're sorry we didnt make it but before you could give us a chance to explain we were on are way back...but there was an issue with the jet. Its clear you and Kenzi need to talk, and I mean really talk. But before you do there is something you should know. I know you and Kenzi really care about each other, you two fell for each other.” Mao walks in the room walking in between Master Lilly's feet. Mao gets on the bed and lays next to me and I stroke the cat's fur, trying not to listen to them. “You guys got together and became a couple, it has worked out. It might not be perfect, but no one is Song. You two moved in together.” Song takes a look at me and Mao. Song turns to look at Lilly and Orchid. “Song that is your family. You have to realize that Kenzi is not just a girlfriend, Orchid is a 'girl-friend', Kenzi is something way more Song and you have to talk to her about things. Kenzi should not have to deal with what I just dealt with today. If you have an issue with how she is dealing with her family, then you...as a family, should talk about it. Kenzi wouldn't be living with you if she only saw you as a girlfriend. Honor her as you want her to honor Nicky.”
Song turns to look back at Master Lilly. “I understand, thank you.”
Master Lilly nodded, “Remember Song, we will always be your family but Kenzi is the family you created don’t forget that.”
Orchid added. “Song stay here with Kenzi, Master and I will close the door behind us.” The three bow at each other.
Song closes the bedroom door and Orchid and Master Lilly head to the main floor to leave the house. Song gets in the bed with me. “I want to talk about this Nicky thing but before we do, I'm sorry if I was distant with you, that was not my intention. Please forgive me, Ken...Nutty B... I'm really sorry Mackenzie Michaela Grey.” Song knows that I hate being called that, but instead of getting upset, lay my head against her. Song holds me. “Let me stay here with you, I want to talk about Nicky but I can wait until you are ready.”
I pull out my phone and I flip it to the last message I sent to Nicky's creepy ass boyfriend. Song looks at the message I sent...
Song smiled, as she looked at me, "You called her your sister. I think that means that you do care about her. You realize that she's family after all." She nodded in approval. "I know that you'll do the right thing and help your...help OUR family."
I hugged her tightly, wiping my face as I nodded. "I'll help her Song...I promise, I'll help..."
Now, before you run through the halls half naked to hop into bed with Ashley to show her this…take a moment and allow me to elaborate. I don’t care that you are one of the best in LAW…possibly the world. It doesn’t concern me that you have held titles from one coast to the other. I’m not worried that you have it in for me because you think I can’t get the job done in a one on one match. None of those things are my issue with you…I have beef with you for one reason and one reason only…Ashley Marie Chase!
…PERIOD, POINT FUCKING BLANK…
I love AMC…
You don’t like that? Well…that’s too fucking bad, because you can’t do a damn thing about it! However, before you go flipping your lid and thinking I’m talking about taking her from you…understand what I mean when I say that. I love AMC…she’s been my friend, my confidant, and my mentor in LAW. She has been closer to me than a sister! That means that she's family and that I care about her…that means that I would do anything for her! That means that if she’s facing a problem, it’s my duty to step up to the plate and do something I about it!
…you are that fucking problem Sam Tolson…
You run around here screaming at the top of your lungs how mad you are about me having a friendship with your girlfriend, but when it is all said and done…it’s just a bunch of lip service! You don’t give a damn about her…only how it makes you look that she’s not led around by the nose by you!
Granted…I know that things got heated between you and me when I kissed her during my match at Validation in May…but that was just a bit of gamesmanship between the two of us…and honestly, while I know it pissed you off…I don’t regret it. I’m glad it lit a fire under you, because it showed that you cared about her in a way that was important to me. She’s my friend and I only want the best for her…at that time, I thought it was you…but I started to realize in fairly short order that it wasn’t!
You see Sam…just like you’ve been watching me these last few weeks, I’ve been watching you that much closer and for a hell of a lot longer! When AMC was agreeing to guide my career, I was watching what you’d say and what you’d do. Yeah…you weren’t happy and I expected that…I respected that…but there was more. As much as you love to go on social media and run your fucking mouth about all the ass you are gonna kick…you also love to go on there and troll the pretty pictures of women that aren’t AMC and drool over them as well…talking about smacking the asses. What was that the other day? Once? No...you said you wanted to smack her ass twice!
…I saw you fawning all over Essi Oliver on Twitter…damn disrespectful if you ask me…
Trolling one of my best friends, Missy…while you sit at home, BORED! ‘You could turn up at my doorstep’ Winkey Face LOL
…REALLY BITCH? Is that that how you respect my friend? Is that how you respect your relationship with her…what other secrets are you hiding Sam? What other skeletons do you have in your closet...?
Hey…I could go on and on about you and your ‘pussy grabbing’ attitude, but I think you get my point. But, just in case it isn’t all that clear to you…allow me to add, just a little more gas to that already roaring fire!
I was at the event where Ashley defended her HKW Bloodlust Title. I went there to support her! I sat through that horrific match and after she was battered, bloodied, and bruised, I also went to see her at the hospital. I called to check on her everyday and I sent her words of encouragement.
…WHERE IN THE FUCK WERE YOU…'bored' and trolling for more loose tail perhaps…?
The bottom line is this…I don’t know what you do behind closed doors, but I do see what you do in the harsh light of day, and I don’t like it…and I don’t like how you treat my friend! You’re not good enough for her…and you don’t deserve her!
…that being said...ironically, she loves you to pieces…
So what am I to do Sam? How do I reconcile this since I can't show her what a BITCH IN HEAT you are? Well…it’s simple! You need to realize what’s important to you. It’s not the Chaos Title, because that belongs to me now. You’ll never get that. It’s not revenge on me for kissing your girlfriend or taking the aforementioned title belt from off your overly broad man shoulders. It’s me…helping you spend quality time at home with AMC…as she puts you back together like a one hundred and sixty pound jigsaw puzzle…nursing you back to health like the world's biggest baby bird! Maybe…just maybe…you’ll come to realize that you already have everything that you need right in your own nest...right there in front of you!
I know AMC is going to ask me to take it easy on you…she might even ask me to lay down for you, but…I won’t do it…not this time Sam. You see, just like she had to go against her nature when I fought you at Double Shot and not tell you what I had in store…I will go against my nature on Sunday when I decide that I am going to do what is best for her; beating you bloody and sending you out the building feet first to the nearest emergency room!
I’m walking into YOUR Devil’s Playground with the goal of teaching you a lesson that you won’t soon forget! Disrespecting me is one thing, I can take that...no one respects me in LAW, so I'm done asking for it. Now, disrespecting people that I consider family…OH…that is quite another!
…you're gonna dance with the Devil bitch, I promise you that! I’ll see you on Sunday Sammy…
SIN CITY WRESTLING: HIGH STAKES
Galen Center, Los Angles California
20 November 2016
Galen Center, Los Angles California
20 November 2016
No one has been more proud to represent LAW as a champion than me...NO ONE! My Chaos Title has been to more rival arenas than any other title belt on the planet...hands down. Tonight I bring my title to the Galen Center as I go to watch Song and her friend and tag team partner in the Elders, Alana Allure challenge The Angel Clan for the SCW Bombshell Tag Team Titles. I am so excited and nervous for them that I can hardly be still as I pace backstage, watching with the other girls on the monitors. I spend most of the match wincing and covering my eyes as Song fights. As the match draws to a close, I can hardly stand it...
1...
2...
3...
Ding! Ding! Ding!
"Here are your winners AND NEW Sin City Wrestling Bombshell Tag Team Champions... THEEEEEEEE EEEEELDEEEERSS!"
Alana rolls into the ring and lifts Song up to celebrate, while Jasmine hands them their new championship belts.
BACKSTAGE
Minutes Later...
Minutes Later...
No one is prouder of their win than me as I jump around, screaming like a lunatic. Everyone looks at me, but I don't care...this is what I was hoping for; Song...my Song, is now a champion! As I celebrate with the rest of the Elders, I am the first to see them coming down the hallway with their new titles, I can't help but to go hug them both, along with the rest of the Elders. As Alana recounts the match to the group, I grab Song's hand and pull her aside. “I'm very proud of you babe! But...I wanted to tell you something...” I look around nervously to make sure no one else hears me. “You were always a champion to me...” I throw my arms around her and hug her tightly, not minding at all that she's sweaty from her match. In fact, I think I actually like it.
Song replies, rather glibly, “Thanks I guess.”
I reply, with a confused look. “You guess?”
Song shrugs, “Pretty much yeah.” Song looks over to the side where the rest of the Elders are at. “Hey guys wait up for us.” The Elders just nod as they make their way into the Elders Locker room. We stand there for a moment, as I am struck dumb by her cold demeanor. After a few more moments she takes my hand and leads me into the Elders locker room. Song seems subdued as she gets her bag and prepares to leave the arena. I have no idea what's wrong...and I'm a little hurt over the cold shoulder treatment, but I hope that her moodiness will pass and she'll tell me what's wrong...
HOME, LOS ANGELES CALIFORNIA
Later That Night...
Later That Night...
I remained quiet for the rest of the night. I wasn't unset so much as I was disappointed in her reaction to my attempt to congratulate her on her accomplishment. I figured that she was unhappy with the result of the match with Jon Dough and Eyesesane losing their SCW Tag Team Titles, but she had no control over that. Once we are dropped off, I hug everyone and head into the house, doing my best to not show my hurt feelings. “Hey, do you want a shoulder rub? I know you're probably sore.”
Song looks at me with a weird look, “Sore? HA, not at all! If you just want to give me a rub you can but sore? HA, that’s funny.” She drops her bag on the floor with her newly won title belt inside. I watch as Song makes her way upstairs to her bedroom to change.
I walk upstairs and shower. I throw on a t-shirt and I hop into bed. I pat the empty spot beside me. “You want to sit down and talk?” Song walks pass, wearing an obviously fake smile, ignoring my invitation. Instead, she goes to her personal bedroom and hits the shower. I roll over and pull out my phone, making myself busy with sending out texts to the rest of The Elders. I'm so proud of all of them for fighting their hearts out, win or lose. I just hope that they all keep their heads up. I pat the bed and Mao, Song's cat, hops up on the bed and I stoke the cat's fur, listening to the 'purr' as I sing a song... ‘Soft Kitty’ seems appropriate.
After a few minutes Song makes her way back to the master bedroom, dressed and looking ready for a night on the town. “Hey, so after the PPV the Elders were going to Planet Hollywood for some drinks. I left my ID at home like a dummy and...well I wanted to change. I really don't want to go but I said I would, so now I have to. Get changed and be ready in like 30 minutes and I will drive us there. Till then I will be on the upper deck patio doing me.”
I get up and walk over, looking at her and nodding. I kiss her on the cheek. “You look nice Babe. Go ahead and be with your partners tonight. I'll wait for you...I'll give you that rub that I promised.” I head back over to the bed and hop back on it. Inside, I really want to go with her...but her strange attitude troubles me. I had expected her to confide in me, but when she doesn't I decide to wait until she feels like it. I smile at her. “Hurry back.”
Song replies, “Like I said I'm leaving in 30 minutes, so if you change your mind, then cool. If not, then whatever.” She walks out, closing the door behind her.
I sigh as I pet Song's cat and turn on the FaceTime to call Melissa Reaves, Katie Anderson, and Missy. I hope that they feel like talking to me since Song doesn't. I have a pleasant conversation with them, but my mind is on Song the entire time and they can tell that I'm not really into it.
30 minutes later, Song makes her way back inside. She looks at me. “You still staying or coming with?”
I shrug, “If you really want me to go, you can pick something out for me. If it's no big deal, I'll wait for you to come back.”
Song doesn’t say a word she just leaves the room. After a few minutes, she returns with a dress from my closet. “Here you go Kenzi…”
I find this even more confusing, as I expected her to just leave...so it's obvious that she wants to spend time with me...she just doesn't want to fucking talk to me. She has no idea how much that irritates me...or maybe she does. I suck it up as I don't say a word, I just get dressed and follow her out, taking her hand as I do...I can't help that I love her, despite being treated like shit...
HARDROCK CAFE
Downtown, Los Angeles
Downtown, Los Angeles
When we finally arrive, meet up with Alana, Matt Spears, Dr. Weaver, and Eyesnsane. I look around for Orchid, but oddly she is no one where to be seen. In fact, she had also completely missed the SCW event as well, which was odd. Song continues to patronize me with her fake smile as she leads me upstairs to the VIP section. I pause and take a few pictures with fans and staff who recognize me and I can tell that this annoys her...so I do enjoy that. As we arrive, before Song can give them her name, the security looks at me and nods with a smile, opening the section to us. Song shakes her head, annoyed. We walk in and sit with the rest of the Elders who are already there.
Despite the VIP treatment, I really only want to spend time with Song, though her callous attitude bothers me. I thought that she loved me and would never allow me to feel like I was just 'along for the ride' but that is what this feels like. I thought we would have a sweet moment in the arena after her big win as I told her how I felt, but the cold shoulder treatment didn't sit well with me. I assumed that she was disappointed for Jon and Eye losing their match...as I was, but the outcome was beyond her control. I had hoped that she would open up as the night wore on, but everything remained the same. Instead of getting upset, I just went along for the ride and crossed my fingers in the hopes that this wasn't another 'joke' on her behalf because it wasn't funny at all...it was hurtful. Still, I did my best to keep my attention focused on the others. There was no need for me to be 'Debby Downer' as the new addition to the close knit group. “Thanks for having me out with you guys, even though I'm not really an Elder.”
Eyesnsane spoke up, “It ain't even about all that you all good.”
Alana Allure added, “It's about friends and family hanging out relaxing.”
Matt Spears, looks around as if listening to a voice inside his head, then nodded, “Hey Kenzi, Jon says yes you are! Kentourage and Elders are all one in the world of Wrestling.”
Song nods, almost absently, “Jon has a good point there Kenzi, so does Alana.”
Dr. Weaver gestured to them, “Ladies please take a seat we have drinks coming for you two.”
I hold up my hand. “No drinks for me tonight...I kinda wanna keep my head screwed on tight. Juice is fine. Also, thank you guys.” Even though Song agreed with the sentiment, it wasn't like she was jumping up and down to be the first to say anything, I know I was being petty, but everything about tonight since Song blew me off was grating on my nerves. I didn't want alcohol adding to my frustration as I worked hard to keep it under my hat. I smiled at everyone and did my level best to keep up the appearance that I was having a great time, though I largely attempted to keep my focus off of Song.
We took our seats and after a moment, a waiter showed up to take our orders. To my surprise, Song skipped the alcohol as well, choosing to go with her favorite, RC Cola. She looked at me, “What kind of juice would you like?”
I shrug, “I'll have pineapple.” I put my hand on Song's lap, and I give it a pat, then turn my attention back to the group. I hope that its a sign that things are returning to normal.
Song removes my hand from her lap and instead laces her fingers between mines, but she doesn't really bother to hold on tightly as she usually does. She looks at me and smiles for a second before putting her head down. Song looks up at everyone, “So some day huh?”
Eyesnsane nods in agreement, “Yeah you and Alana did great today.”
Alana points at him and Jon, “Same with you and Jon Dough.”
Matt Spears listens to the voice in his head, then adds, “Yeah you all did great.”
The waiter comes by with RC Cola and Pineapple juice. He puts each glass on the table. Song and I thank him as he walks off. I eagerly let go of Song's hand as I take up my drink in both of my hands. I'm not thirsty, I just have no desire to have Song pretend to want to touch me. I stand up, walking around the table. “A toast to the Elders! You guys are the best friends that I could have hoped for...and I love you all.” I look at Song, then nod and clink my glass against those of the others. “Thank you all for being real with me. I can't tell you how much that means.” They all can a drink, Song looks at me, and I can tell she knows that I'm really pissed off.
Alana adds to the toast, “Were all family here, all of us.” Alana looks at Song and gives her a wink on the sneak tip. I notice that Song puts on a half-smile.
Old feelings of jealousy bubble up inside me and I feel powerless to stop them. I know that Alana is a just a friend, but knowing that she had a bond with Song that I don't eats at me. I thought I had gotten over it, but seeing the two of them share a moment that I'm not privy to sets me on edge. I walk over and sit next to Dr. Weaver, patting her on her shoulder, hoping to distract myself. “How have you been Doctor? I'm hoping to get some time with you in a couple of days. I want to pick your brain on something.” It's really just small talk for me, though I really do what to ask her some questions, but I just want to put some distance between myself and Song for the moment. I don't want to escalate things any further. I don't want to be upset with her...but communication is the key and right now she's not doing that and I wish that I had stayed home...if it was still our home.
Dr. Weaver smiles at me, taking a sip of her drink first, then giving me her full attention. “Well, Mr. Grey what is on your mind?”
I move in close as I ask, “How much do you know about cancer treatment?”
Dr. Weaver leans in closer. “Well that would depend on a few things like what kind of cancer what stage there or how bad is it and such.”
I nod at Dr. Weaver. “Okay...looks like I have some research to do. Thanks!” I wave at Song, then sip my juice, turning my attention to everyone else at the table...pretending to enjoy myself.
Dr. Weaver shows a look of concern, the whispers, “...is there something you want to talk to me about Ms. Grey...?”
I pat her leg, “Nope! Well, not yet. I'll call you.”
Dr. Weaver smiles at me, “Well you have my number so you call me anytime you need or want to okay?” Weaver holds her glass up and takes a sip. “I mean that girl.”
I nod at her, happy that I have someone else to talk to about Nicky's condition, should I chose to take her up on it. I keep my eyes on Song. I can't help myself, despite the momentary distraction, I still find myself going right back to her. I drink my juice and keep quiet, trying my best not to get anymore upset. As much fun as this evening could be, I'd like it better if Song would just talk to me. She hasn't had very much to say tonight at all. I down my juice and I excuse myself as the rest of the Elders enjoy themselves. I find it difficult to continue to sit there so close to Song and not have her attention. I walk out to the dance floor and start dancing by myself, though I keep my eyes on Song. I hope that this is enough to get and hold her attention. As I do, a man comes over and starts dancing with me. I try to ignore him, but he continues to try to dance up on me.
I can see Song watching me, and as soon as the stranger joins in, she taps the table, to get the attention of Eyesnsane Matt. As I see the two of them get up, I look at Song and shake my head. I point at Song and wave her over instead. Song gestures and the two men sit back down. I can tell that she doesn't really want to join me, but reluctantly comes over.
As I continue to dance, the man gets increasingly handsy with me. I look at Song, wondering if she'll save me or not. Song walks over and I reach over and grab her, smiling at the man. “Sorry, she's with me.” I point behind him. “You can dance with them if you want.” The man turns at sees Matt and Eye starting to get up and quickly excuses himself. I keep my attention on Song, with my arms wrapped over her shoulders, while I stare into her eyes. “What's this all about Song?” I don't know if she intends to walk back to the table, but I hold on tight, just to let her know if she does, she's going back alone. I kiss her, not caring whose watching. “Talk to me...or send me home.”
Song can’t help but blush no matter how upset she is. “There’s people watching us, were in public you know. 'Miss you’re too good to be my girlfriend in public.' Now you say talk to you or send you home fine, I'll take you home and you can talk to me all you want.”
I nod, this is what I wanted more than anything. I hold her hand tightly, not caring that people are watching us. She gives me a dirty look as we start walking off the dance floor. Song sees Master Lilly and Orchid as they are escorted into the VIP section with the others. Song immediately lets go of my hand and runs towards the two as if I was not there with her at all. I'm just as happy to see the two of them as she is, but I feel disrespected all over again. I walk over and greet Lilly and Orchid with a hug and a few kind words, but I don't linger. I wave goodbye to the rest of the Elders. I point at Orchid, motioning for her to call me later. I go and stand by the exit and wait for Song to finish spending time with the rest of her friends...all of which are obviously much more important and exciting to be around that me...
HOME, LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA
Later that night...
Later that night...
When we finally left from the Hardrock Café, I had expected Song to tell me what I did wrong, but it was just more of the same for the rest of what I had thought was going to be a really good night. I was happy to have gotten the time to bond with the others, but in the process, it seemed that the person I most wanted to connect with had no desire to want to connect with me. It was obvious that I had done something wrong and I needed to figure out what it was. When we got back to the house, I didn't force the issue, I just held her hand until we reached the bedroom and I got undressed and curled up in the bed. When my phone buzzed, I didn't look at it, I just turned it off and stayed curled up until Mao came by for a rub, which I provided. I had really thought I was doing all the right things for once, but it was obvious that I was still a shit girlfriend, even when I thought I wasn't.
Song didn't bother to join me, opting instead to get into the hot tub...with no invitation for me. I took this as my cue that the night was over and there was no conversation in the offering. I turned over and did my level best to go to sleep...though, I was entirely too upset to do anything other than close my eyes. I'm not sure how many minutes or hours pass before I finally open my eyes again.
I get up after realizing that Song still hasn't come to bed and likely isn't coming. I check the hot tub and find it empty, then I walk to her room and see her asleep, surrounded by pictures. I consider leaving her, but I hate the fact that she's uncovered...and alone. I go into her room and gather up the pictures, feeling bad about glancing at them as I put them away. I don't recognize everyone, but I do recognize her ex-boyfriend, Chin. This sends a stab through my chest, but I'm too deep in love with Song to do anything other than be hurt. I carefully tucked Song in...then I stood there for a moment considering what to do next. I started to leave her, but instead I slipped into the bed, scooting up behind her, wrapping my arms over her as I whispered into her ear; "...I'm sorry..." and kissed her shoulder. I closed my eyes, but I still didn't sleep...I just listened to her for the rest of the night.
Early that morning, Song pops up out of bed, startling me as she starts looking around frantically. When I see this, it's obvious what she's looking for. I reach over and pick up the stack of pictures from the nightstand and hand them to Song, "Is this what you're looking for?"
Song takes the pictures. “Thank you, yes this is what I was looking for.” Song takes her pictures and puts all but three away. Song gives me a strained look. “I'm heading to the basement to workout. When I am done I will make breakfast.” Song gives me a bow, which is odd and she makes her way out of the room.
I sit up and consider going with her to make her talk to me, but if history has proven anything, its that she prefers not to be disturbed when she's training. I respect that...I don't like it, but I respect it. Instead, I lay back down, grabbing my phone as I start flipping through my messages. As I do, something randomly catches my eye; a conversation between Nicky Silver and her weirdo boyfriend, Michael Samsa. As I look at the odd back and forth, it seriously looks like he is preparing to ask her to marry him...
Michael Samsa (Metamorphosizer): Been staying close by Nicky...apparently we can communicate just with our eyes now!
OK...here goes nothing, Mikey...just the toughest question you'll ever ask in your life, no pressure...
OK...here goes nothing, Mikey...just the toughest question you'll ever ask in your life, no pressure...
I fired back a message, then I stopped, staring at the messages. I shake my head and roll my eyes. This is no business of mines. I didn't even know why I pretended to care. They could both rot! I had problems of my own. I kicked back, calling Mao up to the bed as I stroked the cat's soft fur...trying to turn my attention to happier thoughts. As I play with Song's cat, I hear the doorbell ring. I jump out of bed and run down the stairs to answer the door, hoping not to disrupt Song's workout. I open the door and I'm surprised to see Lilly and Orchid. I squeal as I hug them both.
Master Lilly greets me, “Hello Kenzi.”
Orchid, gives me a hug, “Hey Kenzi, is Song around we have some bad news to tell her, We figured she is mad at us as her phone goes to voice mail when we try to call her.”
I'm reluctant to say anything as I figure she's only mad at me for some reason she's yet to explain. I don't want her more upset, but if it's something she needs to know, I have no choice. “Come with me." I show them downstairs to the training room. I walk Lilly and Orchid downstairs, calling to Song, as I don't want her to think I'm disturbing her workout. "Hey Babe, you have visitors..." I stand aside and let them in first and I stand off to the side. If it's Elders business, they won't want to be there.
Song answers, “Okay I'm coming!” as she trots from around the corner. As soon as she sees Master Lilly and Orchid, without warning Song starts yelling at the two of them in Cantonese. All I can make out is that at one point she clearly says my name. I lower my head and sigh, feeling ashamed that I have caused all of this.
Master Lilly points at Song, “Song you need to calm down a bit!”
Song seems to grow more angry as she runs to the corner and grabs her bag, pulling out the SCW Tag Team Title belt. She points at it then points at them while still yelling in Cantonese. Again I hear my name and all I can do is wonder what she's talking about. She suddenly turns, then unexpectedly shoves the title in Orchid's face, yelling at her in English, "You are a selfish bitch sometimes, FUCK YOU CUNT!!” Everyone seems shocked by this display as she tears up and tries to walk away.
Orchid looks at Master Lilly who just nods, and Orchid turns around and grabs a handful of Song's hair, yanking her back in front of them. As she is pulled back, she reaches out for me, and though I have no idea what is happening, I force my way between them, holding her.
Orchid shoves the belt into Song's chest, “I tried calling you...”
Song narrows her eyes angrily, “Don’t lie.”
Master Lilly interjects, “Why are you so upset over this, Jon, Eyesnsane, were both there.” Master Lilly leans over to look at me. “Song says you were at the show where she won the title, is that true?”
This seemed like a strange question to me. Where else would I be? "Of course I was! I would never miss out on a moment like that for her...or anyone of the others if I could help it!"
Song starts pointing at me while still looking at Master Lilly and Orchid, yelling in Cantonese again.
Orchid apparently has had enough of being belittled by Song, and she caves in. “I'm sorry Song, but you’re looking at it all wrong.”
Master Lilly adds, “Kenzi was there to support you Song. We're sorry we couldn't be there.”
Song turns her attention to Lilly, “Kenzi doesn't count and you know that! She is just my girlfriend, you two are family and you said you would be there to support me!”
I'm sure that Song's words are meant to cut Lilly and Orchid, but I can't help but to feel cut to the bone as well. As Song is yelling, I notice that she is holding on tightly to two pictures. Orchid manages to snatch the two pictures away from her, avoiding her attempt to take them back. Orchid hands them to Master Lilly and all Song can do is glare at Orchid.
Master Lilly looks at the pictures, one is of herself with Song, Orchid, Blasted Monk, Master Wong Fai Hung and his father Master Wong Kai Ying. She pauses, sniffing at the air. She looks at Orchid then at me. “Orchid, Kenzi do you guys smell that?”
Orchid takes a deep breath and then looks at me. “Are you guys burning incense?”
I shake my head, but I'm still a bit numb after hearing from Song's own lips that I 'don't count' since I'm 'just a girlfriend.' I choke back whatever pride I have left as I answer. “Just ask her...I don't come down here when she's training."
Master Lilly looks at the other picture, seeming surprised, "Your mother and father! I thought there was nothing left...all of the pictures lost." I knew that Song's mother and father had passed when she was only 5. Lilly looked at Song, “Song where is the Alter at?”
Song looks dejected as she starts to walk, “Follow me.” She reaches over and takes my hand as she shows us the way. Song walks to the back end of the room, she goes in a small locker room where she opens up a closet. She puts her hand on the back wall of the closet and the wall slides in opening to a hidden alcove.
Master Lilly finds the light switch and turns it on. Its a dim light but enough to make out all that is in the room has been converted into a kind of shrine. Master Lilly sees a picture on the wall, the same one I saw upstairs in her hand earlier of Song, her ex-boyfriend Chin and the other woman I didn't recognize. Lilly clears up that mystery as she touches the woman's face and whispers the woman's name, "...Ms. Lee..." which I recognize to be Chin Lee's mother. Master Lilly looks at Song. “So you already know I see.”
Song nods, “Yes, Master Wong called, that’s how I found out that you two went to Hawaii for a few days after you both promised you would be there for me on the biggest night of my wrestling career. Yet instead I find out that you two are on vacation breaking your promise, you guys couldn’t wait a few days so I could’ve have joined you? When Orchid won her Breakout title it was so much of a big deal that Master Wong even came from China to see the match! I was there, you were there Master Lilly...everyone was there! Yet when it was my turn, where was my support, where was my family, where were the ones that are supposed to love me? On top of that I find out that Chin and Mama Lee died in a car crash, as they were heading home to see my match on television...while you two were on fucking vacation! Yes, Kenzi was there and as much as I love her and as much as it meant a lot to me it was my family I wanted there to cheer me on like I did and do for them! Instead I find out you two were having cocktails relaxing under the sun!”
Master Lilly looks at me as she can clearly see that I am lost on what is going. “Kenzi did you know about Chin or any of this for that matter? I mean no disrespect but you always have something to say, can you shed any light to what is going on?”
I shake my head. "I'm sorry...I've kinda been on my own since Sunday night." I shrugged, "I guess the girlfriend isn't as high of a priority." I know that it's nasty to say, but my feelings are really hurt. Song has marginalized my love for her and shut me out in the most disrespectful of ways. She could have trusted me with this...like I trust her with everything.
Song looks at me then at Master Lilly. Song gets down on her knees looking at the ground now. “No Master, but you see Kenzi is different than you or I. Master, where we come from, we honor our families. Master, I love Kenzi with all my heart but she does not understand the true meaning of family, to honor them and to protect them when needed most. Master, Kenzi has a sister in need of help, only Kenzi can save her, yet she is choosing not to. I love Kenzi too much to fight with her about this but at the same time how can I share something like an alter with someone who seems to not understand? Master, I understand that she just found out that Nicky is her sister and Kenzi made it clear that she hates her. I understand hating someone but to let your own sister die is too much even for me. How can I talk to someone like that about family matters and such..."
All eyes turn to me in shock as Song's words hit me like a slap to the face and for the first in a very long time I am speechless. I stumble back, suddenly so filled with shame that I can't stand having their eyes on me. Before anyone can stop me, I turn and run out of the room and up the stairs, nearly blinded by the tears in my eyes. I run into the bedroom and sit on the bed, just staring.
As I sit there, I hear footsteps coming up fast. Song runs into the room, then sighs as she walks over and sits next to me. “Its rare for me to see you this way. I hate to admit it tends to be the other way around. You want to talk?”
Orchid and Master Lilly come up and knock on the door before I can answer. Song gets up, but Master Lilly raises her hand and speaks, “Song we came by to congratulate you on your win. We're sorry we didnt make it but before you could give us a chance to explain we were on are way back...but there was an issue with the jet. Its clear you and Kenzi need to talk, and I mean really talk. But before you do there is something you should know. I know you and Kenzi really care about each other, you two fell for each other.” Mao walks in the room walking in between Master Lilly's feet. Mao gets on the bed and lays next to me and I stroke the cat's fur, trying not to listen to them. “You guys got together and became a couple, it has worked out. It might not be perfect, but no one is Song. You two moved in together.” Song takes a look at me and Mao. Song turns to look at Lilly and Orchid. “Song that is your family. You have to realize that Kenzi is not just a girlfriend, Orchid is a 'girl-friend', Kenzi is something way more Song and you have to talk to her about things. Kenzi should not have to deal with what I just dealt with today. If you have an issue with how she is dealing with her family, then you...as a family, should talk about it. Kenzi wouldn't be living with you if she only saw you as a girlfriend. Honor her as you want her to honor Nicky.”
Song turns to look back at Master Lilly. “I understand, thank you.”
Master Lilly nodded, “Remember Song, we will always be your family but Kenzi is the family you created don’t forget that.”
Orchid added. “Song stay here with Kenzi, Master and I will close the door behind us.” The three bow at each other.
Song closes the bedroom door and Orchid and Master Lilly head to the main floor to leave the house. Song gets in the bed with me. “I want to talk about this Nicky thing but before we do, I'm sorry if I was distant with you, that was not my intention. Please forgive me, Ken...Nutty B... I'm really sorry Mackenzie Michaela Grey.” Song knows that I hate being called that, but instead of getting upset, lay my head against her. Song holds me. “Let me stay here with you, I want to talk about Nicky but I can wait until you are ready.”
I pull out my phone and I flip it to the last message I sent to Nicky's creepy ass boyfriend. Song looks at the message I sent...
Kenzi Michaela Grey (Kenzi_Grey): LEAVE MY SISTER ALONE!!!
Song smiled, as she looked at me, "You called her your sister. I think that means that you do care about her. You realize that she's family after all." She nodded in approval. "I know that you'll do the right thing and help your...help OUR family."
I hugged her tightly, wiping my face as I nodded. "I'll help her Song...I promise, I'll help..."