Post by Crystal Hilton on Feb 25, 2017 22:49:53 GMT -5
Los Angeles, California
Rose Productions
{I will be completely honest… How did I even get here?! This entire being a good mother thing is really hard to me. I know I have never been there for Brittany but now is the time to really be there for her. I missed out on a crucial sixteen years of her life but I need to be there for her because she needs me more than anything else. Maybe I went a little overboard in the way that I took over St Mary’s Softball team. How could I coach her team? How I could put the will and need of my daughter before my own selfish desires.
I have to think Gabby Camacho because she brought up the fact that everything has been fake about me from the way I focused on stealing the spotlight to the way that I would paint myself as this modern day diva who never speaks of movies or does anything consistent.
That is my motivation… To be focused to be more humble this year and to let my true self shine through like never before. I know it’s a long road to travel and change certainly won’t come overnight but it’s something that comes with trial and error. Some days you may take a step back while others you may step forward two steps. In the end it’s all about the forward progress and that’s what I am going to focus on.
Where am I?! I am at my studio… Rose Productions and today it’s about talking business it’s about being a mother first and foremost. As long as I can focus on that nothing else can stop me right?! At my side is my beautiful daughter Brittany. We both walk through the doors into the board of directors. She hasn’t a clue on what’s going to go down but hopefully after today she will trust me and know I won’t ever hurt her. After all it’s my job to make sure that she becomes a better person than I have ever become, and the road to that journey starts today.
We both take a seat and Brittany opens her eyes in amazement as she turns her attention to me.}
“Mom is there a reason you brought me to the studio? Look I really don’t want to sit around as they discuss another of your boring movies…”
{I grin as I looked back into her eyes.}
“Pumpkin actually this has nothing to do with me… Well I guess it does in a way but this is all about you… Alexander would you be so kind to tell my daughter what’s going on?!”
{I smile as I look at Alexander Ross the CFO of my company. He offers a wide grin as he looks back at my daughter.}
“Well your mother is a really determined individual. She has this certain way about her…”
{Brittany shakes his head back at him before she turns her attention to me.}
“Let’s just call a spade a spade. She can be annoying, irritating, and makes everything about her, but what did she do this time? Get you guys to film some low budget film that will make its way to another bargain bin?!”
{I sigh as I can’t help myself and reply back.}
“Look would you all stop that! My movies are great! You just need to acquire a certain taste for it…”
“Bullshit mom… Bullshit…”
“BRITTANY JESSICA WILLIAMS…. Watch your mouth… Why don’t you just listen to what they have to say…”
{Alexander smiles as he snaps his fingers before he looks at me. I give him the nod as he continues to speak.}
“Actually Ms. Williams your mother loves you a lot and we know that she has just taken over your softball team. St Anne’s Archers right?!”
“Yes… Not St. Mary’s Monarchs like my mom keeps saying hoping to relive her glory days…”
{I smile as I raise my voice in return.}
“VARSITY FRESHMAN YEAR!!! My pitching skills were on point…”
“Mom stop trying to relive the past but yes Mr. Ross it’s the Archers what about them?! What did my mother do now? Get herself a new custom made jersey so she can be a band wagon fan again?! Try to praise the fact like she taught me everything she knows even though she was NEVER THERE for me?!”
{Alexander just smiles as he shakes his head in return.}
“Actually… Your mom wanted the best for you. We all know that the entire team has been begging for new jerseys for a while, and with the school budget they really don’t want to invest in the team. So your mom brought something to us. As the Chief Financial Officer I talked it over with the rest of the staff and we here at Rose Productions are going to sponsor your team. We hope you like these…”
{I grin as I snap my fingers and as I do. The doors open up and some of my staff bring in new jerseys. Brittany’s eyes light right up as they move them in front of her.}
“So what do you think?!”
{Brittany’s eyes light up as she turns her attention to me and gives me a passionate hug.}
“Mom you really didn’t have to do this.”
{She looks back at Alexander grinning.}
“Let me guess this was one of those situations where my mother basically forced you all into supporting me wasn’t it?!”
“You know your mother so well but in all seriousness it’s for a good cause and regardless of whether or not she was related to you we would have agreed to do so.”
“And if the company didn’t I would have came out of my personal pocket! Hell it’s out of my pocket anyway but that’s not the only news Brittany… There’s something else that’s more important than that. ”
{Brittany starts to roll her eyes at me.}
“Like what mom?! I appreciate the jerseys really… The team is going to be excited about it… I know you are trying your best but you can’t win me over in a day. This is years of hurt that needs to be rebuilt and mended. It will take more than that.”
“Mr. Ross could you give her the big reveal?!”
“Ok Mrs. Millar… Brittany take a look at this…”
{My personal assistant Chloe enters into the room with a script in her hands. She slides it in front of Brittany as I smile while I speak.}
“I know Gabby said it’s rare that I do movies it’s almost unheard of but I think for my next production I want to be more in the producer’s seat. I want to watch someone else have the spotlight someone who deserves it, and that being you. I want to make a Brittany Williams story something focused and starring you pumpkin.”
“Focusing on me?!”
“Yes… You are strong and it’s hard growing up being the daughter of two wrestlers being what could potentially be a third generation wrestler. There’s so much to your story I feel like we can really capture some important things here. If the Nicky Silver story could sell why can’t we sell one based on you?! Maybe I can call CTN see if Kenzi wants a piece of the action maybe get your softball team involved. It’s about really making you the center of it all, and from here we could see where it takes you…”
{Brittany is almost at the verge of tears as she just stares back at me.}
“I don’t know what to say…”
“You don’t have to say anything… You played me excellently in Silver Linings so let’s focus on you. You have the talent. I know it’s there. Whether you want to be a wrestler, a movie star, or a great softball player. You have the talent to do whatever you want to do. Instead of trying to relive myself through you I think it’s best if we find out what you want to do and go from there. I am merely giving you the chance to showcase yourself Brittany. It’s not much but it’s a step in the right direction…”
{Brittany nods her head at me.}
“Yes mom… It truly is… Thank you…. I…. I….. I love you….”
{She squeezes me tightly as she starts to sob… I start to tear as well. I just can’t control myself.}
“And I love you too… Let’s just make you the best person you can possibly be and go form there…”
{With that we continue to hug one another as everyone else in the room just stares at us. This seemed like a step in the right direction and I was happy for this moment…}
Hey everyone…
I am going to be completely honest with you. The last time I stepped into this ring I know it was a scary moment for everyone in the arena and especially for those watching at home but everything became a blur. When Sam dropped me on my head from the top of the rope I didn’t know where I was or what happened. Everything became nothing more than a blur.
I had to re watch the tape to see what exactly happened and it was definitely hard to watch but the good thing is I feel fine. I was a little banged up but I was able to shake myself off I was able to pick myself up and walk on my own two feet. To the fans who cheered me on and for Sam who gave me the respect of leaving the ring thank you.
It was scary and I don’t know what I would do without wrestling in my life. It’s my passion and it means everything to me. Without it there wouldn’t be a Crystal Hilton, there wouldn’t be a Crystal Millar. There would only be the little hood rat from South Detroit in Christina Hilton.
So I am thankful for where it has brought me and where it is going to bring me. Sometimes I know it’s hard to remember the hand that fed you when you are so quick to sell yourself out for the fame and fortune of the Hollywood bright lights but as I walked away from my battle with Camacho, and as I take the L to Tolson. I am starting to learn more things about myself.
Things that are identifying me as a person, and I am proud of the ride I have been on. This year of 2017 I am focused on simply one thing. Getting back to the basics and focusing on reality. The reality that I am an amazing wrestler. I am indeed one of the best and I won’t let anyone tell me any differently.
For some they can become sensations overnight. I know Doc Famularo and Evie Taylor went that route. They made their way to the World Championship never to be heard from again and others are late bloomers.
I am that late bloomer and I still haven’t accomplished what I wanted to yet but for every time I fall short it’s just another time that I am getting that much closer to what I really want and this year I can feel that something special is going to happen for me in LAW.
I can taste it and it’s right there. Being in the main event with Gabby Camacho at the biggest show of the year was merely just the beginning. There’s more to come and I definitely want more than just that.
It gets irritating to hear people throw my name out in the mud over and over again. It gets annoying to hear Sam tell the world she didn’t care if she ended my career or not.
Seriously fuck that shit when did using me as the example for making it in this company become the norm?!
It’s time to change that shit up real quick and on Sunday my Star will definitely rise. That brings me to you Melanie Gabrielle. You and I have history, a long history that goes all the way back to SCW. The reality is I got caught off guard by Keira. When I was playing it safe thinking that nobody would use a guaranteed title match on the lower tiered title she fooled me and caught me when I wasn’t looking.
She humbled me in the rematch and went on to do it again. You however kept on pushing and pushing. You found your way to facing Keira and you simply beat her and you took that Roulette title and held it for four months.
My little reign was eclipsed by what you did with the title and on the way you had found your way to beating me again and again. Whether it was in the World title tournament or in an ambulance match. You have always managed to defeat me and I still haven’t gotten over the hump of beating you.
That’s something that is left unfinished. I can sit here and boast that I did beat you in a tag team match but let’s be honest here.
You weren’t involved in the decision and neither was I so that was just an example of me being carried to a win. The truth is you have always had my number and it has been eating at me for a very long time.
I have never beaten you… You have always beaten me when it matters the most and despite you coming back to this company. Despite this being all about respect let’s just be honest here.
A few weeks ago you interrupted my in ring promo for one purpose and one only, and that’s because you thought you could get one up over me Melanie. You wanted to face me one more time because by beating the former Queen of the Ring that could make your stock rise instantly.
You would be able to ascend quicker than others. You could become one of the major players in this company and use me as a stepping stone to get there.
This is where I need to cut all of this shit out and politely tell you that shit just isn’t going to happen. I respect you but I don’t like this state that I am in. This state where wins come so few and far between in LAW. Where I could win the Queen of the Ring one week and in the very next show lay a goose egg against Kenzi Grey.
For you this match might be about ascending quickly but for me it’s about growth and stability. It’s about showing people that I can be consistent and I am going to use this match as a way to work myself back up. All the way from the bottom. It was said that I forgot how to fight well I am about to earn everything in this company.
I am tired of watching others after others gaining shots while I get left in the dust. Watching others slowly surpass me and I just can’t be apart of that anymore.
So I am not going to give you this nice girl talk where I hope the best girl wins. I won’t wish you the best of luck. I am flat out telling you I am going to win I am for the simple fact that I need to win.
The last time we really fought one on one was two years ago and since then I have grown in so many ways. I have bettered myself outside of the ring and I now I will put that work to do so inside the ring. You are fresh from being pregnant basically. You had to give it all up and that’s rough, but don’t think that just because you had a baby and feel like you are n shape again that you are in shape enough to beat me.
That’s just not going to fly with me and at Rising Stars I get over that hump of losing to you constantly. Sunday will be the night where I finally beat you.
There’s a problem between the both of us. Both of us pride ourselves as Queen you the Nordic Queen me as the Queen of the Silver Screen. We both love to go to the air with a 630 splash and we both have that submission finisher that we can pull out in a pinch.
What really matters in the end is who can do it better. I know it’s me. It has always been me but I let my overconfidence get the better of me.
I have grown so much in the two years since we last fought. You saw what I did here in LAW during the Queen of the Ring. You were watching my long reign in that other company, and while that was going on you were pregnant.
You were watching on the sidelines while I keep growing and growing becoming better with every passing day. Do you really think you are in a position to beat someone who has developed so much?
You really think you have that ability?
While you focus on trying to steal my thunder so you can grow in new unconquered land I will simply focus on the prize. The prize that awaits at the very top of what I am chasing. This is about working to get into the hunt and you will not steer me off course.
I just want you to understand this though. You want a handshake after the match? Fine…
You don’t care win lose or draw? Fine…
But I am in it to win it. I will not lose and I refuse to lose. So when everything is over. When the dust settles and you are left on your back gazing up at the spotlight I just want you to remember one thing Melanie… You are the one that asked for this match.
You are the one that put yourself in this position.
This isn’t a movie, and trust me I have made many of them, but you don’t always get your happy ending. Things just don’t go your way because you want them too. This is where I introduce you to a dose of reality.
A reality where I am hungry, and a reality where I finally overcome you to claim what is mine.
When the bell rings it’s not about being a friend it’s about getting that win and I will proudly put it all on the line in that ring. Remember that…
Nothing will ever keep this rose from blossoming.
Lights, Camera, Action…
It’s showtime Melanie… Let’s see how you step up to the plate shall we?!
Rose Productions
{I will be completely honest… How did I even get here?! This entire being a good mother thing is really hard to me. I know I have never been there for Brittany but now is the time to really be there for her. I missed out on a crucial sixteen years of her life but I need to be there for her because she needs me more than anything else. Maybe I went a little overboard in the way that I took over St Mary’s Softball team. How could I coach her team? How I could put the will and need of my daughter before my own selfish desires.
I have to think Gabby Camacho because she brought up the fact that everything has been fake about me from the way I focused on stealing the spotlight to the way that I would paint myself as this modern day diva who never speaks of movies or does anything consistent.
That is my motivation… To be focused to be more humble this year and to let my true self shine through like never before. I know it’s a long road to travel and change certainly won’t come overnight but it’s something that comes with trial and error. Some days you may take a step back while others you may step forward two steps. In the end it’s all about the forward progress and that’s what I am going to focus on.
Where am I?! I am at my studio… Rose Productions and today it’s about talking business it’s about being a mother first and foremost. As long as I can focus on that nothing else can stop me right?! At my side is my beautiful daughter Brittany. We both walk through the doors into the board of directors. She hasn’t a clue on what’s going to go down but hopefully after today she will trust me and know I won’t ever hurt her. After all it’s my job to make sure that she becomes a better person than I have ever become, and the road to that journey starts today.
We both take a seat and Brittany opens her eyes in amazement as she turns her attention to me.}
“Mom is there a reason you brought me to the studio? Look I really don’t want to sit around as they discuss another of your boring movies…”
{I grin as I looked back into her eyes.}
“Pumpkin actually this has nothing to do with me… Well I guess it does in a way but this is all about you… Alexander would you be so kind to tell my daughter what’s going on?!”
{I smile as I look at Alexander Ross the CFO of my company. He offers a wide grin as he looks back at my daughter.}
“Well your mother is a really determined individual. She has this certain way about her…”
{Brittany shakes his head back at him before she turns her attention to me.}
“Let’s just call a spade a spade. She can be annoying, irritating, and makes everything about her, but what did she do this time? Get you guys to film some low budget film that will make its way to another bargain bin?!”
{I sigh as I can’t help myself and reply back.}
“Look would you all stop that! My movies are great! You just need to acquire a certain taste for it…”
“Bullshit mom… Bullshit…”
“BRITTANY JESSICA WILLIAMS…. Watch your mouth… Why don’t you just listen to what they have to say…”
{Alexander smiles as he snaps his fingers before he looks at me. I give him the nod as he continues to speak.}
“Actually Ms. Williams your mother loves you a lot and we know that she has just taken over your softball team. St Anne’s Archers right?!”
“Yes… Not St. Mary’s Monarchs like my mom keeps saying hoping to relive her glory days…”
{I smile as I raise my voice in return.}
“VARSITY FRESHMAN YEAR!!! My pitching skills were on point…”
“Mom stop trying to relive the past but yes Mr. Ross it’s the Archers what about them?! What did my mother do now? Get herself a new custom made jersey so she can be a band wagon fan again?! Try to praise the fact like she taught me everything she knows even though she was NEVER THERE for me?!”
{Alexander just smiles as he shakes his head in return.}
“Actually… Your mom wanted the best for you. We all know that the entire team has been begging for new jerseys for a while, and with the school budget they really don’t want to invest in the team. So your mom brought something to us. As the Chief Financial Officer I talked it over with the rest of the staff and we here at Rose Productions are going to sponsor your team. We hope you like these…”
{I grin as I snap my fingers and as I do. The doors open up and some of my staff bring in new jerseys. Brittany’s eyes light right up as they move them in front of her.}
“So what do you think?!”
{Brittany’s eyes light up as she turns her attention to me and gives me a passionate hug.}
“Mom you really didn’t have to do this.”
{She looks back at Alexander grinning.}
“Let me guess this was one of those situations where my mother basically forced you all into supporting me wasn’t it?!”
“You know your mother so well but in all seriousness it’s for a good cause and regardless of whether or not she was related to you we would have agreed to do so.”
“And if the company didn’t I would have came out of my personal pocket! Hell it’s out of my pocket anyway but that’s not the only news Brittany… There’s something else that’s more important than that. ”
{Brittany starts to roll her eyes at me.}
“Like what mom?! I appreciate the jerseys really… The team is going to be excited about it… I know you are trying your best but you can’t win me over in a day. This is years of hurt that needs to be rebuilt and mended. It will take more than that.”
“Mr. Ross could you give her the big reveal?!”
“Ok Mrs. Millar… Brittany take a look at this…”
{My personal assistant Chloe enters into the room with a script in her hands. She slides it in front of Brittany as I smile while I speak.}
“I know Gabby said it’s rare that I do movies it’s almost unheard of but I think for my next production I want to be more in the producer’s seat. I want to watch someone else have the spotlight someone who deserves it, and that being you. I want to make a Brittany Williams story something focused and starring you pumpkin.”
“Focusing on me?!”
“Yes… You are strong and it’s hard growing up being the daughter of two wrestlers being what could potentially be a third generation wrestler. There’s so much to your story I feel like we can really capture some important things here. If the Nicky Silver story could sell why can’t we sell one based on you?! Maybe I can call CTN see if Kenzi wants a piece of the action maybe get your softball team involved. It’s about really making you the center of it all, and from here we could see where it takes you…”
{Brittany is almost at the verge of tears as she just stares back at me.}
“I don’t know what to say…”
“You don’t have to say anything… You played me excellently in Silver Linings so let’s focus on you. You have the talent. I know it’s there. Whether you want to be a wrestler, a movie star, or a great softball player. You have the talent to do whatever you want to do. Instead of trying to relive myself through you I think it’s best if we find out what you want to do and go from there. I am merely giving you the chance to showcase yourself Brittany. It’s not much but it’s a step in the right direction…”
{Brittany nods her head at me.}
“Yes mom… It truly is… Thank you…. I…. I….. I love you….”
{She squeezes me tightly as she starts to sob… I start to tear as well. I just can’t control myself.}
“And I love you too… Let’s just make you the best person you can possibly be and go form there…”
{With that we continue to hug one another as everyone else in the room just stares at us. This seemed like a step in the right direction and I was happy for this moment…}
Hey everyone…
I am going to be completely honest with you. The last time I stepped into this ring I know it was a scary moment for everyone in the arena and especially for those watching at home but everything became a blur. When Sam dropped me on my head from the top of the rope I didn’t know where I was or what happened. Everything became nothing more than a blur.
I had to re watch the tape to see what exactly happened and it was definitely hard to watch but the good thing is I feel fine. I was a little banged up but I was able to shake myself off I was able to pick myself up and walk on my own two feet. To the fans who cheered me on and for Sam who gave me the respect of leaving the ring thank you.
It was scary and I don’t know what I would do without wrestling in my life. It’s my passion and it means everything to me. Without it there wouldn’t be a Crystal Hilton, there wouldn’t be a Crystal Millar. There would only be the little hood rat from South Detroit in Christina Hilton.
So I am thankful for where it has brought me and where it is going to bring me. Sometimes I know it’s hard to remember the hand that fed you when you are so quick to sell yourself out for the fame and fortune of the Hollywood bright lights but as I walked away from my battle with Camacho, and as I take the L to Tolson. I am starting to learn more things about myself.
Things that are identifying me as a person, and I am proud of the ride I have been on. This year of 2017 I am focused on simply one thing. Getting back to the basics and focusing on reality. The reality that I am an amazing wrestler. I am indeed one of the best and I won’t let anyone tell me any differently.
For some they can become sensations overnight. I know Doc Famularo and Evie Taylor went that route. They made their way to the World Championship never to be heard from again and others are late bloomers.
I am that late bloomer and I still haven’t accomplished what I wanted to yet but for every time I fall short it’s just another time that I am getting that much closer to what I really want and this year I can feel that something special is going to happen for me in LAW.
I can taste it and it’s right there. Being in the main event with Gabby Camacho at the biggest show of the year was merely just the beginning. There’s more to come and I definitely want more than just that.
It gets irritating to hear people throw my name out in the mud over and over again. It gets annoying to hear Sam tell the world she didn’t care if she ended my career or not.
Seriously fuck that shit when did using me as the example for making it in this company become the norm?!
It’s time to change that shit up real quick and on Sunday my Star will definitely rise. That brings me to you Melanie Gabrielle. You and I have history, a long history that goes all the way back to SCW. The reality is I got caught off guard by Keira. When I was playing it safe thinking that nobody would use a guaranteed title match on the lower tiered title she fooled me and caught me when I wasn’t looking.
She humbled me in the rematch and went on to do it again. You however kept on pushing and pushing. You found your way to facing Keira and you simply beat her and you took that Roulette title and held it for four months.
My little reign was eclipsed by what you did with the title and on the way you had found your way to beating me again and again. Whether it was in the World title tournament or in an ambulance match. You have always managed to defeat me and I still haven’t gotten over the hump of beating you.
That’s something that is left unfinished. I can sit here and boast that I did beat you in a tag team match but let’s be honest here.
You weren’t involved in the decision and neither was I so that was just an example of me being carried to a win. The truth is you have always had my number and it has been eating at me for a very long time.
I have never beaten you… You have always beaten me when it matters the most and despite you coming back to this company. Despite this being all about respect let’s just be honest here.
A few weeks ago you interrupted my in ring promo for one purpose and one only, and that’s because you thought you could get one up over me Melanie. You wanted to face me one more time because by beating the former Queen of the Ring that could make your stock rise instantly.
You would be able to ascend quicker than others. You could become one of the major players in this company and use me as a stepping stone to get there.
This is where I need to cut all of this shit out and politely tell you that shit just isn’t going to happen. I respect you but I don’t like this state that I am in. This state where wins come so few and far between in LAW. Where I could win the Queen of the Ring one week and in the very next show lay a goose egg against Kenzi Grey.
For you this match might be about ascending quickly but for me it’s about growth and stability. It’s about showing people that I can be consistent and I am going to use this match as a way to work myself back up. All the way from the bottom. It was said that I forgot how to fight well I am about to earn everything in this company.
I am tired of watching others after others gaining shots while I get left in the dust. Watching others slowly surpass me and I just can’t be apart of that anymore.
So I am not going to give you this nice girl talk where I hope the best girl wins. I won’t wish you the best of luck. I am flat out telling you I am going to win I am for the simple fact that I need to win.
The last time we really fought one on one was two years ago and since then I have grown in so many ways. I have bettered myself outside of the ring and I now I will put that work to do so inside the ring. You are fresh from being pregnant basically. You had to give it all up and that’s rough, but don’t think that just because you had a baby and feel like you are n shape again that you are in shape enough to beat me.
That’s just not going to fly with me and at Rising Stars I get over that hump of losing to you constantly. Sunday will be the night where I finally beat you.
There’s a problem between the both of us. Both of us pride ourselves as Queen you the Nordic Queen me as the Queen of the Silver Screen. We both love to go to the air with a 630 splash and we both have that submission finisher that we can pull out in a pinch.
What really matters in the end is who can do it better. I know it’s me. It has always been me but I let my overconfidence get the better of me.
I have grown so much in the two years since we last fought. You saw what I did here in LAW during the Queen of the Ring. You were watching my long reign in that other company, and while that was going on you were pregnant.
You were watching on the sidelines while I keep growing and growing becoming better with every passing day. Do you really think you are in a position to beat someone who has developed so much?
You really think you have that ability?
While you focus on trying to steal my thunder so you can grow in new unconquered land I will simply focus on the prize. The prize that awaits at the very top of what I am chasing. This is about working to get into the hunt and you will not steer me off course.
I just want you to understand this though. You want a handshake after the match? Fine…
You don’t care win lose or draw? Fine…
But I am in it to win it. I will not lose and I refuse to lose. So when everything is over. When the dust settles and you are left on your back gazing up at the spotlight I just want you to remember one thing Melanie… You are the one that asked for this match.
You are the one that put yourself in this position.
This isn’t a movie, and trust me I have made many of them, but you don’t always get your happy ending. Things just don’t go your way because you want them too. This is where I introduce you to a dose of reality.
A reality where I am hungry, and a reality where I finally overcome you to claim what is mine.
When the bell rings it’s not about being a friend it’s about getting that win and I will proudly put it all on the line in that ring. Remember that…
Nothing will ever keep this rose from blossoming.
Lights, Camera, Action…
It’s showtime Melanie… Let’s see how you step up to the plate shall we?!