Post by Nyako on Feb 21, 2015 22:35:55 GMT -5
Personal Blog 02/21/15 – 4:39pm
Respect. It’s funny how so many talk about getting respect and yet never want to give it their selves. I can count on 1 hand how many of my opponents have given me respect going into a match. Sure some waited until after fore they gave it but there have been some that never gave it no matter how much I showed it to them. Yet I never waiver from respecting each and everyone I step I nthe ring with. I may not like them or the actions they take but I respect them because to me they had to bust their ass to get to where they are just like I have had to.
One of the people I respect the most since being in LAW has been Gabriella Comacho. A woman I hold in high esteem and try hard to prove I can be on her level. She to me has been the epitome of what a real Marquee Champion is. She didn’t duck any challengers and even when she might have gotten knocked down she came back to show it was only a bump in the road. I’ve tried to do the same thing since coming into LAW.
I may have came in a bit cocky in my ability compared to what I perceived from the others in the place yet I still gave them respect for what they accomplished. My first opponent, The Doc, showed me that what you perceive can be deceiving and still to this day I look at that win as one of my worst and one I’m not very proud of. But in the end I still gave her respect.
Yet time and time again people always come at me telling me to show them respect. That I should revere them when I step in the ring with them. Since day one that I stepped into the LAW I’ve shown my opponents nothing but respect. Has it always been returned to me, not in the slightest, yet I still show respect to whoever is put before me; day in and day out. Yet again more and more say I need to show them respect.
I’m starting to think if you demand respect then maybe you don’t deserve it. I can’t recall going into any of my matches demanding who I faced showed me respect. I may have said if they didn’t go in respecting me my work in the ring would be more than enough to show them I deserve it. Bur I never once demanded it from anyone. I think that is one reason why I admire Comacho so much because she has never demanded it from me in any of our encounters. Even when I crossed the line during one match she did not hold me to task and treat me asa redheaded step child as so many tried to paint me and my sister as but instead she took my apology as it was taken and did not shy away from giving me a hell of a match.
Now though you Ms. Mine come to me demanding that I give you respect, that I show you respect. All you are doing is making me respect you less and less with each demand you make.
You might feel slighted thinking because I haven’t talked about you before now that I haven’t paid attention to you and what not. But you can’t be any further from the truth. I’ve watched you and studied you since you’ve stepped into LAW. I’ve known you’ve had designs on the Marquee Title from jump and I’ve made sure to keep an eye on you. But I have also done the same for everyone in I LAW. I don’t go into my matches thinking I can just show up and win. I have the record to prove that on it’s own. But I have paid close attention to you Ms. Mine. I’ve relished when I could put my skill against yours in the ring to see who is the better athlete.
I may not have been talking about you, but I have noticed you and have respected you up ntil this point. You talk about me possibly underestimating you and overlooking you. You talk about me wanting the Marquee title as a way to garner fame or fortune or be part of a legacy. You talk about me just showing up doing what I got to do and leaving to hide until called upon again. You treat me ass I’m nothing more than either too high on myself and abilities, a glory hound, or a lazy champion. Yet in all three cases you couldn’t be further from the truth.
I’ll be the first to admit I lucked into a chance to vy for the Marquee Title. But the powers that be decide that I deserved a chance to compete for it despite possibly plenty others being worthy of it or campaigning for it. I took that opportunity and took advantage of it. I wasn’t gien a hand out despite there being some who felt I was. I proved I belonged. Then when it came to fight for the title itself, I didn’t demand it just be handed over to me. I knew I had to beat one of the best if not the best Marquee Champions to date in LAW in Gabby Comacho. I gave her everything and in return she did the same yet I prevailed then. But did I act like it should have been mine from the start. No, not in the least. I said once I won it I would continue to carry it like Gabby and even raise it past where she had it. I have not ducked or dodged anyone from challenging me for the title. I never ran away hiding in fear. I never felt no one deserved to fight me for it despite what you think. I am a fighting champ, and although I may have only defended it once since winning I was willing and still willing to defend it anytime and any place. I show up to each and every even waiting for someone to step up to me for a shot. And as much as you talk about how you’ve had your eye on it. I have not once seen you step to me for a shot. But I guess now is better than never.
Still though I feel you’ll come up short only because as much as you think I’m underestimating you, you’re underestimating me a whole lot more. I’m used to it though since every match I’ve been in my opponent has under estimated me and in the end I have shown more times than not they have been mistaken to do so. So continue to think you can just step in the Ring at Rising Stars and take this belt from me because I’m nothing more than a placeholder champion. Continue disrespecting me by demanding I give you respect without even earning it from me. Conitue to think you’ll be a better champion than me.
In the end you’ll have to face reality and relies none of these things are true and aren’t going to be coming true. Believe me I don’t doubt you deserve to be in the position you find yourself. I believe you busted your ass to get to this point, and will continue to bust your ass. But don’t think you’re goingto make a name over me. When all is said and done, I will show I’m way more than you estimate and expect, and then maybe just maybe you’ll give me the respect you think I owe you.
…but I won’t hold my breath.
February 21, 2015
St. Louis, Missouri
Streets of St. Louis
St. Louis, Missouri
Streets of St. Louis
It was the Eve of Rising Stars and despite the fact the only thing that should be on Nyako’s mind was her match for the event. It was the furthest thing at the moment. She had promised herself she wouldn’t be preoccupied by everything else going on in her life but her brain told her otherwise
It had been about a week and a half since Song and Kymiku were released from police custody and they found her. Without any prompting they regaled her with everything that happened during the three days and how they got out of trouble. They mention Uzai took the hit on what happened. Nyako didn’t believe he would do such a thing after he seemed dead set on making Song pay for the incident but having both of them there with her proved their story was true. She had been happy to have them safe and out of jail but wished she could have done more to help them other than lose her cool and almost get arrested herself that night. Instead she ended up back in her hotel room and spending the night with Maleek once again. Part of her didn’t regret what happened between the two of them but part of her knew things couldn’t keep happening like that. Despite his protests that he had nothing to do with what was going on with Oni she still felt uneasy being wit ha man she had once wanted nothing to do with.
As the drove, Nyako noticed Boris kept an eye on her in the back of the car. She figured she’d bounce like she did before her match with Crystal Hilton but it was the furthest thing on her mind. Last thing she wanted to be was alone with her thoughts. They were more than enough to drive any one mad and she was sure she was on the brink of it herself.
She flashed him a smirk that he saw in the rearview mirror which illicit a response from him. “So you don’t plan on leaving me again do you. Not sure I can have Syn buy the excuse two times in a row.”
“No, I think I’m better off sticking close to you for the time being. At least with you there is nothing complicated going on.” She chided him.
“So I’m simple huh. Not sure how to take that one.”
“Take it as a compliment Boris. You don’t have a hidden agenda or getting caught up in something bad. Your just plain old Boris.”
“Yeah the more you talk about it the less it sounds like a compliment.” He snorted
“Sorry, I don’t mean any disrespect. I’m just growing tired f it all. I have it coming at me from all directions. I’m glad to have both Kymiku and Song in my life as they are. They have given me a sense of family and despite us not always meeting on the same page I wouldn’t trade it in for anything in the world. Yet sometimes I wonder if things would be better if well…”
He finished her thought knowing she didn’t have the heart too. “You’d be better of going into things like you used to? As a lone wolf? No worries cept your own?”
Nyako squirmed in the seat a bit as the statement rang true. Granted they weren’t the only issue in everything as f late there was still VanReardon and Raheem. She wasn’t sure if Oni wasn’t around would she be the main focus of VanReardon’s crusade to destroy or not. Would she even be in this thing with Maleek if Oni wasn’t around? As much as Oni tried to turn over a new chapter in her life people seemed to want to keep taking her back to the old place she used to be. Still she couldn’t put it all on her, Oni tried shielding Nyako from as much of the blowback as she could but dealing with CTN that was easier said than done.
“It’s stupid honestly. Like I said I rather be with them than without them. It’s just that there are times despite having them in my life, I’m less involved with them than I should be. Every time I try to help they always tell me 'Ny worry about yourself, don’t worry about us, we can deal with it, we don’t want to make you lose sight of where your going'.”
“Well it’s showing they care about you isn’t it? They rather you not worry than drag you down.”
Now it was time for Nyako to snort. “Yeah well if we weren’t involved with CTN maybe that could work but they make sure everyone connected gets drawn into the mix of things and I’m usually the last to know about what’s going on. I think that’s what’s so damn frustrating in the long term of things. If I know what’s going on beforehand I might be able to stop things from getting to where they get to. What’s to sayI could have stopped what happened to Kreese before it happened.”
“Didn’t that Uzai charcter take the fall for it?”
“Yeah but only after the hell Song had to go through. I mean I thought I had the situation under control until he just…” Nyako shook her head as she thought back to that night and hoiw everything played out. If Uzai didn’t sell out Song she and Oni wouldn’t have been detained for three days, she also wouldn’t have slept with Raheem again that night. That was another thing that just laid on her mind going into Rising Star.
Again she had to think if she was alone would any of the things that happened would have happened?
“I don’t know what to tell you. You got to deal with the life you are dealt with. If it was meant to be ‘simple’..” He said with a slight sarcastic tone in his voice. “Then it would have been dealt to you. But then would you be where you are now if it was like that. I know your questioning if things would be easier if you were a lone wolf but would you be as successful and determined and revered if you were?”
“Tell that to my opponents. Every single one of them for the most part seem to think I’m a push over. Look at what Fujiko said recently.”
“Yeah well you usually make it a point to shut them up after they get in the ring wit hyou though also. I’m not saying you couldn’t do that if you were by yourself but looking at your tract record you seemed to be a bigger threat with someone in your corner and you could depend on or at least fall back on than when you were by yourself. As much trouble as Oni and Song may bring to you, they still provide you with the incentive to keep pushing. Probably one reason why they tell you not ot worry about them cause they know if you did you’d be back floundering.”
Nyako sat in the back of the car in silent for a bit as Boris’ words ran through her head. It was the point she always told herself but it meant more and validated it hearing it from someone else. There were plenty of people who told her or alluded to her that her sisters more so Oni than Song were holding her back, but for one person to tell her the complete opposite made her feel it was worth the effort to rebuild things with her sisters.
“I slept with Maleek again.” She said out of the blue feeling she needed to tell someone. It struck her as funny how she resolved one issue to jump to the next.
The car slowed for a moment as Boris processed this information. He knew he was the only one she confided her first encounter with him to and he promised to keep it under wraps despite his better judgement, but this time made him wonder if he did the right thing.
“It happened the night Song and Oni were taken in. We ended up back at my hotel, I laid into him for what was going on and blaming him for the mess. He told me he had nothing to do with it and as much as I didn’t want to believe him, I kind of did. I’m probably an idiot for taking the word of Maleek Raheem at face value but I did. Still I was heated and wouldn’t drop the subject, then it just happened.” She recounted to him as she looked out the window.
“I think Ms. Syn needs to know…”
“NO!!!” Nyako snapped as she turned her head in Boris’ direction ad made eye contact with him in the rearview mirror. “No…the last thing I need is for her to tell me how big of a mistake this is I’m making. It’s bad enough I’m keeping it from Oni and everyone else. I don’t need to be remind how fucked up the situation is.”
“Isn’t this one of your complaint about your sisters though? Secrets?”
“I know what I’m doing…” She said pausing for a second. “At least I think I do. It’s meaningless really. He’s just a body I’m using to work things out on.”
Boris looked at her through the mirror not buying it.
“It means nothing. I can stop it. Besides it’s fucking Maleek, not like I’m nothing more than a fun lay for him either. As I see it we are both getting something out of it and no one is getting hurt.”
“But didn’t you suspect that he and VanReardon…”
“Like I said he told me he wasn’t involved with that bitch.”
“The Priya incident.”
“A mistake on both our parts. His intentions were well, his intentions weren’t to get me caught up.”
“That’s convenient for him to say before you and he hook up again. Isn’t it.” Boris’ disdain could be heard in his voice.
They rode in silence a bit longer before Nyako spoke again. “If he fucks me over, I’ll be damn sure to make him pay. It’s plain and simple as that.”
Boris snorted, deciding it was best to drop the subject. Again they rode in silence before he made a comment.
“You ready for tomorrow? Ms. Syn said she’ll be at ringside for you.”
“As ready as I can be. I’m looking forward to breaking the streak on being the champ from one ppv to the next honestly. I’m also ready to make Mine eat her words. I’m honestly getting sick and tired of people talking own to me but expect me to give them respect. Yet once again someone does that very thing.”
As she finished her thought they pulled up to the gym for Nyako to get one last work out in before her match the following night. Boris turned toward her as he started to get out of the car. “You want me to come inside with you?”
“No dad. I'm a big girl, I’m okay on my own. I won’t cause any trouble I promise.” She said before smirking at him and closing the door behind her with her gym bag over her shoulder.
He watched as she entered the gym and the gym door closed. He punched in Syn’s number making sure Nyako wasn’t coming back. He waited as the phone rang but went to voice mail.
“Yeah boss. We might have an issue...It’s about Nyako and Raheem. You might want to look into it.” He said before ending the call and waiting for Nyako to comeback out to be taken back to the hotel.