Post by Mackenzie Roberts on May 23, 2015 8:49:12 GMT -5
My Validation:
“Who am I?
Am I the girl that I have been saying I am? The girl that hates everyone that wants to make everyone hate me? Or am I a girl that is lost that is trying too hard to find a relationship and when it comes to me I run from it? I have been looking in the mirror lately wondering who I really am. I’m lost and I will admit that I’m happy with wrestling thought I’d never let that go because it makes me feel good. I like being in that ring and fighting people and making them tap. Making them feel the pain that I have been feeling for a while now. The pain that I feel has been around me all the time and maybe that is why relationships are hard for me. I’ve never been able to find something that I can hold on to and be proud that I have it. Maybe it is a wandering eye or maybe it is a fear of being hurt, either way I just haven’t been able to buckle down and be myself. Be someone that can love and be loved. Sorry for the tangent it was just something that I have been thinking about and by writing it down I thought maybe that it’d make me feel better. But I guess what had made me think about it was when Vi told me that I needed someone to keep me busy so I’d stop sending her game requests. Now, am I off of my game because of this?
I hope not.
LAW has been good to me. At first I was great and then I started to fall, mostly because I teamed with Alexis Jones and she just couldn’t step up her game when we were wrestling side by side. That took me down a notch and made me think about my career and what I wanted to do with it. Alexis is now gone and now all I have to think about is myself and the Pink Ladies which is probably a good thing. I want this group to be the best thing that LAW has ever seen and we have done well. We just need to keep going we need to be the heroes that people don’t think we are but we know we are.
Also, I have had a shot at the LAW championship against Oni and I lost that. There I think I have lost some of the momentum that I had created for myself. If I won the title I would have been huge, I would have been the biggest star in this company. That loss though has been eating me alive, I wanted that title. I wanted to be standing on top of the mountain and watching every girl in this company come after me and try and beat me. Now I sit in the middle chasing the title, climbing limb from limb trying to get to the top of the mountain. I just need to fight I need to become the bitch that I know I can be. I need to win I need to fight and that is what I will do. I will fight and I will make every single girl in this company tap. At Validation, I validate how damn good I am. I make her tap.
~Mackenzie”
Mackenzie was in the locker room she had just arrived in Seattle last night. She had wanted to get in sooner but things had kept coming at her that had made her stay in LA. As she sat in the locker room she dressed and was tying up her boots. In a few hours she was going to be fighting Crystal Hilton in a submission match. A match that Crystal Hilton had been calling for. Mackenzie had taken it because she wanted to shut Crystal up she had become a thorn in the side of Mackenzie she wanted to go out and beat her. That is probably why she was in the locker room with all of her gear on already. She had been quiet most of the day as she arrived to the arena and just went to the locker room. Not looking at anyone or talking to anyone even her friends in the Pink Ladies. There she sat looking at herself in her makeup mirror, she closed it and looked up into the camera and she shot a sweet smile that well would catch you off guard when she would use it. You just didn’t expect someone with the attitude she had would shoot a smile like that.
Mackenzie Roberts: Christina…
Mackenzie smiled as she said that knowing that Crystal Hilton hated it. She giggled and then took a serious look on her face.
Mackenzie Roberts: In a few hours you and I have a match that you asked for. That you wanted me in and that you are going to get me in. You asked for this sweetie and you are going to be the one that taps, you’ll be the one that is screaming in pain like your sister-in-law was two weeks ago. Oh I know you jumped me from behind a couple weeks ago and made me scream and made me tap furiously on that mat. But that was then and this is now, you will not be able to do it tonight, you will not be able to make me scream in pain again Christina, this is a match with a referee in it. You won’t be able to jump me from behind, and oh I know I did the same thing to you as well I jumped you from behind and made you tap and made you scream. Christina, one of us will be screaming one of us will be tapping and one of us will be getting our hands raised in victory. I have a little spoiler alert it will be me getting my hand raised.
Mackenzie smiled again and shook her head as she started to stretch her arms in a seated position.
Mackenzie Roberts: Christina we have been going back and forth on twitter and how we want to beat each other and how I am just a little girl that won’t be able to beat you and all of that. But I have done it before, I have proven to you and to everyone here in LAW that I can beat you, you have to prove to me that you can beat me in that ring. Jumping me from behind is one thing Christina but fighting me in that ring is a different thing, oh and coming to my hotel room what was that Christina? I know I called you out and said that you wouldn’t but you did but what did it achieve. Granted I know you wanted to come there so you could try and find my panties on the ground and see what I wear that you couldn’t pull off but other than that what did you think you would do to me by doing that? Did you think you’d get into my head and get me off of my game? You see coming to my hotel room and trying to talk crap didn’t do anything to me. I have hurt you before Christina, I made your back hurt and I made you want to scream in pain and cry out for everything.
Mackenzie got up and started to walk around the room. She was getting more and more confident as she spoke.
Mackenzie Roberts: Christina, I know I’m ready for you. I want fight you I want to beat you and I know you want to beat me as well. That is the point of this business Christina, we need to fight we need to end this thing that we have been doing the past few months. You asked for this submission match and you are going to get it. I don’t simply want to make you tap Christina I want to hurt you, I want to break you. That little smug attitude that you have I hate it. I have the same attitude and I get it but I back it up. This match isn’t for you Christina, in a pure rage after I made you scream you asked for it and you got it. In a way I do have to give you credit. You might be asking why and I will say because you haven’t backed out of this. You have kept going with it you have kept trying to make me made over twitter and all of this. You have been trying to goad me into hurting you even before the match. But it is fine Christina, soon this all ends soon this match will take place and everyone will watch us and see what gives in and see who gets their hand raised.
Mackenzie sighed and she sat back down and looks at herself in her mirror one time and she fixes her hair.
Mackenzie Roberts: Did you get your hair fixed Christina?
I know you were talking about it and all of that stuff. I mean if you got it fixed you better have it on speed dial because I will pull some of it out for you. I will throw it into the stands so someone can make a Christina doll, and guess what it’d still be a better wrestler than you. Of course I have confidence and if I lose this match Christina I will have to look into the mirror and wonder where I went wrong and how you beat me. We are both overconfident Christina and if I didn’t hate you so much then well I’d probably kind of want to hang out with you, the problem is that I hate you with every bone in my body. This match is not going to be fun for you Christina I want to hurt you I want to make you scream and I want to make you tap and finally understand that I’m better than you. You can sit in the locker room thinking of what you are going to do to me but at the end of the day it will not matter. I will take you down and I will make you simply say sorry to me that you made this match.
SCREAM IN PAIN CHRISTINA!
Mackenzie slammed shut her mirror and looked deeper into the camera and smiled.
Mackenzie Roberts: What happens Christina when I put that Queen Bitch Clutch on you? When you feel me on your back and stretching you all the way back and you can scream and want to tap and when you do I keep that hold on you. I don’t care if you tap Christina because I will keep going and I will not stop until someone pulls me off of you. When this match ends Christina one of us will be happy and one of us will be in pain and girl I don’t intend to be in pain. I want to send you back to your significant other broken. You see I have nothing to lose in this match you can’t send me back to anyone broken…
Mackenzie stops and sighs tears started to well up in her eyes.
Mackenzie Roberts: …you see Christina, you have at least something that can make you happy…
…I have nothing…
So when I break you and make you scream and make you cry you can feel the pain that I have right now. The pain of no one cares if I get hurt. No one cares if I lay on that mat with pain going through my body. You have someone that cares for you and will mend you back to health me nothing. So you see I am giving your boyfriend something to do watch after you when I break your back. Like I said you asked for this Christina and you are going to get it with everything that I have. The Queen Bitch is coming after you and I will hurt you. I want to hurt you I need to hurt you. I have nothing…
…so I need to do this…
…Good luck Christina you will need it when I break you. When I take you to the limit. When I make you tap when I make you scream. This is ending and I’m winning there is nothing else I can do.
Mackenzie wiped her eyes of the tears that had started to form. She looked deep into the camera and took a slow wink and blew a kiss to the camera as the scene faded to black.